Cambicladotherian/Cambicladokin: A cambicladokin is a being that switches between being cladohearted and a cladokin (of the same multitude of species).
Kintype-Inclined Cambicladotherian/Cambicladokin: A kintype-inclined cambicladokin switches between mainly involuntarily identifying as all species sharing a certain ancestral species (cladokin), and sometimes involuntarily identifying with the same multitude of species (cladohearted).
Hearttype-Inclined Cambicladotherian/Cambicladokin: A hearttype-inclined cambicladokin switches between mainly involuntarily identifying with all species sharing a certain ancestral species (cladohearted), and sometimes involuntarily identifying as the same multitude of species (cladokin).
Hello there, I'm Marshall! I'm bodily 18 and go by He/Him, It/Its and Zit/Zits. Please only use maculine canine viv-terms when refering to me. Do not use feminine or human terms on me. This blog will mostly consist of content about my fictionkin and fictionhearted identities!
If you're wondering why this intro sounds familiar, that is because I have a secondary blog specifically for my demonkin identity! So you're also welcome to follow @the-demon-in-your-walls aswell!
I'm neurodivergent, specifcally I have Autism and ADHD, so please be patient with me and always use tone tags when interacting with me.
I awoke as a alterbeing on August of 2024. I am a unhuman; demonkin; fictionkin; cladohearted; fictionhearted and therian.
Important tags on this blog!
#[Marshall's Mail Inbox! - Answering questions, requests for moodboards, or other stuff!
#[Marshall's Art Gallery! - My drawings and other types of art I will post here!
#[Marshall's Diary! - Posts about alterhumanity in general! (not a really creative name but I can't think of another name)
#[Marshall's Writing Journal! - My written works such as snippets of my work-in-progress fanfictions, poems (if I ever do write them), etc!
#[Marshall's Activities! - Posts where I share stuff about my hobbies! (Voice acting; writing; watching my confort and favourite series; making moodboards; etc!)
My boundaries are very clear: the basic DNI criteria is enforced here (if you don't know what the basic DNI criterea consists of, look it up); Trump supporters, elon supporters, and zionists are also to not interact with this blog. I will block you on sight.
This blog is a safe space for all alterbeings/alterhumans, polyminds, systems and LGBTQ beings! You're safe here <3.
Thank you for reading my intro post! I hope you enjoy your stay here in my blog. Remember to hydrate and take care of yourself. <3
I feel like there is a great focus given by the community on the experience of being nonhuman in favor of feeling connected to something nonhuman, to the point where I have no idea how to express or nurture this type of experience. I need tips <:)
I'm corvus cladohearted, fox, and owl-hearted, if that helps 🦊
i really really really want to be a cat
and I have for a while now.
I've always acted kinda cat-like;
making biscuits,
rubbing against people to show affection,
and purring - or getting as close as humanly possible to
---
I remember in music class
my teacher showed us this sound humans could only make when they're relaxed
and I remember being super happy
because it felt pretty close to purring
and I could finally purr like a cat
I did it everywhere,
in my other lessons
in the cafeteria
and at home.
I stopped because I could tell that other people where getting annoyed
and I didn't want to upset anyone.
And eventually
I forgot how to do it
I'm not really upset about that.
I think maybe i'd like to do it again
but then again, maybe not
---
I like to crochet
and once I tried to make a cat glove
except I got the stitches wrong, and made it oversized.
I found it funny, so I took a picture
and sent it to my sister
with the caption
"Hey, I think I'm a furry now!!" as a joke
her response was
"I'm not surprised"
which shocked me honestly.
I didn't really think of myself as a furry.
I knew that i really like animals - especially cats and foxes
and that I liked them more than normal people,
most of whom just have a passing interest,
or like them as pets
but I didn't think I was a furry.
Even back then
I knew the awful depictions of furries weren't true
and I had a lot of admiration for the community,
which is full of lovely people and amazing artists,
but there was still a bit of a divide
between me and them
because i never really felt like a fan of cats
even though i never really felt like a cat either
I was in this inbetween zone.
So I just admired the community as an onlooker
And cheered them on from the sidelines.
