#cmar: 18

[minniepetals]

A. so glad cmar is back!! i love this story more than you’ll ever understand

B. you had to leave us on a cliffhanger first day back?!?😩😩

i wouldn't be minniepetals if i didn't leave you guys on a cliffhanger 😘

[minniepetals]

currently in love with the new chapter omg

I truly appreciate the effort you put into creating the complexities in your characters and character development

-😦 anon

aww thank you so much!! i try my best haha, and i'm happy to see others appreciating the little things that matters a lot once brought together 💗

[minniepetals]

Hi Minnie! This is my first time dropping you a message as I’ve been a silent reader of yours for awhile. But I thought I would drop a message on how amazing chapter 18 of cmar was!!!😍😍😍

The sadness and grief I felt when mister butler came in her dreams was so real. Whenever I read the chapters that are MC focused I feel like I’m drowning and to me it says a lot about your writing and how the words you use make me somewhat feel what MC is feeling too. The cliffhanger has me on a chokehold tho!!😫🧎🏽

Also I’ve read how you’re struggling with school and how you were on a mini hiatus, I’m happy you’re back and honestly you’re back with a BANG!💥💥💥 Thank you for writing cmar and giving us amazing stories even in your hard times I truly truly appreciate it, take care and stay safe!🤍

aww, you're so sweet! first of all, thank you for dropping in! i totally understand being the silent reader so i'm happy to see you're getting out of your shell a little just to send this in!

i knew when i wrote that scene with mister butler, it had to be heartbreaking and sad and honestly, that last line he gives her; "i'm already gone" made me pause a little because damn, that just hurts despite us already knowing that fact.

i'm glad you enjoyed the last chapter! something tells me the next chapter won't take too long to be uploaded 💗

[minniepetals]

Long time no see and no talk Minnie.

First of all how are you? I hope you are healthy!

Also to the main part *ahem*

U made me cry. U made me excited. U made me remember songs that I love but don't know the name. But listen to this song remind me of this chapter.

Deep sea girl: https://youtu.be/j0pWTJ20szY.

"Litte girl inside the sea, sinking down into the deep. Til' the world all around her is as dark as it could be."

"Little girl inside the sea, wants to know the person she saw then. Because there is somebody who make her want to live again."

i've been alright! just struggling a little through school but that's life lmao. what about you? how are you?

also, holy frick the lyrics resonates so well with cmar you're so right!! it's so pretty yet so sad at the same time. i can't wait for the day when she's actively seeking out the will to live and finally comes to an understanding that the reapers will never abandon her. she's going to have so many people on her side once she gets to the healing arc and they're all going to support her no matter what 💗

[minniepetals]

MINNIE YOURE BACK AND YOURE TORTURING Y/N AGAIN (didn’t expect anything less)

Girl you have no idea how much I missed you (I changed my username while you were gone. Previously I was arimeikaterikaka but I kept forgetting that name)

But my god. I knew I could always count on you when I’m having a shitty day. I opened tumblr on a whim and I saw your post and legit went ?!?!! irl

Also give Y/N a break please 😭 make the others suffer not her

OR THE REAPERS. Don’t make the reapers suffer (take this as a threat)

The chapter was wonderful. Really intense and heartbreaking because I hate mingyu suffering but I’m biased so ://

Also, how are you doing? I hope everything’s better and you’re happy

i'm a little bit happy haha, seeing this has certainly improved my mundane mood. it's good seeing you in my ask again! how have you been?

also listen, the whole point of cmar is for you to "cry me a river" so it's kinda fitting the way our y/n has to go through these stuff 🤭

sometimes i feel like a masochist because writing cmar and all its emotional rollarcoaster helps me to feel something lmao, it's kinda fun hurting myself through these scenes and scenarios

[minniepetals]

i'm absolutely devastated (in a good way) after reading the new chapter. the angst, the scene with the butler, the struggle of the mc with mingyu??? you really outdid yourself this time. to be honest, i understand how the mc is scared that the reapers will end up like bangtan. kind of like one falls in love then gets their heart broken, then puts a barricade around their heart to avoid getting heartborken again. quick question: does the mc have ptsd? like, from that moment that her father killed the butler in front of her? i would assume that left a lot of trauma... anyways, this chapter was amazing! i actually teared up while reading. it's so beautifully written, it feels like i'm right there witnessing it. all in all, a fucking masterpiece!

she definitely suffers a lot with what happened to her, mister butler's death being one of the things that has caused her trauma so i'd say she does show symptoms of ptsd.

i'm glad you enjoyed chapter 18! the boys didn't get any screen time but it was definitely needed with y/n and her needing to process stuff, plus i feel like bringing back the kids helped her to calm down a little.

but now she's kidnapped so that's that 🫡

[minniepetals]

Babyyy, U REALLY GOING TO TORTURE ME WITH THT CLIFFHANGER? OH MY GOODNESS U R SO DAMN CRUEL 😭

i love cliffhangers, they're amazing (though i'd hate to be in your position lmao) 🫶

[minniepetals]

please the way i cried instantly 😭😭😭 you really do such an amazing job at conveying these emotions and maki people truly *feel* and thats so precious - you’re so talented. my heart hurt and then healed and then hurt again

can i just ask when the healing will start? 😩 i know the journey is going to be so so so sweet once the storm is over - not rushing or anything i’m loving the ride so so much, but i just wanted to ask :>

well with what i have planned out, we're still a long way from the healing arc. hang in there bub 💗