Without you, I’m just a sad song
Louis Tomlinson x Female!Reader
Soulmate AU
Summary: In a world where song leads you to the one you belong with, Louis meets his in a peculiar manner.
Warnings: slight age gap (Louis's 5 years older), fluff fluff fluff, cursing
Word Count: 2.5k words
ERT: 10 minutes
A/N: My first 1D fic!!! I'm so excited about this, I've had this idea floating around in my head for ages and I wanna take advantage of the fact that I have inspo to write it!!
also, shoutout to @parkersbliss for making me fall in love with this band all over again, this wouldn’t be here without her so go show her some love, my baby deserves it!!
also number 2: i now have a 1D taglist so feel free to add yourself to it if you feel like it!
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For as long as the world can remember, the idea of soulmates and a soul bond has been a key point of society. Everyone is born with one or more soulmates, someone you were made to be with, destined to spend your life together, to find yourselves even when death tries to tear you apart. And all that is done through song.
The oldest of the pair can hear their counterpart's voice when they sing. It usually starts somewhere during your childhood, you hear them sing, like a little voice at the back of your head, something that's always with you and that'll help you find them when the time is right.
The youngest one, however, does not hear their soulmate's voice but instead has song lyrics written somewhere on their body, the first thing their partner will ever sing to them.
You were born with lyrics on your ribcage, words that you've memorized, cherished, and obsessed over for the past twenty-three years. Logically, you knew that you were still young and you had all your chances to find the one that was destined for you. But after watching all your friends find love, move out, get somewhere with their lives, you started to think that you'd be alone forever. Most people found their soulmates before they turn 18, yet here you were at 23 years old, still nowhere closer to them.
"C'mon, it's a great opportunity!"
"I don't know, Gina..."
Your best friend rolled her eyes and put the last red velvet cupcake on the tray with a flourish, making her way to the front of the shop to put it in the display case while you kept decorating the donuts.
"(Y/n), you're an amazing singer, musician, and songwriter, this is the best thing that could possibly happen to you."
"Yeah, what about the fact that I have terrible stage fright, can't dance for the life of me, and let's not even mention the anxiety that comes with the possibility of failure."
She sat down on the stool next to you and took the piping bag out of your hands so she could hold them, forcing you to face her.
"(Y/n)?"
You kept your head down but hummed in acknowledgment.
"Can you look at me, please?"
Your eyes met the soft pools of blue that were hers.
"Stop doubting yourself. You're not made for this, babe. The bakery's my dream, I'm perfectly content with spending the rest of my days baking with my husband but that's not for you. You were made to sing, to be on a stage, perform. It's unfair to yourself and to the world to restrict yourself so much. You need to take a leap. Have faith."
You took a shuddering breath as your eyes filled with tears.
"Okay."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah, I'm signing up now."
You took out your phone and started to fill out the application, heart beating a mile a minute.
This was really happening.
"Who knows, maybe one of the contestants will end up being your soulmate."
"Without you, I feel broke, like I'm half of a whole..."
Louis smiled softly as he blinked his eyes open. Every day for the past three years, he's woken up at seven in the morning to the sweet sound of his soulmate's voice. In the beginning, it was kind of annoying given that he was most definitely NOT a morning person, but he gradually got used to it and now enjoys it.
His soulmate must like singing a lot since he constantly has a song playing in the back of his head. It was especially bothersome when he was doing a show, oftentimes singing the wrong words because his soulmate was singing another song.
There's a video somewhere about him switching from singing Midnight Memories to Toxic almost flawlessly. Admittedly not his proudest moment.
He figured she was a songwriter since most of the songs she'd been singing for the past four years were songs he could not find on the internet, no matter how hard he searched. Not that it mattered, he knew them all by heart already, which was how he was able to start singing along with you.
He prepared his tea while humming softly to the song his soulmate was singing, quite happy that she'd started singing it on repeat since it was his favorite.
"Without you, I’m just a sad song."
He frowned when she suddenly stopped, still quite annoyed that even after all this time she hadn't figured out a way to finish it and he couldn't share his idea since he had no idea who she was. He took out his phone, answering a few messages from his fans, and watching a few of the things they made while he daydreamed.
