#circle thoughts

[dickgraysonmyrobin]

i think i am going to have to redo that bloodborne/rothko i just posted bc i think the quality could be a little better but also it matches the faded look of the rothko in the background so idk maybe when i am sober i will think more on it but honestly my conclusion will probably be that i will keep it the same

[arkainea1911]

Always torn between " I need to take classes to better my writing" and "being a cringe/ bad writer is ok, so I don't need to be good at it"

[stabsceneintimacycoordinator]

wow

i am having a lot of dysphoria and circle thoughts

like i haven't felt this dysphoric since before top surgery

wow

i was getting coffee yesterday and someone who had ordered before me had my deadname and i LOOKED UP and it was the w o r s t

and ive been having circle thoughts about it

ive convinced myself that everyone misgenders me when im not there/in their heads/dont see me as how i identify

also

ive been having a lot of voice dysphoria

like i find more joy in singing than in almost anything else which i why im not on T

but like

god i sound so...

UGH

and i am just sad and its even worse being nb because i dont even know what i want my body to do or be

im in limbo and i want to not be like this