Ah a few minutes of rest... time to attack the email inbox 😖. First a medblr update. Does anyone even medblr anymore? Who cares I need to vent.
The last few months have been the busiest of my entire residency career and, well, life actually. Maybe I’ve been sheltered so far in my residency but this is the first time I felt, like, this is what is meant by “residency” where you live breathe work residency and reside at the hospital. I think I thought that a few times before but the past few months really blew that out of the water. 100% of my time not sleeping has been devoted to residency. 100%. And the sleeping has been pretty limited. I’ve been on the busiest rotation of my program, and we’ve been the busiest we’ve ever been. On top of that I had to do a lot of work to facilitate graduation for our chiefs and now I am taking over as chief and taking on all of that work. On top of that, I was interviewing for jobs this spring and have finally signed an offer letter because there was a bit of back and forth to make sure they have everything I need to practice the way that I should (yay! but stressful). On top of all that, my co-resident has not been doing well. Actually, she has not been doing well this entire residency. Many people have tried to help her along the way, including me but she is her own worst enemy. And her lack of competence. And her ability to take feedback and improve. And her inability to accept fault ever. And her fucking antagonism. She is the most antagonistic person I’ve ever met. I don’t really believe in personality disorders but hooo boy does she have one. Maybe the most difficult person I have ever dealt with on a prolonged basis. So she is being held back a few months. This is good actually because I was wondering if we were going to graduate an incompetent resident. I’m relieved that our program director does not want to do that. Wish I could go into it more but don’t want to even on an anonymous account. She is going to stir some shit though. Given that I have dedicated so much to my program, which I genuinely feel is giving me great training, I have some feelings about it.
Anyways, been doing all the work plus more.
As one of my attendings told me: the reward for winning a pie eating contest is - more pie. (if you do good work you only get more work to do)