At twenty-eight years old, he should have given up on the prospect of finding his soulmate. People that don't find their soulmates before twenty-five are pretty much hopeless. Sure, he remembered reading about that couple that found each other at 41 and 43 respectively (the oldest soulmates to ever find each other up to date), but those were rare occasions.
But as the hopeless romantic he was, he just couldn't give up. He convinced himself that it was because of his job, the fact that he was famous wouldn't allow for just a casual meet-cute like most other people, but he still dared to dream.
But today was a good day. It was the first day of X-Factor's new season and he was more excited than ever to meet new people, listen to some beautiful voices, and help young people conquer their dreams.
He quickly finished his tea and left the house so he could get there on time, already dreading the centuries they're gonna make him spend in hair and makeup and the millennia that it will take them to dress him.
"Are you nervous?"
"Is it that obvious?."
Georgina took in the way you were rocking on the balls of your feet, clenching your hands in a vague effort to ground yourself and the fact that you'd redone your hair at least five times in the last minute.
"A little."
Understatement of the century.
"Gina, what if they don't like me? What if they don't like my outfit? Or I fall because of the heels? Or my makeup's too much? Or my hair! What if they don't like my hair?"
She sat you down and took your hands in hers, taking exaggeratingly deep breaths so you'd follow her lead.
"Listen to me, your hair looks fine, your outfit's fine, your makeup's gorgeous, not surprising since I'm the one who did it, and you're not gonna fall because you walk in those heels like you belong on a runway and you know it. They're gonna judge you from your voice, and voice alone, and you have a gorgeous voice so I can guarantee you're gonna nail this."
You took a deep breath and nodded, repeating those words to yourself like a mantra.
It's gonna be fine.
They're gonna love you.
You're gonna nail this.
"(Y/n) (Y/l/n)?"
You looked up at the kind-looking gentleman in front of you.
"Yes, that's me."
"Follow me, please. You're next up."
Louis took an exhausted breath and drained the rest of his water, praying for the next one to be good. Obviously, he understood the importance of the 'entertainment acts', but the last three people had been shitty singers with an even worse attitude and he just needed a break.
"You okay?"
He turned towards Nicole and rolled his eyes.
"If I hear one more of these spoiled little brats I'm quitting."
"That's a valid point."
Cheryl agreed as well and even Simon nodded. These auditions were not going well. They all took a deep breath and straightened up in their chairs when the next contestant was announced, plastering fake smiles on their faces to keep the charade going.
Please, let them be good.
A girl with a bright smile and gorgeous red dress walked on stage, looking like the human personification of a puppy from how happy and excited she looked and only one thought filled his mind:
"Oh, fuck me."
Next to him, Nicole choked on her water, being the only one close enough to hear his whispered words.
Your heart felt like it could beat out of your chest at any given moment. You were on stage at the X-Factor, facing the judges, with a big audience excited to hear you sing.
"Hello."
Simon greeted you with a smile, which you took as a good sign.
"Hi!"
You waved excitedly and the crowd cheered, making you giggle.
Louis felt like he was dying.
The audience loved you, the girls were completely enraptured by you, Simon was smiling, and that little giggle made a freaking zoo erupt in his stomach (he was way past butterflies).
"What's your name, sweetheart?"
"My name's (Y/n) (Y/l/n)."
"And do you have a day job, (Y/n)?"
"I work in a bakery."
It would seem he has a type: cute puppy-like people who work in bakeries.
"And what are you gonna sing for us today?"
"I'm gonna sing an original song."
"Well best of luck to you."
More like best of luck to him, Louis's the one whose heart's beating way too fast to be considered healthy.
You thanked Simon and sat down at the piano, taking a deep breath through your nose and letting it out through your mouth before starting to play.
"I don't wanna die and fade away..."
The crowd's cheers fell on deaf ears as you started to play.
"I just wanna be someone..."
Only you and the piano existed.
Only the words coming out of your mouth mattered.
"I just wanna be someone."
Louis's path to realization came in three steps.
First, he started to recognize the words.
"Dive and disappear without a trace, I just wanna be someone. Well, doesn't everyone?"
Then, the voice started to sound strangely familiar.
"And if you feel the great dividing, I wanna be the one you're guiding, cause I believe that you could lead the way..."
And finally, he noticed that the voice hammering at the bag of his head, getting louder by the second, matched the sound that was coming out from the singer's mouth.
