real life
i guess i should do a real update. it's saturday and i don't have anything i have to do. there's family stuff tomorrow so i'm staying and driving home monday morning and doing one last farm errand on the way, provided i can fit three or four hundred pounds of chicken into my subaru forester, which i know i can. (what is it, four or five cardboard boxes? no problem.)
So, general farm updates and me updates and what's up.
Over the winter they hired somebody to be in charge of the kitchen, which is awesome. What's been happening is that BIL is in charge of the kitchen and I show up to do the work in it, and then he gets called away to do various projects, and I'm left working alone in there unless Farmsister can abandon the veggie crew and come bail me out. Which she had to do frequently, because a lot of the jobs in there aren't one-person-doable jobs.
The reason for the change is not that that wasn't working, because it sort of was even though it was exhausting and stressful. But BIL has started doing off-farm work, first as a consultant and then more regularly. So he's had to replace himself in as many of those projects as possible. And he never really enjoyed the kitchen stuff anyway (and absolutely had no head for the details of it, and there were so many things he forgot about every time that were suddenly emergencies I had to solve every time, etc.), so. Hiring somebody there was obvious. And they lucked out; an Overqualified Mom who'd been part-time helping them on the veggie crew when her kid was tiny was now at liberty again now that her kid is in school, and so she already knows the farm, knows them, has a past in kitchen work, also has a past in office logistics work. So she's there, and she's an Overqualified Bitch With A Clipboard, and I am delighted even if in the moment she keeps doing things Differently and I get stressed out. Fortunately we're both spectrum-ish enough that we had an immediate frank conversation (she was like "sometimes I don't want to talk so if I don't it's not because I'm mad" and I was like "sometimes I get agitated and don't know how to fix my face or regulate my voice but I'm not mad either" and so we've been coexisting pretty happily ever since, and thank God, she seems to absolutely read my Overstimulated And Distressed About It state pretty spot-on-- BIL would always always read it as aggression/anger, which it never was, so then I had to manage him about it, and he was great at communicating this but I still had to talk him through it, which was exhausting).
It did occur to me to realize that I was being phased out. But at one point, of course in the middle of everything, my sister said, "My ambition this year was to use you less. I don't want you to feel bad about that. But these last couple of years I keep realizing that you're in pain and exhausted and I've wanted more than anything to be able to tell you to go sit down and that you've done enough, and I couldn't afford to. So i'm trying to get more helpers to come in, so I can tell you to go sit down, because you've done enough, and you've done enough for years, and we couldn't have done this but I don't want to keep using you so much."
Which was very sweet and I almost cried, though in the moment what I said was, "oh I'm not mad! I'm excited about it!" because, with explanation, I am.
Mostly right now I think I'm in a lot of pain because i really really underdid things this winter, because I was so tired and my brain was shutting down, so I'm basically veal trying to do the work of beef. My cartilage tear is completely healed to the point I can't even tell which hip it was, but I can tell which hip it was because the muscles there are so weak from underuse, and now I'm having to tense up all sorts of things that can't take that strain. So I'm having sciatic nerve pain like never before. But I know what it is at least, and I know I just have to generally improve my conditioning, and I don't know how but I'll have to figure it out.
This week was a lot of work but it was manageable. We processed about 400 chickens and cut up about 240 of them, and the new kitchen manager was very chipper about it until she realized just how much chicken that is. But we had enough help, for once, and the fact that BIL was only available for about 15 hours of the week didn't fuck us over, and we finished everything in good time and have set ourselves up for only small tasks next week.
Which is good, because Dude scheduled a routine medical procedure and needs me home to drive him, and I had to agree to it without knowing the farm schedule because he was supposed to get it done over the winter and somehow didn't realize that the "first chicken processing day" on the calendar he can see in fact means the season has begun.
I need to be able to spend more time in Buffalo this summer than in previous years. I started doing this part time at the farm lark partly because I wasn't enjoying the dynamic in Buffalo, but a lot of things have changed. Dude's work is very well-paid by now, but it's also extremely absorbing, and he is winding up so burnt out he can't even really make conversation in the evenings. I think I need to resign myself to housewifing at least a little. I wasn't willing to in previous years because I was working as many hours as he was. But if I cut down my hours I don't mind so much being leaned on for housework, as long as it's acknowledged. I'm not actually capable of running a household, mind, but that's a separate issue I can work on.
So anyway. I'll still be going back and forth a lot but I think I won't be doing the insane three weeks at a stretch kinda shit anymore, or not so much. I'm definitely going to miss at least two processing dates, one because of the trip to Europe in July that I need to get onto the calendar posthaste.
Anyway.
