62 for the fic writer game?
62: what’s the weirdest reason you’ve ever shipped something?
This will sound really bad, but I hope it's a sign of how I've grown as a person!
I shipped Kimblee/Envy initially because back then, I felt I wasn't "allowed" to ship anything gay because it was "wrong". Kimblee was my big interest initially, but he mostly interacted with other men, and I didn't like shipping him with Riza and especially not Winry since those were the only girls he interacted with.
I was rewatching different scenes and got so fixated on the scene with him and Envy. They had so much chemistry just in that short scene. Even though Kimblee was my first interest, Envy was also very interesting to me. And even though others refer to them as a boy in the show, they were so androgynous and shape-shifted into so many different people that I was pretty sure they weren't a boy, even if they weren't a girl. So I somehow made a loophole for myself because "Envy's not a boy so it's okay to ship them" and let myself get really into the ship in earnest.
I'm embarrassed that that was my thought process at the time, but I'm really grateful to Kimvy because they were my first queer ship that I ever wrote for and let myself fully indulge in without feeling guilty. Looking back now, I would do some things differently if I was going to write for them again, because I would want to show more respect for nonbinary identities. But at the same time, when I reread my old fics for them, I can see ideas and thoughts that I didn't understand at the time, but believe now, so even though the initial thought process was bad, I still stand by most of what I wrote.
One thing that I find interesting looking back is that I could've made it more het since Envy can shapeshift, but I got really fixated on how Envy created this ideal body for themself and felt most at home in it. Part of their fear I gave them was Kimblee discovering their "true form" and growing disgusted with them, but I wound up writing him learning about it and accepting it, and them both acknowledging Envy's preferred form as their actual "true" body without the "true form" mattering at all. It wound up being a trans allegory before I even understood trans stuff at all, and before I knew I was trans either. So I think it's so neat how they predicted things for me and helped me grow.
















