Sep 23, 2015
Me:
Constantly overthinking everything and therefore I am a ball of worry and anxiety.
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Me:
Constantly overthinking everything and therefore I am a ball of worry and anxiety.
We all guard ourselves, some for reasons we can't explain. Maybe for the fear of being laughed at, or assured everything would be okay just to have their entire world come crashing down.. Or maybe it's because they know when they're falling for someone and they aren't sure how the other one really feels.. The fear of completely opening up to someone for the first time in a long time, and they don't want to be hurt, because they already know what it's like to lose you.. And I know it sounds crazy due to the small amount of time we've been together, but if I was to lose you again, I'm not sure how I would ever manage to bounce back from a loss like that..
Sometimes I look at my life now, and I can't imagine anything ever getting better.
At first it seems like a good thing, but then I wonder if there will come a day when all the good leaves.. and there wont be anything here for me anymore.. What will keep me going?
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Tell me not to text him. That I'd only be bothering him if I did. That he doesn't really care if he hears from me or not. Tell me he hasn't noticed that we haven't spoken in a week. Someone please tell me to not worry about all this. Please tell me not to text him...