#controlled addiction

[hogwartslivy]

Controlled Addiction: The Beginning Of Their End

< chapter seven of controlled addiction >

“James.” Sirius was watching Lily, naturally, when he raised his head. Fuck, he hadn’t called anyone. Since the moment of impact, he had thought of nothing else than getting Lily out safely, getting her out alive.

His hand slid from hers as he stood, rounding the bed to meet Sirius, arms wrapping around his shoulders. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, I don’t know—”

“It wasn’t your—” Sirius pulled back, his hands on either side of James’ face, “The other driver was drunk. It wasn’t your fault.”

He broke then, his head dropping onto Sirius shoulder, the exhaustion rattling his body. Sirius kept him steady, a hand on the back of his neck, allowing James to soak through the t-shirt he wore in silence.

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Controlled Addiction: Pop

< chapter six of controlled addiction >

His hair lay flat against his forehead, the wet strands dripping. She lent around him, turning the dial, shutting off the water. He kissed her again, briefly, but warming her all the same. She reached for her towel, stepping out of his arms and wrapping herself in the soft fabric. James brought his towel to his hair, shaking it out roughly, drying it off as best he could.

She sat, crossed legged and quiet, on one of the sun lounges around the pool, watching the sun sink lower over the water. At some point, as she watched the sails go up on a boat leaving for the horizon, James slipped in behind her, his arms snaking around her waist to pull her back against his chest. She went willingly, sighing softly as he moved her wet hair from where it had stuck to her neck and replaced it with his lips. He murmured into her skin, nothing at first, and then—

“Come to Rome with me this weekend.”

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[hogwartslivy]

Controlled Addiction: Domestic Bliss

< chapter five of controlled addiction >

< please ensure you read the warning at the beginning of the chapters as the story contains themes that may be distressing and triggering. i urge you to read with caution >

“Lily…” He was out of breath, chest heaving as heavily as hers.

“Go. I’ll—” She inhaled, eyes darting between his, as she tried to read his thoughts through his facial expressions only to find herself wildly out of practice. His mask, annoyingly, remained firmly in place as she reached up to brush his hair away from his face, “I’ll meet you after. Have a good game.”

“Now, Potter.” Mary was just outside the door and, despite not knowing her, Lily was thankful she had enough tact not to burst into the room. She felt heat rush to her cheeks and she was sure that her face had gone a bright shade of red.

His hand squeezed her waist once more and she found herself closing her eyes as he ducked to press a kiss to her forehead. She was left spinning, skin hissing as the cold air hit where his hands had burned, as he walked away, saying nothing and without a look back.

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[hogwartslivy]

Controlled Addiction.

Chapter Two: Simple Familiarity

“Fuck, I’m sorry, Evans.”

Satisfied she hadn’t missed a button, she stood up, turning on her heel towards him. This time, when faced with his bare chest, she was ready for it. She inhaled, kept her eyes trained steadily on his face and her fingers held tightly to the edge of the counter. He tugged a hand through his hair as she noticed a flush creeping up his neck. He was staring pointedly towards the ceiling above her head.

“No, it’s my fault, I shouldn’t have been—” She paused, spatula hanging loosely from her fingers as she moved to go back to her, now burning, bacon and eggs, “Wait, yes I should’ve been, I’m supposed to be here… what are you doing here?”

He laughed. The sound, one that she hadn’t heard in what felt like years, settled in her chest. The feeling, the sound felt so… familiar. She threw a glance over her shoulder. He was watching her now, evidently safe now she’d buttoned up, his hands twisting to rub the back of his neck, “Didn’t really fancy bunking with another rookie who’s just gunna try to haze me all summer to be honest.”

“Rookie? Haze you? Planning on rushing a frat house while you’re here or something?”

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[hogwartslivy]

Controlled Addiction.

Chapter Three: Laced With Nightmares

“Don’t like my top, Potter?” She noticed the flush creeping up his neck as his eyes flickered between hers and her chest, “I can go put the dress shirt on instead if you like, but then again, you don’t do well with buttons do you?”

He covered the almost audible groan with a small cough, but she didn’t miss the way he shifted on the seat, uncomfortable, “Very funny, Evans, who would have known you to have such a quick wit this early? Surely not you, as you didn’t know a time before midday even existed.”

“I won’t apologise for liking my sleep, Potter,” she took the jumper from him, pulling it over her head, taking the helmet from him too, “Besides, there’s plenty of activities to do in bed, you should come join one time, I’ll give you a lesson.”

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[hogwartslivy]

White Haze

Chapter Four of Controlled Addiction

Spring, Over A Year Ago.

“I think—I think, it was a dream, I was falling in my dream.”

“Oh.” He was still so quiet, reserved, and it unnerved her, frightening to see him like this when she knew him to be able to command a room with a simple, well-pointed, loud remark, “You were— you’ve been asleep.”

She felt herself frown, so unfamiliar with her own body that she reached a shaking hand to feel the creases the frown created in her skin. Her body ached with her movement, the burning dull but constantly present, and she felt what could only be an electric current travelling just under skin, itching, “How long?”

“A few—a few days.” His fingers tightened on her arm as her eyes found his, and she understood the tears, and the sniffling, and the choking sobs.

“Days?”

“We have no idea what happened, only that when they found you, it was morning and you had been out there for a while, all blue and purple, and pale, and then when they tried to wake you—”

And then, it flashed.

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Controlled Addiction.

Chapter One: Hiding Place

She ran her fingers along the top of the door frame, stretching on her toes to be able to just reach. When she came in contact with the cool metal of the key the breath she’d been holding released and she stumbled backwards, righting herself before she slipped off the top step. It’s not like she had any reason to be worried, Sirius had assured her the key was still there after last summer and she knew that his father would have killed him if had forgotten to put it back before he left. She turned the key, the satisfying click of the lock sending another small wave of relief through her veins. Pulling her bag in behind her, the door shut and she turned the lock again. She rested her back against the wood, closing her eyes. She took a deep breath, and another; tapping her fingers against her leg. She shook out her hand as she felt her phone buzz, with eyes stinging and throat dry she pulled it from her back pocket.

—

Sirius Black: Did you make it ok?

Lily Evans: Yeah. Just got in the door. Thanks for this.

Lily Evans: I appreciate you.

Sirius Black: Keep your head up— text me tomorrow? Say hi to Maria for me.

Lily Evans: She still likes me better, Siri. Always has, always will. Night.

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