Your taaaaaaaags!!! Prepare to be heart warmed. Ugh. You’re right, “[Chuck’s] the cutest fucking person [Sarah’s] ever met in [her] life and sometimes [she] seriously can't even handle it.” Hence the paper throw. Like l want to do the whole cheek squish thing or give a huge hug to the nerd, l can barely imagine what happy feelings are trying to push their way out of Sarah’s chest. If there were no cameras in the Orange-Orange l like to think she had half a mind to tackle him.
The thing I love about Sarah, though, is that she really does take her job very seriously. At the end of the day, the fact that the CIA creates a barrier between our OTP getting together for three seasons aside, Sarah Walker is an AMAZING CIA agent. She’s incredibly professional, she’s deadly, she’s a tactical genius, she is basically a female Bruce Lee, and she’s the best shot the CIA probably has as far as gun stuff goes. And she takes her work seriously, she takes the missions seriously. And yeah, some might’ve felt Sarah went too far with the job where Chuck was concerned--how she protected him not just physically, but took care of his emotions and mentality as well, how she supported him in every way--but she never once lost her footing. Through everything, even when she let her feelings for him overwhelm her, she never wavered when it came to protecting him.
You see it right in the second episode. She’s already supporting Chuck, making him feel at ease, enough to the point that he can’t even function without her helping him when he’s trying to land that helicopter. He pointedly asks for her. And she calmly talks him through landing it safely. But the second he’s safe on the ground, she lays into him. Deservedly. And she does it to make a point. He needs to listen to her, not take what she’s giving him for granted. Her harsh words are necessary and they jolt him back to a place where he’s like “Oh right. She’s here to protect me, even if it means protecting me from myself.” That’s the sort of loyalty to duty she has. She’s SO SERIOUS about her job.
And that’s why she’s so freaking admirable in the way she handles her relationship with Chuck. Even if it hurts us as we scream at the TV screen “OH MY GODDDD JUST ADMIT YOU LOVE HIM AND MAKE BABBIIEESSSS!”, she’s so incredibly steadfast in her determination to be the CIA agent who does her damn job every. single. time.
So I’m not entirely sure she would jump him in some of those scenes we see them in. Because she believes (whether she’s wrong or not) that part of her job is keeping that handler/asset distance between them, even though she does have feelings for him. (And by this point, very strong feelings.) She believes that breaking that rule would mean she’s compromised. And a compromised agent cannot do the job that’s required to keep Chuck Bartowski safe. I personally think that even if the CIA took cameras away and stopped the surveillance, she wouldn’t act in those moments in a romantic way. The kiss in front of what she believed to be a bomb that would kill them both broke the rule, but she gets a pass since she thought she was about to die. (shrug)
I think that’s such an incredible trait. Seriously. Will-power is a phenomenal trait that I think gets either misidentified as stubbornness, or slammed in fandom because it keeps ships apart. Or it gets brushed aside/ignored completely. But Sarah has a massive heart. She’s physically, emotionally, and mentally strong, even with all of her self-doubt and self-hatred because of the things she’s done as a CIA agent, and a con artist’s daughter/accomplice before that. But her will-power is extraordinary. She’s in love with this man, and he continues to do things that catch her by surprise and make her fall deeper and deeper. And still, she’s so steadfast in doing whatever she has to in order to keep him safe. She knows beyond all doubt that she’s the ONLY one who can do it. She trusts NO ONE else to protect Chuck the way she will. So she needs to do whatever she can to stay. And that means not breaking that rule...Or at the very least, since she’s already pretty compromised, making sure nobody knows it, most of all Chuck himself. (Fat chance, you bad ass bitch, ‘cause HE KNOWS. He’s just a good freaking man and though he might not entirely get WHY, he respects the shit out of you and won’t make his move without your full cooperation.)