#chetwyn

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F for Cassetti Ermine everyone.

This was supposed to be a quick morning doodle. I ended up taking a whole day just to draw Dulcinea's outfit. Then I thought might as well colour it in greyscale, then use gradient map to fill in the colour.

I've had this idea way back when, and I only got the balls to draw it now. It was worth every minute. My mouth was agape just like Ermine's when I was drawing it. This too is yuri.

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We all have our favourite vocaloids to listen to hehe… my fav is Luka, Chetwyn’s fav is Teto, Othello’s fav is Kafu, and Ermine’s fav is Fukase.

[naruhate]

i'm curious. who does othello parallel to?

What, a question for me?

Short answer: Othello parallels Outis.

Long answer: They are both parental figures in my Tram, Othello being a Smoke War veteran who wants nothing to do with the City anymore. They were set up by Iago, one of their protégés, and their whole crew was doomed for death. Othello technically did not survive, because they had lost their identity (like Odysseus becoming Outis ‘nobody’) and mutated into this pallid mermaid thingy that I adore.

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I couldn't resist drawing this. Chetwyn as Valencina ID.

I'm so sleepy. I don't know if I want to colour it or leave it noir. This looks like a mafia film screencap fr. This is pre-uptie, right before I get my eye lopped off. My headmates keep saying I look like Whitney from DoL lmao.

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Desdemona~ She really is the cutest girl in the world.

I'm making art to edit those voice claims videos.

I just realised I drew her at the start of last month when I started my job. Then I've been spiralling down this web of Limbus Company posting even though I wasn't even playing the game much at that point. I've became a lot more shameless since lmao.

They used to be beans... You can still find them on the blog dated March 4th. Idk... I think she looks better as a bean. Can't believe I'd butcher her looks like this.

[naruhate]

Hey, if anyone cares, I just wanna brief you on my life rn. Mostly for my headmate’s sake, so they know what’s up too.

I’m working a job that I don’t want, but I have no choice because it’s currently the only place that will take me. And I’ll have to endure for an indefinite amount of time until they fire me or a different place I consent to picks me up. It sounds simple right?

However, reality is that every single hirer that I contact needs to look at my curriculum vitae, and they will see that I missed several years of education. It’s not like they’d know my health history. Do you know what they’d think when they see my CV? “I asked for an abled person to work, so why do you waste my time to bring your face here?” Every single time. I could always hear their unspoken disdain for me being outside of my containment zone. But they simply say I’m not suitable for the job. Right, so what is a job suitable for human trash like me?

I can’t even get hired for physical labour that people get trafficked to do. And every second I breathe I’m just fulfilling someone’s ableist ideas of what my disorders represent. And I really wish I’d just die already to save everyone that trouble, but even I know that it’s a load of bull crap that I’m made to feel this way.

Oh addition to post: I only got this job at all because my dad personally knows the CEO, so he was pleading, and also, I had to be there and listen to all the ableist things he’d say about me to the employer like “thanks for having this kid around even though it’s disabled, it can still work though, if you give it work to do.” How flattering.

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Did i cook with this? I was just looking at Rodion's uptie art while trying to get the same vibe. Don't want to draw background so... it's white. I know the weapon is hard to see, but it's a baton that's also like a whip sword can extend to do electroshock damage specifically to shields... Complicated I know. Also I know it looks more complicated than what I usually draw, but I tend to put way more effort in drawing when I'm angry so yea.

This will be used for the voiceclaim vid as usual.

Effie was made to be my parallel guys trust just look at this expression. I'm happy that Rodya got this ID so I can steal it from her.

Did you know he has a long braid and prosthetic right arm. And Saude recently lost the other arm on the left. They're matching <3.

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I quat my job.

People would make unemployment illegal if they knew how happy I am.

I was sitting on the bus to go back home like any day, but I sat facing the window the whole time. I saw everyone head home in a hurry, reminding me of my youth, when I was always rushed home late in the afternoon, and as soon as we got home, my mom would hurry to make us dinner while barely holding back her exhaustion. And I felt glad. I’m so glad I’m not one of them.

Right now I feel like I’m above everyone. I’ve given up on being normal and just surviving their lifestyle. They’re going to tell me I’m selfish, that I give nothing back to the world, and they wouldn’t be wrong. I won’t give anything back to them. :) I’m all mine. All that I ever created and will ever create are mine alone. Go and try to take it from me. I’m not giving up an inch. Nobody can take anything from me anymore.

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I won’t ever live a life where I have to submit just to survive. If death is free, yet I haven’t died, then aren’t I living life for free as well?

Why, I’m already disabled you know? The fascist regime wants me dead sooner or later anyway. So why don’t I just live for myself for as long as I can? When the time comes and I’ll be dead, I’ll at least live in a way I can be proud of. Living any better than now is just not worth betraying myself for. So I will be the scum of society to them and survive purely on good will. I will live like the animals I see on the streets, being so secure in their existence that they lay sprawling in the sun.