#coffeeposts

[coffeegroundheart]

The thing that sucks about JK Rowling being a transphobic and rasict is that kids have used her universe as a comfort or a way to escape their reality, I was one of those kids, and it breaks my heart that she is so problematic. Harry Potter was one of the few books and movies that intrested me as a child.

[coffeegroundheart]

You're my best friend

Yea we dated, yes I make fun of that. Yes I fell in love with you, yes you broke my heart. Yes you have a girlfriend that probably hates me, but it doesn't matter. You're my best friend and my wingman. We both agreed that we dont really see each other as exes. But I platonically love you.

[coffeegroundheart]

Are you mad or just waiting for the right time to leave?

You get annoyed with me, with every little thing I say. Is it me or your family putting you on edge? You blame me when your ignored, when you do nothing to join our conversations. You can tell we're on one topic and you get mad at me cause I ignored you while talking to other people, but of course I didnt know you were mad at me until I was told you were by a mutual friend. You say you trust me, but wont tell me anything. You're making me feel like the worst person in the world, and it's really you that is acting like that. I'm sorry but why should I put up with the shit you do and say, when you cant put up with one thing that I say... seriously, get it together.

[coffeegroundheart]

Fuck you both, you controlling ass fucking bitches

[coffeegroundheart]

I wish I could take my mamas pain and suffering. I wish I could give her the world and life she deserves. I don’t like the way he treats her. She’s always in everyone’s corners but it seems they’re never in hers. I will always be in her corner

[coffeegroundheart]

Reading helps me escape the insomnia

I want him to know that

[coffeegroundheart]

Almost a year in this relationship, and I’m still nervous you’ll leave.

Almost a year in, and I’m still trying to understand how you fell for me… the broken me

When we met, I was still trying to escape a shitty situation. My ex constantly being mad at me for going out, him calling me a slut, bitch, cunt, fucked up, a loser, a drunk with no future.

You saw my brokenness and wanted to repair me

I feel like “fixing someone” is a strange way to put it

You repaired the damage that a lowlife inflicted on me for two years

I’m sorry I’m still a mess sometimes, I’m literally trying so damn hard to not be a mess

But I’m a beautiful disaster waiting to happen

[coffeegroundheart]

A very long rant about nothing imparticular

I know my love hates the way my stepfather is, I know I try to make excuses for him… just like she does… I guess that’s the spitting image coming out…

I walk, talk, act and look exactly like my mom, and I wouldn’t change it for the world… when I was in my teens, I admit I hated it… I thought it was a curse.

Turns out it was a blessing disguised as a curse… I am my mothers daughter through and through and it is the best thing that could ever happen.

Though I am my mom’s carbon copy, I act like my father sometimes. I have his attitude, his avoidance runs deep in my veins, the outbursts of anger I can’t control… wait that would be the stepfather showing through

I feel like a mosaic of all the people who have ever had an impression on me… my mom, my father, my stepfather and my abuser

The abuser is the worst, they hard hardwired my brain into being constantly in fight or flight, they made me feel broken , they made me feel worthless… like I deserved what he did

I love my boyfriend, he’s fixing what he wasn’t the cause of, he’s rehardwiring my brain. Making me feel whole and putting me back together