Byler,Byler,Byler, and dear Tammy. But don't worry ; she sounds worse than she is.
However, to understand the coming out, Tammy, and why Will uses the past tense of "I had a crush," we have to go back a little bit to the field scene.
The script says Mike didn't clock it, but Robin does. We remember Will and how he asks Robin how she knew Vickie wanted to date her. Robin explains that there were signals. They developed slowly and became an avalanche. Will has already received mixed signals from Mike. He continues to test the waters. He pushes Mike away slightly, touching him on the chest. They both smile. Mike looks down, embarrassed, and smiles again before leaving the situation. That's the moment when Will received his first clear signal.
Mike, on the other hand, didn't notice Will flirting, but he felt a reaction within himself :a mixture of joy and shame. His body felt it, but even before it registered in his mind, he fled. Not out of disinterest or rejection, but out of being overwhelmed. It hit him emotionally. The escape was merely a desperate attempt to maintain control. The result is the burst pipe. But now let's talk about Tammy and why she comes into play. Will's mind is racing. Robin is acting as a mentor here. Robin holds a mirror up to Will: It was a lesson about the difference between obsession and true identity. "If I'm just in love enough with this 'normal' boy and he loves me back, then maybe I'll be normal too."
Robin observed the flirting and realized that Mike's mask was crumbling. She tells the story so that Will will stop worshipping Mike and start seeing him as a real person. Will needs to understand: "Stop seeing him as your ticket to normalcy. See him as the person standing right in front of you, flirting with you." The danger of euphoria: After the flirtation and the signal on the field, Will is euphoric. He might now think, "Mike loves me ; everything's fine now ; I'm saved!" But Robin knows: If Will believes that Mike has to "save" him, Will will remain dependent.
Mike as "solution" vs. Mike as "person": Robin tells Will about Tammy to say, "Remember how I used Tammy to numb my fear. Don't do that to Mike now." Robin wants to prevent Will from immediately forcing the bubbly, real Mike back into the old, rigid image of the "perfect savior."
Robin imagined her whole future with Tammy. She knew she was the one ;that if Tammy loved her, everything about Robin would be okay, and she wouldn't have to be afraid anymore (the part that always scared her). But then Steve (El's mirror) appeared, and she only had eyes for him, causing Robin's fantasy world toshatter. But then she saw this film of herself : this happy, fearless child. She simply loved everything about herself. And then she knew it wasn't about Tammy at all, but only about herself. Robin had looked for the answer in Tammy, but she already had the answer.
What does that mean for Will? If Robin thinks Tammy is the solution to her fear, then Will thinks Mike is his solution. We often hope that another person will make us whole so that we don't have to confront our own shadows (our fears ). Will has been in love with Mike since he was twelve . But he doesn't just love Mike as his best friend ;he loves what he represents (because Will always thought he wasn't like him): he saw Mike as a projection, as his savior, who possesses everything Will wants to be: normal (heterosexual), carefree, and integrated. But it was an escape. So Robin doesn't need anyone (Tammy) to be "okay." This breaks the cage. That's the prerequisite for her to be able to love Vickie authentically. Will asks Robin about this later, asking whether that happened with Vickie right after the Tammy thing, and Robin says , "No, no. I wouldn't have dared at that point. I was at peace with myself, but to say it out loud." But she did, and she told Steve (her former arch-enemy). She had taken the truth serum (catalyst). Only through Steve was she even able to get involved with Vickie and date her. And Will is only viewer number three. By the end of the year, she wants to double her number. That means for Will :he 's been preparing for this coming out for a while now.
Steve ( El'smirror ). Here it hints at Season 4. He was jealous, but through Mike's confession, he is at peace with her. The alchemist, Will, is searching for the essence, the gold formula, and number three . Will is processing everything. Robin and Will together. He is ready to open up to the others and confide in them. So, Tammy is just the construct to create adoration/the ideal. To end it so that Will can now meet Mike on equal terms and as a potential partner. Because since this signal, he knows Mike is also different and hides behind a facade/a wall (El, the girlfriend).
The burst pipe: that Mike damaged the pipe so badly with the shovel is no coincidence. The flirt was the snowball that started the avalanche. A burst pipe can no longer be ignored. The water (feelings) can no longer be contained. Like an avalanche, the burst pipe now destroys the "dry facade." Everything Mike has so painstakingly tried to suppress all these years now comes to light. Mike and Will try to stop it and maintain normalcy between them, but it is in vain. An avalanche cannot be stopped. Mike can no longer return to his old state. He can no longer pretend that everything is the same.
