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July 13, 2019

March 25th I sustained a severe stress injury on my right shoulder/arm. I am still recovering. On the 18th I am turning 32. I struggle with feelings of running out of time, of it being “too late” for me, being afraid of getting older. I’ve felt this way since 23, maybe even before that. Can’t type too much, still recovering. Wanted to update everyone. I’m going to heal. I’m going to recover, I’m going to get really proficient at coding, I’m going to get a job I like and leave my current job. I’m going to be an artist and musician, and I and my family will be happy, healthy, abundant, and full of peace, joy, creativity, laughter, and love.

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12.07.17: stage arts

Research for my paper + kitty 🐱 I’m kinda bummed about the fact that I haven’t found any translations of the plays I have to read into either Dutch or English 😞. I think my one year and one semester of German may not be enough to understand Bertolt Brecht 😅😂

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2/21/2018

It's ok to be seen. Setbacks do not mean that my goals are not meant for me. Discipline and practice are not punishments. Commitment is a positive habit. Don't be afraid of it. Constantly check in, set goals, re-align, re-organize, adapt, but don't let that process discourage.

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2/18/18 100 Days Project struggle... further thoughts

Following up on my earlier post: CNC2018 threw me off the rails of not only 100 Days, but even into the whirlpool of doubt and hesitation and demotivation to continue my coding journey period; and so did signing up for the CSS grid course with Wes Bos, although that may prove useful later. I was gaining momentum on my portfolio project and getting into a groove, planning out more study and more projects.

Signing up for more things with public accountability destroyed my baby confidence and momentum, and CNC gave me bad vibes from the hw assignment reader. It really knocked out my morale because the reader hw read as sarcastic, judgmental, compartmentalizing, condescending, and at times ignorant.

I wavered. If I'm going to achieve my dream of becoming a Front End Engineer, a Designer, and an Artist, I'm going to need large doses of support, optimism, positivity, encouragement, inspiration, and fun!

So I will work on building my self esteem and confidence. I want to overcome doubt and stop crumbling because I fear being seen, or fearing that my work and capability is not going to be good enough, or hesitating or shutting down because I am scared of the pressure and commitment.

I'm going to face these fears, and I'm going to overcome them!!!! 🔥🔥🔥✨✨✨☀️☀️☀️♥️♥️♥️💎💎💎

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100 days of code Day 4, 1/19/2018

Today was unusual but very informative. Didn't type any code, but did receive around a 30 minute lesson on the command line via a discussion with my code mentor. Secondly, signed up for CNC2018. I have to admit, signing up for something more public has me feeling nervous because commitment and public accountability are big challenges for me. But, I want 2018 to be about becoming fearless and ambitious about my goals and success, so I'm going to try my best to follow through on all my goals. Study hard, awesome fellow aspiring sparklers!!!! ✨💎✨

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Revised shot of my notes from 7/6/17, better lighting ✨✨💎✨✨

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That was a tough module! Onward! ✨💎✨ 8/11/17

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So excited to finally own this glorious beauty!!!!!! Sunday morning study time 📖📖📖✨✨💎✨✨ 7/16/17