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How I Met Your Father

Kids, this is the story of how I met your father.  Back in my time, I had an idea that love was fallacy. It was bullshit tangina. It's not real and it was for losers. But everything that I believed in was changed when I met your father. Kids, the Universe will stop you into going to a deep hole that would make your life miserable. The Universe has its ways in the world and I can't begin to explain on how it constantly moves. But what I know is that it's never wrong, never late, and always at the right place. It was a sunny day when I stepped out of the old apartment. I was craving  to eat at this local restaurant down the street because patay gutom ako but I turned left instead of going straight because I remembered that the old restaurant is close every Sunday and kids, up until now the old restaurant is still open. Anyways, I turned left because there was a hotdog stand near the flower shop. I was hungry and I needed a snack. After eating the hotdog, I came across this garage sale. The owner of the garage sale was a WWII veteran. He told me his war stories. He said that he fell in love with the city even though it was destroyed. "Even though everything is in ruins, beauty is seen" he said to me. I saw an old picture of his regiment, an old picture of him and tanks, and a letter of his father to him. I checked out the things for sale in his garage sale. An old calendar, baseball cards and clocks were seen throughout the place. After checking out everything, I stumbled upon a WWII Zippo lighter for sale and surprisingly it doesnt have damage and still intact. I asked the wonderful old man how much is it but he gave it to me for free for being an awesome listener. Kids, I don't smoke ha nakakaloka there's just something about the lighter. I parted ways with the old man and settled down to a coffee shop near his place. I entered the coffee shop and there he was, I saw him sitting down waiting for his coffee while holding a cigarette. Kids, I know that smoking is bad for your health but with coffee, you would think otherwise. Anyways, I saw him there as I was in line. Usually people wouldn't like long lines to get their order but that day when I saw your father for the very first time, I could just stand there and just look at him sitting down with his unlit cigarette in his hand. As the barista walked towards him to give him the coffee he ordered I started to panic because I thought he was leaving so I just ordered a bottled water and told the cashier to hurry. When the barista gave him the drink, he stood up and walked towards the smoking area. He checked his left and right pockets for a lighter. I walked towards him with the zippo that the old man gave me then I touched his left shoulder. As he turned around I smiled. When he looked at me, I knew that day that I will spend every waking moment with him. Now kids, why is the little details important in the story? Because everything is connected. If I walked straight towards the old restaurant instead of going left, then the timing wouldn't be right. There are thousands of coffee shops in the city and if I haven't met the old man, I wouldn't be in that coffee shop and I've never met your father. But instead, The Universe worked its mysterious ways and made everything right. That day when I stepped out of the apartment I never knew that my life would change forever. Maybe one day that will happen to you too but let's not think about it. Because it will happen at a day when you least expect it.  Because maybe life isn't clear or maybe it's in ruins but, beauty is always seen. And kids, that is the story of how I met your father.

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Ang hirap pala lumayo, lalo na kung yung nilalayuan mo ay hindi mo pwedeng layuan sa madaming mga rason. Walang pwedeng gawin kundi lunukin ang sakit sa mga panahong kailangan siyang kausapin pero ang totooo ay gusto ko nang tumakbo sa malayo. Masakit pa din sa akin yung naglihim sya.

Siguro nga minahal ko sya, pero yung tadhana na ang nagsabi na mali yung nararamdaman ko. Natauhan ako na hindi nga pala ko ang gusto nya. Putek, 2x ang sakit.

Pero naisip ko, deserve ko ba yung sakit na yun? Parang hindi na. Mas magandang lumayo nalang talaga.

Ang sakit putek. Pero kaya ko ito. Magsama sila! Hahaha. Baka pagbuhulin ko pa sila dun sa far away.

Probably may deserve pa akong iba.

[korekkongbata]

May realization lang ako kanina:

Siguro through sex mo malalaman na gusto ka talaga ng tao?! Sa act kasi na yun, mas madalas na malalaman mo na tanggap ka ng partner mo by how the ritual went out.

That person will accept you physically and emotionally. Through sex kasi, madalas nalabas lahat yun. All inhibitions and vulnerability kasi nalabas throught that act.

Unsure kung twisted ang thinking ko or what?

What’s your opinion?

[korekkongbata]

Hindi ko alam if mata ko lang o may kakaiba lang talaga kagabi.

Nagising ako ng 1:58am dahil sa sama ng panaginip. ang natatandaan ko lang sa panaginip ko ay masama. Basta masama sya, laaht ng naiisip ko ay madilim at negative. Yung parang may nabulong sa akin na puro kasamaan lang. Nakakatakot.

Napamulat ako sa takot. Ang pinaka weird ay may pattern akong nakikita sa buong kwarto. Unti unti ko kasing minulat ang mata ko at sa dilim, may nakita akong pattern sa buong pader ng kwarto. Yung parang may wallpaper. Akala ko dahil lang sa aninag ng liwanang sa labas, salamin kasi ang bintana at may napasok na liwanag galing sa kabilang ginagawang bldg. Akala ko yung pattern ay dala ng mga droplets ng tubig na nasa bintana kaya nakabuo ng aninag sa buong kwarto. Pero nung kumurap ulit ako, nawala na yung mga pattern. Hanggang ngayon, iniisip ko pa din kung ano yung pattern na yun e. pagkaka-aala ko may kulay sya, basta hindi sya kulang itim. At nababalot ang buong dingding ng kwarto.

