Sometimes I diminish my kin-feelings because I think they are just silly, or I'm just a poser.
But other times I can feel the light on my skin and know that it is fundamentally wrong. It shouldn't be on my skin it should be my skin. I should be able to grab it, make it tangible and visible, reach into it-- become it and envelop it as all I am. When I feel it hit my skin it is wrong because I know it should be more than that, feel more than it feels. I can't grab it, it is not physical. I can see the rays of light but I cannot grab them as I should. When the light hurts my eyes it is horrid because That is me why is me hurting me??













