cw: ocd, anxiety, how i dealt with them
a way i i have/had (i say both cuz it's on and off) to relieve my anxiety caused by thoughts is to write my responses to the thoughts in my personal inbox.
needless to say, that act makes it worse. i am always on a loop of anxiety.
so in 2022, i decided to end this for ocd. no matter what happened, i wont respond to my thought, especially in the inbox. i made sure i start getting annoyed by that act, so much so i stop doing it.
there's no real success rate to it, but i would say i definitely lessened the act of texting myself arguments and responses to my thoughts, which in turn decreased my anxiety about the thoughts.
i still get thoughts. just as much, probably. but i am not as anxious as i was of them before. that's the hack.
i relapse plenty of times, but it doesn't make this attempt unfruitful. i am a lot less anxious because of a consistent decision i made back in 2022.