I’m feelin a bit sad so excuse the rant
I realize this might sound stupid but this is the first year of my birthday that my family isn’t celebrating my birthday together. In fact there will be no special thing happening on the day of my birthday. The wednesday before it (this wednesday) my mum is taking me to a show in sanfransico and that’s amazing it’s crazy awesome because she knows how much i love musical theatre, but the thing is on the day of my birthday we’re just gonna go to San Francisco for the cherry blossom festival on the actual day of my birthday... and it sucks because we’d go even if it wasn’t my birthday and we’re going on the 19th too so it’s not just the 18th which is my actual birthday and this sucks. I don’t mean to feel ungreatful just lately it seems to me that I feel like really only my mom loves me and that’s great and all but it hurts to feel that my grandparents stopped. And don’t think our family skimps out on birthdays, just mine. My fratello’s (my aunt who’s like my sister) sweet sixteen they rented a ballroom at the hilton and decorated with twilight stuff cus she was obsessed with it at the time but for my sweet sixteen it was frozen because that’s what was popular at the time and supernatural what i was (And still am) obsessed with was too “weird” for my family. Every other of her birthday they had at least a small family gathering but for me what did i get. I got a goddamn cookie cake with little cutouts of anime character, courtesy of my mom. I feel so stupid sitting in my room crying and blogging about how because the family isn’t even bothering to get together on my birthday i feel unloved and dammit i feel like a spoiled brat. and shit i got tears on my trackpad and i doubt anyone read this far and i’m just gonna go cry into my pillow and read some stupid fanfiction cus fictional characters i think are nicer than family...