The burst pipe is therefore the external event that finally breaks Mike's inner resistance. This is also the reason why Hopper finds Kali. Kali is a theophany.
The coming out. Since Vecna is his mirror and the antagonist - exactly what Will fears becoming - he has to stay one step ahead of him. Only then will he not end up like Henry. Will said Henry showed him what would happen if he did this now (came out). Will explains that he's never told anyone before because he doesn't want to be seen differently. But he is different. He just pretended not to be. He wanted to be like everyone else, like his friends. And he is like his friends in every way... he lists all the things they like to do.
Then he says , "I just don't like girls." He looks at Dustin, Lucas, and Mike. As he continues, he looks away from them. He does like girls, but not the way they do. He continues: "I had this crush on someone-even though I know they are not like me." Will uses the past tense here, which leads to a misunderstanding for many. Many think, "Oh, Will had a crush and now he doesn't anymore, because Mike is just his Tammy." Or Mike thinks, "Now he doesn't love me anymore," and carries on. But wait a minute. He says it for specific reasons.
He's telling Mike, "I've been in love with you for a long time (since we were 12) . I loved you even with your mask (girlfriend)." It's a form of self-protection. But Will knows that Mike is different now, and Mike knows that too. So Will says "had" because he knows that Mike is still living in his lie (girlfriend/mask). He knows Mike isn't ready or as far along as he is now. But he's giving Mike the opportunity to question himself as well. Because both Will and Mike noticed the flirting and the pipe. Mike recognizes this too. But he could also be thinking: "I was just a crush ; does he still love me, or is he over me?" If Will were to say now, "I still love you" (which he does-but in a different way), then he would be putting Mike under pressure. Mike doesn't have to decide immediately. So he's taking the pressure off Mike. He wants to draw Mike out of his shell and make sure that Mike doesn't act out of fear of loss, but out of genuine self-awareness. He decides for himself. It's also about the loss of security: If Will were to say, "I still love you," Mike would still have Will, yet he would still be keeping his girlfriend. So he takes that away from him. He forces Mike to the painful realization: "If I don't change and leave my girlfriend El, I'll lose Will to his past forever."
Conclusion: If Mike doesn't want to lose Will, he must:
1. End the lie and break up with his girlfriend
2. Take off the mask and admit that he's just like Will
3. Take responsibility: Turn "We were/are best friends" into "I love you" in the present. Mike is still closeted and hiding behind his girlfriend. But the message is clear: As long as you hide behind El, you're not like me. I'm brave. What about you? Will can only love the sincere and honest Mike in the present/future. Not the one living this lie.
So he continues: But then I realized he was just my Tammy, and by Tammy I mean it wasn't about him ; it was about me.
That might sound harsh to many. Oh, Mike is just his Tammy. Who is Tammy? She's meaningless. She wasn't important to Robin, so Mike isn't important to Will. But that's complete nonsense. To the viewers, Will now seems "free" and "strong." They think he's ready for someone completely new (like Robin with the alchemist).
The truth is, Will is only now ready for Mike. Before, there was fear between them. Now that the fear is gone, the path is clear. But because Will is no longer begging or clinging, the others mistakenly interpret his newfound confidence as disinterest.
It's about Will and his self-love and acceptance. Robin didn't need Tammy, just as Will doesn't need Mike to love himself (I'm okay the way I am). As long as Will hadn't come out, any love for Mike would have been poisoned by untruth. Because only then could Robin love Vickie. Will couldn't continue to deny himself ; otherwise, he could never date Mike. Coming out was the prerequisite for being able to meet Mike as a real person (and not just as a projection).
It wasn't a lack of love for Mike, but rather a lack of self-love/self-acceptance.
The mirror revealed two truths:
The truth about the past: It showed Will that his years-long fixation on Mike had been a kind of "safety net." Mike was the projection screen (plus Tammy) that Will needed to numb his own fear of being different.
The truth about the present: After the flirtation on the field, Robin held up this mirror to say, "Look closely! Do you love the real Mike who's sending out signals right now, or are you still in love with the 'Projection/Tammy version' that's supposed to save you?"