Hindi takot ang naramdaman ko nun, pagtataka. Same feeling ng pagtataka noong una akong nakakita ng anino ng isang babae. Nakita ko yung anino sa isang bahay namin noong brownout, gabi yun e at ang gamit lang namin ay kandila para may liwanag. Nakatalukbong ako noon kasi hindi ako makatulog ng dumaan ang anino. Napa upo ako kasi akalo ko may gising pa kasi may dumaan na anino pero nung nahimasmasan na ako, tulog na naman ang mga kasamahan ko.

Kaya ito ako ngayon. Puyat kasi ambabaw na ng tulog ko dahil sa nangyari.

[korekkongbata]

"Deserve Ko 'To" – Pero Paano Naman ang Bukas?

Isang pagtingin sa paggastos, mindset, at paghahanda para sa long-term goals

✨ The Joy of Being Able to Spend

Para sa maraming Pilipino na lumaki sa hirap, ang makamit ang kakayahang gumastos ay isang milestone. Yung tipong dati ay piso-piso lang ang baon, ngayon kaya nang bumili ng bagong cellphone, makakain sa labas, o makapag-travel kasama ang pamilya.

Walang masama rito. Sa katunayan, ito ay ebidensya ng pagsusumikap at tagumpay. At totoo — "deserve mo ‘yan."

Pero sa gitna ng celebration, tanungin natin:

"Deserve ko rin ba ang mas maayos na kinabukasan?"

🧠 Why Do We Spend More on Luxuries First?

Kapag galing ka sa hirap, normal lang ang “reward mindset.” You’ve worked so hard. You’ve denied yourself for so long. So when money comes in, the first impulse is:

"Ibibigay ko ang hindi ko naranasan noon."

Madalas, ang financial decisions ay influenced ng:

Social pressure: “Kailangan may iPhone din ako para hindi mapag-iwanan.”

Emotional healing: “Na-deprive kami noon, ngayon babawi kami.”

Lack of financial guidance: “Wala namang nagturo kung paano magplano sa pera.”

🏢 For the Working Class: Is Your Hard Work Paying Off Long-Term?

If you're already earning a steady income — whether you're in operations, admin, marketing, or leadership — ask yourself: ✅ May naiipon ba ako para sa future home? ✅ May health or emergency fund ba ako? ✅ Kaya ko ba mag-stop magtrabaho ng isang buwan nang hindi nangangapa?

Kung hindi pa, don't be discouraged. Hindi ka nag-iisa. The important thing is to start now, and start small.

💡 Shifting to a Long-Term Mindset

Hindi mo kailangang bitawan agad ang luho. Pero dapat, natututo kang mag-balanse. Narito ang ilang tips:

1. Itreat mo ang sarili mo — pero ischedule mo.

Instead of impulsive purchases, set a “reward month” (e.g., every 3rd month lang bibili ng gadget or magta-travel). The rest of the time, save first.

2. Start with an emergency fund.

Target mo muna ang 3 to 6 months ng expenses. Para kung mawalan ka ng trabaho o may emergency, hindi ka agad lulubog sa utang.

3. Auto-deduct savings.

Mag-set up ng automatic transfer ng savings kada sweldo. Treat savings as an expense — bayaran mo ang future self mo.

4. Invest in what appreciates, not depreciates.

Gadget? Bumababa ang value over time. Bahay o lupa? Tumataas ang value. Kung maglalabas ka rin lang ng pera, ilagay mo kung saan may balik sa hinaharap.

5. Surround yourself with goal-setters.

Kung puro gastos lang ang usapan sa barkada, try to expand your circle. Be with people na marunong mag-budget, mag-invest, at magplano.

🔑 Mindset Maintenance: Think Legacy

Kapag naiisip mong "Deserve ko ‘to," tanungin mo rin ang sarili mo:

"Ano kaya ang deserve ng magiging anak ko?" "Pag tumanda ako, deserve ko pa rin bang may mapagkukunan ako?"

Ang tunay na tagumpay ay hindi lang nasusukat sa dami ng napuntahan mong lugar o gamit na nabili mo — kundi sa peace of mind na dala ng preparedness at security.

✅ Final Thoughts

Hindi kasalanan ang mag-enjoy. Pero habang gumaganda ang buhay mo, dapat gumaganda rin ang foundation ng future mo.

Kung nagsimula ka sa hirap, mas lalo kang may dahilan para magplano — para sa sarili mo, sa pamilya mo, at sa mga taong umaasa sa'yo.

You don’t need to be rich to start building. You just need to start with the right mindset.

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And so I think I'm back

[korekkongbata]

Bakit naging awkward ka bigla sa kanya? Parang kanina lang ay oks ka. Tapos magiging ilang sa pag galaw?

Is there any trigger bakit naging ganon? Selos ba? Hahaha

But seriously, kahit yung mismong tao ay naramdaman na parang naging awkward ka sa kanya. Nag try mag reach out sayo pero defensive ang body gestures?

Hindi mo talaga maiwasang ilabas ang nararamdam mo minsan no?

Ayaw ko na din kasing bigyan ng malisya ang nangyayari pero kasi yung tao na mismo ang lumapit sa akin at napansin nya. Anong kailangan kong i-explain dun?