BIL and Farmsister are considering trying to restructure the farm to be more like an employee-owned co-op, partly inspired by More Trees Coop among others. When they bought the business it was very much run on the Joel Salatin model, which they gradually realized was wildly unsustainable-- it relies heavily on a continuous supply of young interested people who want to learn, who you can then abuse, pay nothing, exploit, wear out, and throw away. Salatin's model also relies pretty heavily on having independent money and making big bucks on the lecture circuit telling other people how to do what he does only without the independent capital and lecture circuit, which is sort of doomed to fail. Not wanting to do the lecture circuit, and finding the endless sourcing-then-exploitation of young people looking to learn to be exhausting and distasteful, the farm has been trying since then to build itself around finding motivated and dedicated people who enjoy working together, and a co-op really seems the way to go with that. there are drawbacks, so who knows if that idea will go anywhere, but it's really a compelling notion. (Also, two of the farm employees this season are More Trees' founder's actual real life sons, so it's not like we don't have a pretty good behind-the-scenes look there. Neither of them is an arborist, but both are pretty all-around-clever types. The younger one was only hired on for a couple of projects and has since departed to resume a course of education, but the older one seems to be on for the long haul.)
Another guiding principle is that those of the original farm team left are all in their forties now, and everybody here is interested in figuring out ways to not have to lift really heavy things over and over and over again. We're really really interested in that. Much of the occasional labor pool is that really crucial core team of overqualified parents (they're mostly moms, but not all; we lost the one really great overqualified dad who went back to work now that his kid is into elementary school, but the overqualified grandpa just keeps coming around and good for him) and they're also generally not young or dumb enough to want to lift heavy weights endlessly. So we're trying to make things better.
The big change for chicken day was that since the dark ages (we call it the Dark Ages before we built the slaughterhouse, when we worked down at the other end of the barn and the kill cones were outdoors, which sucked on rainy days) we've had this single long stainless-steel counter that we've used for eviscerating. In the slaughterhouse, it was shoved against one wall of the room, braced in place, and we all worked side by side; we were limited on how fast we could go because we simply could not fit more than seven people into the room, six eviscerators and one de-lunger.
This winter (actually, the first week of May), BIL ripped the counter out. Part of it is still there, just inside the pass-through window, propped against the wall, so the pluck table can shove chickens into the room and they wait there. but now there are two freestanding tables oriented the other direction (steel tables with a custom railing welded on and a hole sawed in the middle for guts and debris to be easily dropped through, no reason for gut tubs on the floor, no tripping hazards, plus now the tables can be moved for the floor to be cleaned and nobody ever has to crawl under the counter again to get the pesky lung chunks out of the corner by the wall where they do insist on washing up), and four people can stand around each table, and can walk past each other to go get more chickens. And then an additional up to two people can walk around, doing the de-lunging and final inspections and then carrying the finished chickens to the chill tanks, and wheeling the chill tanks in and out of the room and into the walk-in cooler. So we can go much, much faster now. That's two whole eviscerators, I can't do the math on what kind of pace increase that means but it's not insignificant.
Furthermore. The room for additional people is one big help, but the second big thing is that with the old counter, if one of the four people on the side near the window made a mess, everyone on that side had to stop and lift up their work so the table could get rinsed down. With the more square tables, each person's workstation is a bit more isolated, and you can rinse your own station without affecting someone else's. We also could share knives, in a way that wasn't possible before, and can help each other, and conversations are easier.
The other thing I'm excited about is that the longer piece of the old counter went out into what used to be a storage area, a big messy area of the barn that the new kitchen manager cleaned and reorganized. So now that counter is set up for washing eggs. Used to be that we washed eggs in the eviscerating room, and every other week i'd have to start work early Monday morning, wash all the eggs, pack the eggs, put them away, clear all of the egg-washing equipment and paraphernalia out of the room into boxes in the storage area (precarious piles, mostly), find a place for the incoming egg baskets to live out of reach of rats (difficult to impossible), then clean the room, which would be filthy because eggs are filthy and it's a lot of traffic in and out of the room to have them there, and that was hours of work. And then on the day after slaughter, I'd have to come out and spend an hour or two putting everything back to rights so eggs could be deposited in that room again.
So this has at a stroke eliminated like six to ten hours of work from my slaughter-week schedule. At least. Stupid, repetitive work that obliterates itself in the reset, but has to happen-- gone! Just gone. I'm so excited. It's not even that they've had to find someone to do that work-- now it's work nobody ever has to do again. Keeping the egg area tidy is trivial by comparison. No problem, anyone can do it, nobody has to then hunt down the paraphernalia from whatever storage situation it was left in. Oof.
Anyway. Little luxuries you didn't think were luxuries.
Are we getting old? Maybe. Are we going to increase our capacity? Probably.
















