TW: Suicide/S/H mentions, abuse mentions, but an overall silly post
Dude it is UNCANNY how similar I am to Heart
Like I see a lot of Heart kinnies who relate to him a lot and I just think "man, it must be nice to have a healthy amount of similarities to him, because I sure don't"
For reference:
Besides the like fifty minor things in my Carrd, my immediate family is composed only of my twin brother and my mother.
My twin brother is, as you might assume, very similar to Mid; we used to get along! Then we grew apart. And in hindsight, throughout my entire childhood him telling me everything I did was for attention didn't really benefit me when I was older.
He's a very logical, often to a fault person; has pretty bad anger issues too, and issues with authority. He's what one would call a "Reddit Atheist", and is a very blunt person who has little regard for anyone he hurts the feelings of when he confronts them.
My mother is a lot like me, but not really in any good way. She's overly emotional, has so many bad things happen to her constantly, is driven by spite, and of course, threatens suicide constantly. I kid you not, when I came to her about self-harming she threatened to kill herself because of it.
Even more notably, my mother highly favours my brother for being lower-maintenance and makes sure I am well-aware that my brother is better than me because he causes less problems and costs less money (although "apparently" she loves us equally).
Away from venty territory, probably another really uncanny similarity is that I am literally photophobic.
For those who don't know what that means, no, I'm not afraid of light, the light hurts my eyes.
In my case, it's more irritation than pain, but can become painful if it's not treated adequately. I'm always wearing sunglasses when I'm out of my very dim house as a result, and blink a lot throughout the day.
School days would consist of a lot of requests to turn off the lights as well as a lot of visits to the nurse to ask for sunglasses.
This has been happening since at the latest sixth grade. Nobody knows why I have this, it's just been deteriorating very, very slowly, and isn't fun alongside my traditional visual impairment.
And you know who else avoids the light and is visually damaged by it and also is just generally visually-impaired? Mmhm.
Basically all of my negative qualities directly can be found in Heart, too.
Extreme anger, extreme sadness, suicidal ideologies, violent fantasies, trauma from an inescapable bad situation, sensitivity, weakness, impulsivity, envy, hatefulness, cowardice, helplessness, these are all essentially my worst qualities and Heart's. And even more akin to Heart, I have the potential to be logical! But I'm not taken seriously and am dismissed as emotional.
Not to mention that I'm a very baby-faced and young-looking person who acts younger than they are.
HECK I LITERALLY LOOK REALLY SIMILARLY TO CHONNY AS WELL (this you'll have to take my word for as I'm not leaking a photo of myself)
There's more but those are all the ones I'm gonna say rn bc I am LAZYYYYYYYY!
But yeah, I'm Heart you guys Heart in real life.
