Well, the larp was awesome! In every way on every day the organizers outdid themselves in every way. All of it was outstanding! Due to my methodacting approach to my character I have experienced "bleed" (a.k.a. character emotionality running over to me as a person after the game) way worse than ever. Not even sure that I have ever had real bleed before at all to be honest. However, that part is over and done with now. Less than a week later, which is a lot better than I expected considering how emotional I was right after and during the trip home.
The one thing I'm having a REALLY hard time with is an out of character issue. Not that I want to because I really don't, but I had a LOT planned with another player. No that's not entirely true, we didn't have a specific script. We did however talk a LOT in the week before the game and seemed to click very well. Or so I thought. We talked extensively on what kind of game we wanted, OOC boundries and everything. It even bordered over into sexual orientation (on her explicit initiative no less).
During the larp, we perform a ritual vaulderie ceremony. I can only guess that this was where I somehow fucked up or something. She did seem excited both before and imediately after, but after that she turned off her phone and didn't reply either ingame or offgame. Not until a full day after the larp ended when she replied about having turned off the phone and being sick. I answered that it was no worries. Then all of a sudden - mid sentence - I can no longer reply.
She has unfriended and blocked me. With no reason what so fucking ever. I e-mail and tell her that it's hurtful as fuck, but okey I guess. If I was that obnoxious I'd just rather she say so waaaay earlier. On the extensive topic on boundries I did ask her for ONE thing. That she not make me feel like a fucking idiot by ignoring me.
What the fuck did I do to deserve that? :'( Even emailed to shortly explain how that was hurtful as fuck, but okey I guess if I did somehow overstep or something. Don't I even deserve an explanation? Guess not.
Reason for saying this? None at all since nobody reads this anyhow. Just getting it said for my own sake.