I actually do have a fursona.
back when i was still trying to figure things out
i made one, thinking it could help -
She doesn't have a name, but she's a white rabbit
she's very small and very promiscuous.
she's functionally a representation of whatever sexual urges and inclinations i have,
because of rabbit stereotypes
and because at the time, they made me uncomfortable
so i separated them from myself
in order to cope.
(i like to joke that I'm "theoretically a slut"
because I'm fine with loads of BDSM stuff in theory
but I hate people touching me in practise
so I couldn't possibly do anything I imagine.)
i feel a bit bad about it now
because i feel like im feeding into furry stereotypes
or negative assumptions,
but having her here is comforting
it gives me a way to step back and evaluate myself more,
like looking at your computer
that is doing something you can't explain
and talking yourself through fixing it.
neither me nor her need fixing
but it's nice to have someone to talk to
sometimes
does she actually count as a fursona??
I'm not sure anymore
she's literally just an animal
that lives in my head
and thumps her feet sometimes
and I'm sure fursonas are more than that.
she doesn't talk
or have a humanoid body
or interact with anyone else
but she's mine
and i'm passively looking forward to the day
where I can accept myself as I am
and we can become one whole person again,
even though i will miss her
when she is gone.
---
i have an oral fixation
(even though i hate calling it that)
and an urge to bite and chew on things.
I've gotten chewlery in the past
but it never felt right
and i can't find anything i really gravitate to
so i just gave up.
i chewed gum for a while
but i kept forgetting to buy it.
eventually I think it manifested
as a constant appetite
because now I can't stop
chewing
when i was younger and restless
i used to go into my mum's room
and gnaw lightly
and suck on her arm
while she was doing work.
I think she let me because
i was always the odd ball of the family
and I wasn't actually hurting her
or disturbing her.
I grew out of it,
as I did many things,
so she never got a chance to get mad.
i don't bite on stuff anymore
but i spend my time imagining
biting hands to get someone's attention
or gnawing on the poles of my bedframe
or chewing giant human-sized - human-edible dog treats
while in bed.
---
my affection is cat-like too.
i'm a very huggy person
and frequently bother my mum
for hugs and cuddles
even though im thinking
about weaving between legs
and licking cheeks
like cats do.
i used to think
that pressing heads together
and looking into each others eyes
was one of the most intimate
things you could do.
that hasn't changed
but i found a new word for it
bunting,
like the ribbon you put up
to announce a celebration.
whenever i look at my family
i think
"Ah~ I wish i could nuzzle against them
and press against them
and be pet
like cats do"
but
I can't
so i hug them instead.
even though
its not what i instinctively go towards
hugs aren't inferior
to head pads
and cuddles
and bunting
just a different way
to show the same thing
---
it's a bit embarrassing
to walk on all fours as an adult
especially when
i don't have a good enough
"reason" to
(even though i don't need one).
my behaviour doesn't have to be justified
if it's only bringing joy
to myself
and no harm
to others
even so
i dislike doing it
around other people,
luckily i never get the urge to
except when i do.
during christmas
i was with my family at a hotel
and i had the urge
to walk around on my hands and legs
so i did.
i think i annoyed my siblings
but they weren't too upset,
and my mum was amused
and scratched my head.
still,
i wish i didn't do that
if only to keep some amount
of human dignity.
---
i wish i could feel fingers
scratch around the base of my ears
and tail
but I recognise
that feeling hands touch you
where there are none
is probably not the best thing
so I try not to wish too hard
lest it becomes real
---
i heard of this girl
whose parents bought her a human sized dog bed
when she asked for it
and i wanted one too.
i thought
"wow, that's so cool!
if I layer blankets over it,
it'll be like a real nest"
unfortunately,
human sized dog beds
aren't cheap
but the trend of wanting
human-sized animal things
probably won't go away anytime soon
i wanted a muzzle for the longest time
but i kept getting frustrated
because the only ones i could find
didn't have that "muzzle" shape
and only followed the gentle curve of a human
mouth and chin -
eventually, like so many other things
i gave up finding one
I actually liked.
obviously, cat ears and tails are something that i like
and i've seen so many beautiful ones
all of which are too expensive for me.
i bought a lovely pink and blue one from a lesser known artist
at a convention
And I love it.
