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does how much of an obstacle executive dysfunction is/can be fluctuate from day to day? I'm not medicated but sometimes I feel like it's something I can push through with a lot of effort, and other times my executive dysfunction is the boss of me and I can't get anything done. I don't know if it's actually worse, or if that's just my perception of it.
Yup, that’s definitely a thing with executive dysfunction. Consistently inconsistent!
-J
One of the only constants is change
I've mentioned before that it seems like, as soon as I figure something out that Loki's been trying to get me to understand, I get a couple days to adjust to it before He turns around and says No no, it's not like that AT ALL, have some more information! New puzzles!
So I am generally on the lookout for this to come up. For whatever new comfort zone I have found myself in to be taken away or readjusted in some new and surprising and possibly distressing way just about as soon as I have gotten cozy or forgotten I was in it.
About a week ago, I got some undeniably strong indications that He wanted me to veil, to cover my hair when I'm out of the house. I asked a bunch of questions to sort out the specific circumstances and so on. Figured out if there was a particular style He preferred (there was). Etc.
The first day, ten minutes into my commute, He indicated I could take it off, though He'd prefer I left it on all day.
I dithered a bunch when I got into work, took it off, put it on, took it off again, and ended up leaving it on, because even though I was afraid people would look at me weird, I already felt more comfortable with it on than not. Which was a weird feeling.
The second day I felt no discomfort at all, and definitely felt more comfortable with it on.
That made me wonder when Loki would turn around and be all NO NO TAKE IT OFF NO MORE. Or if He would at all. His preferences seemed pretty clear, but I've been tossed out of new comfort zones often enough that a change wouldn't surprise me.
Well, I decided I would try and pre-empt the "you're too comfortable and dependent on that, NOW CHANGE" phenomena, so this morning I decided not to wear a scarf. And I verified this was acceptable.
I was a bit uneasy that He seemed to actually PREFER that I not wear a scarf today, because that seemed . . . too easy.
Then I got a sense that I should also leave my hair down. I've been wearing it up in braids for about a month now, because He liked that.
. . .
Yes, I should have seen that coming.
I am now wondering if the reasonable thing to do is that I should just flip a coin each morning. Or maybe two. Before making any decisions about what to do with my hair.
Song of the day: Pixies - Hey
Also part of my setlist for my gig