"I just wanna be somebody to someone, oh. I wanna be somebody to someone, oh. I never had nobody and no road home, I wanna be somebody to someone..."
Your soul mark felt like it was burning against your ribs, but you ignored the searing pain in favor of continuing the song.
"And if the sun's upset and the sky grows cold..."
A little pain wasn't gonna make you give up on your lifelong dream.
"And if the clouds get heavy and start to fall..."
Everyone in the room watched with bated breath as the signs grew more and more obvious.
"I really need somebody to call my own..."
Your ribcage started to glow, slivers of light permeating the fabric and shining like a beacon. Louis's eyes gradually started to light up gold, shining like ambers in the sun.
Telltale signs that your soulmate was close by.
"I wanna be somebody to someone..."
Both of you were oblivious to it. Your attention solely on the keys in front of you, Louis's eyes locked onto your face.
"Someone to you..."
His eyes were so bright that they started to light up his face.
"Someone to you..."
Your ribs glowed so much that the words could practically be read.
"Someone to you..."
Everyone held their breath as the song came to an end.
"Someone to you..."
You finished and couldn't help but bring your hand to your ribcage, frowning when you watched it glow.
What the Hell is going on?
Louis couldn't stop himself from talking if his life depended on it.
"I finished your song."
You looked up at him and were taken aback by how bright his eyes looked.
"What?"
"The song you've been singing for the past few weeks. You couldn't finish it so I did."
He got up and joined you on stage, the room completely quiet. He started to play the melody to the last chorus, nudging you so you'd sing.
"Without you, I feel broke, like I'm half of a whole. Without you, I've got no hand to hold. Without you, I feel torn like a sail from a storm. Without you, I'm just a sad song."
Your hand remained on your ribcage as it started to burn even brighter.
"You're the perfect melody, the only harmony I wanna hear."
You felt your heart stop when he sang.
"You're my favorite part of me, with you standing next to me I've got nothing to fear."
His hands came to a stop, as did the burning, and his eyes went back to a gorgeous blue
You couldn't believe that this man in front of you was your soulmate, but most importantly...
"I can't believe I have those words branded on my ribs and I didn't think of using them."
Pause.
"That's what you're thinking about right now?"
"Well I've been obsessing over it for weeks!"
"Fair point."
You were silent for a while longer until Nicole (bless her heart) decided to break the tension.
"Hey! Look at the bright side: your wish might just come true!"
Louis's head dropped onto the piano just as you spoke up.
"What wish?"
"Well as soon as you came out, he whispered 'fuck me'."
You turned to him and smirked while for what was most likely the first time in his life, Louis blushed.
"I mean, I was thinking of taking you out to dinner first, but I'm good with getting right to the good part."
"Fuck you."
"'S that an insult or a promise?"
"Both."
You waited in Louis's dressing room while they finished filming. Thankfully you were one of the last ones so you didn't have to wait long.
Unsurprisingly, the four of them had said yes, and no matter how many times Gina told you it was because of your voice and not the fact that you were Louis's soulmate, the win still felt bittersweet to you.
The door to the dressing room opened and a tired-looking Louis came in.
"Hey..."
"Hey back..."
He sat down next to you on the couch, as oblivious as you concerning the evolution of your relationship.
"I hope you know they didn't say yes cause you're my soulmate."
You chanced a look at him through your lashes.
"I'm serious. You're a proper good singer. You have a beautiful voice and you're an amazing songwriter. You belong in this industry."
You smiled and inched your hand towards his.
"Thanks."
He intertwined your fingers, a matching smile on his face.
"My pleasure."
You took advantage of the next silence to really take him in. Every nook, every cranny, every layer of his deep blue eyes.
"Would it be too forward of me to ask you out to dinner?"
"You're about an hour too late, I already asked you out."
He chuckled and unconsciously leaned closer to you.
"Okay, then would it be too forward of me to ask for a kiss?"
"Not at all."
Your smile was blinding as his face got closer, and when he kissed you, for the first time in twenty-three years, you felt complete.
Songs used: Someone to you by BANNERS, Sad Song by We The Kings and Elena Coats
so here it is! I hope you guys liked it! Don’t forhet to comment, reblog, and/or like if you feel like it!
-Love, Libby
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