I live with my mother so I don't wear it around the house
but even if I did
I suspect
that it wouldn't
scratch that itch that forms
at the top of my head
every so often.
eventually I want to start making my own
cat ears
and tails
and fursuits
purely because
the making process is so intricate
and the end result so beautiful
i want to make something that pretty too
---
it may come as a surprise to some people,
but i'm fine with my human body.
i don't hate it,
and i acknowledge it could be better -
i could eat healthier
exercise more
have better hygiene
- but overall,
i'm oddly in love
with this part of myself
but still
i don't think i'd mind having different ears
and tails and fur
and being smaller
powerful enough to jump high
and strong enough to defend myself
i think being a cat would be perfect for me,
even though being human is arguably
the better experience,
but i understand that life isn't fair
and so i will try my best with this form
and go as far as i possibly can
into happiness
---
I also don't know
what kind of cat I'd be.
I don't have a proper sense of what breed
or fur colour or eye colour
or age
weight
height
cat me would be.
the closest descriptor I have
is "housecat"
which, for the depth of my experiences,
feels odd
i should
know more
but part of me doesn't actually care.
part of me -
which i think is actually the cat part
- just wants me to continue on with my life
be carefree
and not fuss at all.
but the human part -
that desires labels and rules and a neatly signed contract
- spends its time
fussing over who I am
and what this means
for my existence.
for this alone
I like my cat side more
the side of me that is
willing
and waiting
to let go
and just be
---
All this to say
please don't mistake me for
a therian
or otherkin
or similar
because I am not.
all those people have a wealth of experiences
and feelings and thoughts
that I do not share
and I am not privy too
because like it or not
I AM NOT A CAT
and I don't think I ever will be.
i think those communities are amazing
a swirling pot of
similar experiences
of communication
and people forming friends and bonds
and belonging.
I also find them intimidating
the human side of me -
that hates talking
and people
and wants to sit in a bubble all day
eating fruit
and letting the world around them
crumble to dust
- is worried about what this will mean,
what this will tell us
about myself.
and the cat side of me -
that loves people
and socializing
and finding out about
what unique perspective
each person brings to the
world we live in
- worries about being accepted
about finding people for me
in a way that
she hasn't before.
but both of them agree
that even if I find answers
to my questions,
even if I go looking and
finally find people
who feel the same things I feel,
at the end of the day
i am still in this body
and have to work in human jobs
and study human subjects
and eat human foods,
and,
not to toot my own horn but,
I am getting better at
blending in.
(this I am proud of
I have worked very hard for this)
and so
because i can
i am going to put this in a little box,
or write it down in a diary,
or whisper it into my phone,
and tuck it away in the back of my mind.
not forever
just until my to-do list runs out
of higher priorities,
and i feel safe enough
to open that box
and explore the possibilities.
because i am
lucky enough that
waiting
will not
take my life
because I know that
whatever form I have
I am still me
because I know that
I am not only this
but a wealth of other experiences
and loves and hates and curiosities
that will only keep on growing
and because I know that I am human
this i am sure
and for better or for worse
this is what i will continue to be
even if
all i want
is to
really really really
(x1000)
be a
cat
Hello there, dear reader, you may call me Malchus. I'm bodily 19; go by Hx/Hxm, It/Its, Xe/Xem or Thxy/Them pt(Though I don't mind He/Him too); I am a nonreligious demon, so I ask you to only use masculine demon vivterms when referimg to me while using this account.
I'm neurodivergent, specifically I have ASD and ADHD, so please be patient with me and always use tone tags when interacting with me.
I have been an alterbeing since August of 2024, specifically speaking I am Unhuman, Demonkin, Fictionkin, Cladohearted and Fictionhearted. This blog will mainly consist of posts and polls of this nature, though other content may be ocasionally seldom posted.
As for my hobbies; I voice act, write, binge watch youtube commentary channels and watch crime mystery series.
My boundaries are very clear. The basic DNI criterea is enforced here (If you don't know what the basic DNI critrea consist of, look it up). Zionists, Trump and Elon supporters are to not interact with this blog. I will block you on sight.
This blog is a safe space for all alterbeings/alterhumans, polyminded beings, systems and LGBTQ beings. You're safe here <3.
I thank you for taking your time to read my introduction post. As of this writing, I am currently in break after finishing my exams, so i'll start in some days (possibly just a day or 2 since the exam wasn't that hard).