Robin wanted to prevent Will from making coming out a "condition" for a relationship with Mike.
Here's the deeper meaning of this lesson:
No trade-off: Robin wanted to prevent Will from thinking, "I'm coming out now so that Mike will love me." That would have been the same old dependency. Coming out had to be an act of self-love, completely independent of how Mike reacted.
Robin also showed Will: You are the main character in your own liberation. Mike is the companion at your side, but you have to unlock the door entirely on your own.
Before: "I need you to be okay."
After: "I'm at peace with myself (like the child in the film). I no longer need you as a savior ; I now choose you as a true partner." By using the past tense, he buried the unattainable, idolized, normal version of Mike -the killing of the projection. The pipe: He thus marks the moment he stopped believing Mike was "normal." An "I love you" in the present tense after the coming out would have been a plea for reciprocation. "I had a crush" is a statement of fact. He takes away Mike's power to destroy him through rejection because he presents the feelings as "" or "processed"-even if, at their core (now on a real level), they are still there. "I had a crush" is a statement of fact.
So, does Will still love Mike? Absolutely. But it's conditional, and that's the truth.He is no longer in love in a "morbid" or "dependent" way, but rather consciously and sincerely.
Will used to be in love with the image he had of Mike (the "normal" dream boy who was supposed to save him). Now he's in love with the real Mike - the Mike who makes mistakes, who's embarrassed when flirting, and who splashed him with water when the pipe burst.
He loves Mike so much that he won't allow him to live a lie any longer. If he had said, "I still love you," Mike would probably have basked in the security of Will's love (because he always enjoyed his closeness) without breaking up with his girlfriend. Only the pain of being seen as finished or a projection/Tammy by Will gives Mike the necessary push to radically change his life. Will ends the old, unhealthy connection so that a new, honest love on equal footing can develop. Mike recognizes that Will speaks this language because he knows that Mike is hiding behind his girlfriend.
Will no longer sees Mike as the unattainable best friend/Tammy. The "past" was just a bridge to the present. But Will says, "Even though I know they are not like me" (in the present tense), because Mike is still with El (even though he knows Mike is like him). And it's Dustin and Lucas. Heart and mind are not one. He forces Mike to question himself.
Am I normal, or am I different too? Am I perhaps just like Will, and therefore not alone? How honest am I with myself? Am I perhaps also afraid to accept myself?
If Will had said, "I know you're like me," he would not only have put him under pressure but also outed him. It would have overwhelmed him and not helped. But because he looks him right in the eye while he says it, Mike will have to ask himself these questions.
So now Mike has to act: Does he let go of Will and move on, or does he finally stand up for himself and let go of his girlfriend?
Will Mike finally find the courage?
Then Will says, "I'll show him (Vecna) that I'm not afraid anymore," and he looks at Mike, who nods.
Then there's the scene: Friends? No thanks. Best friends. Many have dismissed this one as very negative.
But let me explain it like this: Mike apologizes for not being there for Will. He feels guilty because he was so focused on himself. That might sound selfish, but he feels just as strongly as Will. He's just like Will (different/not normal). Mike's problem was, or is, that he can't accept himself as he is. So he takes refuge in his girlfriend. He can't admit to himself the feelings he has for a boy/his best friend. For Will, that's okay; he just had to go through it alone. Unfortunately, that's often the truth. We often have to go through it alone and find our own way. But Will has already reached out to Mike. Will says it's good that you're still here and that you can imagine remaining friends.
But this sounds like the relationship is winding down. Everyone's familiar with the phrase: "Let's stay friends." So Mike is saying no, thanks. He wants to remain "best friends."
While you often have many friends in life, you have that one best friend. Mike doesn't want to distance himself from him and wants to stay close and maintain this special bond. Since Mike hasn't broken up with his girlfriend yet and isn't ready for a relationship/coming out, the most he can offer is: best friends.
But anyone who knows Kali's significance and how she interacts with Hop knows how this ends.
Suffice it to say, Will still loves Mike and waited 18 months for him. He would ultimately be rewarded for his patience.
Knowledge is security and control. Faith is trust and devotion. In a world full of deception and illusions, they choose together to believe in the good and in their connection. The fact that Mike imagines El has found her peace shows that he has found his own inner peace with his sexuality and his feelings.