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Consider Complexity: My Great Void

I started this blog so that I could write the things I want to shout into the great void. If I could, I would daily wander through the backwoods and find a void-like ravine into which I could shout. Alas, I am stuck in suburbia and my great void is you, tumblr. I called it "Consider Complexity" because I have adopted this statement as my personal motto. Paradoxically, It's as simple as it sounds. It means I commit to conscious thinking, observing, and living. If you haven't read "This is Water" by David Foster Wallace, please stop reading my blog and go read it. It is brilliant. Go now. Ok so I guess you have already read it or you just finished and decided to return. This is what I mean. I never want to forget that this is water. I want to discuss and explore and read and stand breathless in wonder at beauty. So consider complexity. Open your mind, breathe deeply, and live fully. This is your only chance. Do not let it pass you without consent.

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Soul mates

Once a youth pastor told me to pray for my future husband. As an obedient 12 year old, I began to add a checklist to my nightly prayer. "Dear Jesus, Please let my future husband be smart, funny, and kind. Amen." Doesn't sound so bad, right? Those are admirable qualities and this exercise taught me to reflect on what qualities I consider valuable in a future romantic partner. Here's what disturbs me. I had been taught that God already knew what would happen to me. I was an actor and God was the play write. All I had to do was learn my lines and I would be happy. Turns out, it's not that simple. The course of life is not predetermined. Life is a choice. Love is a choice. I am a 17 year old girl, and I don't believe in soul mates. But I can't think of anything more beautiful than the idea that someone might choose life and love with me.