#complex did

[lefluoritesys]

"What's your favorite type of music?"

*sweats in DID* "U-uhm... I- I listen to everything, depending on my mood :D"

The moods sitting in the back of my head watching me: "No, no, they've got a point"

[bastard-coatedbastards]

Can we stop with the "DID ruins your life" narrative. It's the way people treat those with DID that ruins lives. This is FIXABLE it's not some universal law.

Abuse and trauma are hard to live with and overcome but not impossible. I know it's hard but jfc you people are professionals at making yourselves and everyone around you even more miserable tbh. Go outside.

[systematicallydissociated]

DID rant

I don’t think people look into the other aspects of dissociation enough and just focus a lot on switching and alters. I don’t think enough people realize that dissociation and memory gaps can happen with the same person front the whole time. People don’t think enough about how intensely dissociated you can get and never switch.

I have a near constant headache, I can nearly never trust my memory, and I HAVE to rely on others I know to inform me of events and things even with how much I try to stay on top of them. I cannot remember birthdays, faces, or names. People get offended I don’t know their birthday but I do remember that you like this one band. I don’t control what I do and don’t remember.

I would never blame my actions on dissociation, I still try and live my life and be kind to everyone but that means that I do forget everyday things sometimes. I’ll forget a task at work I always do or say something and not even hear myself. My voice and hands are often distant and fuzzy even when I’m not switching.

My dissociation is SEVERE and gaps in my memories appear without me knowing. I’ve forgotten whole movies, days, there are months, near years missing from my life, and no one has that info, not another later, not a gatekeeper, it’s just gone.

It's not just about the alters.

[thatgothvampire]

Experiences I have related to DID that I forget are literally because I have DID

- Feeling like my identity / sense of self is fluid & ever changing

- Being absolute ass at a specific thing and then being good at it later

- Thoughts / inside voices being fuzzy , distant , like a distant conversation

- Having fluctuating feelings toward friends/families/my partner

- Getting suddenly dizzy and finding it hard to move

- Realizing I’m not wearing what I originally put on

- Feeling zero emotions or feeling every possible emotion amplified 100x

- A lot more that I can’t remember right now, also because of DID

Me after realizing everything I do and feel is related to having this dissociative disorder 😦😦😦😦😦

[uncutfrogsanity]

*talking to someone* and so thats how i was in a cult and tortured as a kid- wait where’d you go?

[mentallystrawberry]

when you’re under a ton of stress then start to notice your memory worsen, your headaches becoming more frequent, and communication going nonexistent…

[yourfaveisintersex]

Mac from Date Everything is intersex and canonically disabled (wheelchair user), pansexual, and non-binary using they/them pronouns, and they have ambiguous genitalia consisting of a shallow vagina & clitorophallus, the latter of which they call a "click" (clit/dick + computer pun), amastia, and muscle hypotonia— the lattermost of which contributes to their need for a wheelchair! They are headcanoned to have autism, C-PTSD, C-DID, and both Borderline and Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (BPD & OCPD).

Requested by @sanriopupbaby

Intersex flag-only edits under the cut!

[anti-endo-yixi]

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"I think im endo because i dont remember my trauma" ok... but by saying that you're implying you know its still there.. plus thats literally what a system is meant to do, they are meant to make you not remember your trauma... thats the whole reason the brain splits in the first place... so whats your point here.

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