New experience unlocked (sort of)
A thing was said to me, and a viewpoint regarding the importance of my feelings when I'm "wrong" was expressed.
I may elaborate later but I have 4 minutes to clock in at work and I'm just rattled as fuck.
Anyway, I went outside to take a break and make some distance because of an argument. I laid down in the grass, closed my eyes, listened to my favorite meditation song. This could be a perfectly fine way to unwind and rethink before continuing our discussion.
However when I opened my eyes everything around me was a smokey gray. And the sky looked like dusk in a black and white photo. The only thing that almost looked real were these fake sunflowers she has in the garden. They were sort of too bright and "glowing". The color slowly came back over about 5-6 minutes. The sunflowers first.
Maybe it's a sign. A message. Maybe I'm so upset by the way she approaches me about anything that my body is going into survival mode.
I'll give this thought and update. For now, I have to fucking be nice to strangers while I feel like my soul is dying.