#cloudy vent

[lakeofbl00d]

Major Chord. All strings create one instrument together.

Art my subsystem and I made. It’s a vent piece, and it does have meaning. However that’s personal to us, so I’m not explaining. I figured we may as well post it though instead of just letting it sit in our files. -Clef

[Don’t tag as kin/ID/me] 

[systemofclouds]

I hope what both of them did to us haunts them for the rest of their fucking life. Sure. Gang up on us, and when we show visible stress, they call us the rude and manipulative one. We cry, they felt guilty for yelling at us, so suddenly we're manipulating them? Horker shit. What I wouldn't give to have my own life back. My weapons, my body, my abilities. I would have enjoyed tracking them down, to then do whatever I please with them, not bothering to clean the blood off the floor after Typically I'm pretty strict with the payments for jobs - but this one I'll do for free any time Fuck you both and your asinine and delusional self-ideals

[systemofclouds]

Would it be pathetic to say I need a hug. A real, physical one. The ones in headspace aren't the same.

[systemofclouds]

He's gone...

It feels like back then. It feels like Niwa. It feels like that child. It feels like pouring my complete love and trust into someone who's become dear to be only for them to be ripped away

Here I am again. With a gaping hole left by the absence of someone I called friend

Hurt. Ashamed. Abandoned. Guilt. Regret. Devastated. Agony. Hate, towards myself. Grief. Fear. Mourning. Heartbroken [how ironic], It's white and hot, burning through my skull.

Please come back

I'm sorry

You were near everything to me

[systemofclouds]

Last night we saw it, and it brought 🐈‍⬛ and ❄️ back (they had been unable to be found for the past 4 days), but for a terrible reason

🐈‍⬛ hasn't stopped crying since last night. ❄️'s been there with him the whole time. His grief is reverberating throughout the entire headspace and into me in front.

I've been nauseous all day because of the emotional bleed-over and sdfhjdkgl it sUcks. Only slept in 2 hour increments, waking up for good at 5AM

It hurts really bad, seeing him like this. Nothing's been going right for him lately. He's really going through it

That was like. The worst news we ever could have gotten, especially in these times 😭 We're already going through so much

Can we like. Get a break. Please 🙏

[lakeofbl00d]

Some positive vent art from last night

[Personal art]

[systemofclouds]

Vent

Why do we have to ruin nearly every relationship we love

I hate being autistic. I hate having C-PSTD. I hate not being able to navigate social rules. I hate how our fear of abandonment is debilitating our lives and causes the exact thing we're most scared of. I hate how we don't know we're hurting people until it's too late. I hate how we don't act rationally when we perceive any sort of abandonment or neglect. It's all our fault.

Why do we have to ruin everything. We loved them. Still do. Now we can do nothing but love them from a distance and hate ourselves in a chokehold because we, I, was stupid and a coward.

Now because of me Basil has lost his light; haven't seen him smile in weeks. Because of me I took away so many of our headmates' only friends.

Why do we have to be so broken

[lakeofbl00d]

Scribbled out a vent piece to let stuff out, don't really like how the face/face shape came out but we tried forever to fix it and nothing looked quite right so we gave up since we didnt intend to color it anyways. [Art of an introject, be normal] -Lake

More so letting out complex emotions. Being an introject of someone, who, in another system had an introject of me, hurt us. I am not an introject of him, but I am from the same source and same character introjected. I wanted to express my frustration and intense want to keep us safe at all costs. -SilverAsh