I'm having a night where I'm struggling.
I've been doing DBT for about 8 months on and off. And, I didn't really think it was working. I'd roll my eyes in the mindfulness module, where they talk about not judging and experiencing and letting things come to you. And say "Bullshit" when we talked about emotional regulations and how sleep and diet are important.
Except here I am freaking the fuck out. There is SO much I need to do tonight. And, basically, I can't go to bed for a while. And, my anxiety is just eating at me. Well, either my anxiety or caffeine or thyroid. One of the three. But, I don't want to be alone in my head.
The problem is that I don't know of any phone service anywhere that exists for people who just don't want to be in their heads. Helplines are for when you're in crisis. Why the hell isn't there a "Talk to a friend late at night" line for people who just want a connection?














