#complex did

[lefluoritesys]

"What's your favorite type of music?"

*sweats in DID* "U-uhm... I- I listen to everything, depending on my mood :D"

The moods sitting in the back of my head watching me: "No, no, they've got a point"

[bastard-coatedbastards]

Can we stop with the "DID ruins your life" narrative. It's the way people treat those with DID that ruins lives. This is FIXABLE it's not some universal law.

Abuse and trauma are hard to live with and overcome but not impossible. I know it's hard but jfc you people are professionals at making yourselves and everyone around you even more miserable tbh. Go outside.

[systematicallydissociated]

DID rant

I don’t think people look into the other aspects of dissociation enough and just focus a lot on switching and alters. I don’t think enough people realize that dissociation and memory gaps can happen with the same person front the whole time. People don’t think enough about how intensely dissociated you can get and never switch.

I have a near constant headache, I can nearly never trust my memory, and I HAVE to rely on others I know to inform me of events and things even with how much I try to stay on top of them. I cannot remember birthdays, faces, or names. People get offended I don’t know their birthday but I do remember that you like this one band. I don’t control what I do and don’t remember.

I would never blame my actions on dissociation, I still try and live my life and be kind to everyone but that means that I do forget everyday things sometimes. I’ll forget a task at work I always do or say something and not even hear myself. My voice and hands are often distant and fuzzy even when I’m not switching.

My dissociation is SEVERE and gaps in my memories appear without me knowing. I’ve forgotten whole movies, days, there are months, near years missing from my life, and no one has that info, not another later, not a gatekeeper, it’s just gone.

It's not just about the alters.

[thatgothvampire]

Experiences I have related to DID that I forget are literally because I have DID

- Feeling like my identity / sense of self is fluid & ever changing

- Being absolute ass at a specific thing and then being good at it later

- Thoughts / inside voices being fuzzy , distant , like a distant conversation

- Having fluctuating feelings toward friends/families/my partner

- Getting suddenly dizzy and finding it hard to move

- Realizing I’m not wearing what I originally put on

- Feeling zero emotions or feeling every possible emotion amplified 100x

- A lot more that I can’t remember right now, also because of DID

Me after realizing everything I do and feel is related to having this dissociative disorder 😦😦😦😦😦

[mentallystrawberry]

when you’re under a ton of stress then start to notice your memory worsen, your headaches becoming more frequent, and communication going nonexistent…

[yourfaveisintersex]

Mac from Date Everything is intersex and canonically disabled (wheelchair user), pansexual, and non-binary using they/them pronouns, and they have ambiguous genitalia consisting of a shallow vagina & clitorophallus, the latter of which they call a "click" (clit/dick + computer pun), amastia, and muscle hypotonia— the lattermost of which contributes to their need for a wheelchair! They are headcanoned to have autism, C-PTSD, C-DID, and both Borderline and Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (BPD & OCPD).

Requested by @sanriopupbaby

Intersex flag-only edits under the cut!

[anti-endo-yixi]

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"I think im endo because i dont remember my trauma" ok... but by saying that you're implying you know its still there.. plus thats literally what a system is meant to do, they are meant to make you not remember your trauma... thats the whole reason the brain splits in the first place... so whats your point here.

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[hazedxg0]

Why doesn't polyfragmented OSDD exists? Assuming polyfragmentation being the easy split of alters and/or the presence of many very simple fragmentary identities, why can't a person with OSDD-1a presentation have theses? Like yes they don't have amnesia but why not?

It's because "polyfragmentation" actually means "a more complex presentation of DID caused by more complex dissociation". Hence why it's also called Complex DID or C-DID.

In order to be polyfragmented, you need to dissociate to a very high level. It involves very extreme compartmentalization of traumatic events into hyper specific fragments, organized in complex system structures. It also involves very extreme dissociation across daily life from a very young age (more so than standard DID), to the point where the functions of daily life are shattered across many different minute and specialized ANP fragments as well.

OSDD-1, on the other hand, is a less complex presentation of DID caused by less complex dissociation. The original theory of structural dissociation actually places OSDD a tier below DID in terms of complexity of dissociation, bridging the gap between C-PTSD/BPD and DID. The less distinct alters, and/or lack of amnesia in OSDD is caused by experiencing less intense and less complex dissociation. Just complex enough to cause identity alteration, but not complex enough to qualify as DID.

Polyfragmentation requires more complex dissociation than standard DID. OSDD-1 requires less complex dissociation than standard DID. The two are there mutually exclusive.

Think of it this way: having two EPs and one ANP requires more complex dissociation than just having one ANP and one EP. Having several EPs requires more complex dissociation than just having two. Having several EPs and two ANPs each with a high level of complexity in behaviour and personality requires even more complex dissociation.

Having an extremely high number of highly fragmented ANPs and EPs that compartmentalize memories in an exceedingly fragmented way, creating a complex network of parts with highly specialized roles, switching and interacting with each other in very complex ways...That requires the most complex dissociation of them all. There is no way to dissociate to that degree without meeting the criteria for DID.

You can have OSDD and have many fragments. That doesn't mean you're polyfragmented.