#crazy slur

[paranoidpdsuggestion]

you ever get that urge to just scream "I WAS RIGHT!! I WAS RIGHT!! FUCK ALL OF YOU I WAS RIGHT!!" out loud or @ someone when something bad happens that you predicted, but others called you 'crazy', 'unreasonable', etc. for suggesting it in the first place

[psychotic-psypport]

I am afraid of getting vaccinated because I fear the government is going to implant a bug in me with it or swap it with something dangerous. I know this is crazy but I'm afraid and fear I might have a breakdown worrying about it if I get the vaccine. I don't know what to do about it.

I understand your fear. It's scary! And I'm not going to just reality check you, because it seems like you know that this isn't the case, but it feels that way and just telling you no would be more distressing than coming up with a game plan. I think perhaps the best way to do this is suddenly. My advice is to be a surprise when you go get the vaccine. That way, no one would know it's you. Like you could go to a clinic without telling anyone is what I mean. If you just show up, which I believe you can do because I got a flu shot this way, they wouldn't know you were planning on going, and thus couldn't swap out the vaccine with anything else. Maybe that would feel safer, to go unannounced once you can.

[ophidahlia-did]

Feeling pretty comfortable reclaiming "crazy" as a slur tbh ("mad" also). Even years after getting diagnosed correctly I still have little control over switches, so much identity confusion, so much "made" actions/feelings/thoughts, my physical health & mental state are both extremely unpredictable & unstable over days, weeks, & even months. Combine D.I.D. with Conversion Disorder, CPTSD, complex chronic pain, and all the other very uncommon components & marginalizations of my situation (being trans, a power wheelchair user, extremely poor, a practicing pagan, etc etc just edges me further out onto the fringes of society)... "crazy" just feels like my normal now. Like, I still have apparent physical injuries just appear out of nowhere and it's nearly impossible to determine that they're really conversion symptoms and not actually organic. It feels like even my body itself is crazy, to say nothing of my mental states.

Saying I'm crazy is like, anything but a diagnosis. Crazy, for me personally, isn't experiencing things that aren't real, which is how most people (especially neurotypicals) think of it, it's experiencing things which most other people can't comprehend as being real. It's not lacking a grasp on reality, it's other people not being able to grasp my reality. It's existing somewhere outside the general consensus reality. "Crazy" is a box people put you in when they can't imagine you fitting in any of the tidy, neatly labelled boxes they have for people because your lived reality threatens to overturn their little epistemological taxonomy.

Well, I'm keeping the box and I'll going at it with the markers and box cutter and duct tape and they can't stop me lol. I always loved the Mad Pride movement/counter-culture for so many reasons, and over time I guess those reasons have finally become as personal as they are political.

(Neurotypicals do not interact with this)

[autism-asks]

Relating to an ask that was sent in about rocking: Why is "rocking is one of the stims that are more popularly associated with 'crazy' people"?? (I'm just curious now, and I can't find any information and now it's bothering me greatly because I don't understand this and I want to, so, I'm asking here since it's the only place I can think of that might have an answer-)

I’ve tried researching where this stereotype originated, but I haven’t been able to find anything. (Well, aside from a million and one articles talking about how “crazy” x, y, or z is...)

I think (though this is just speculation) that this has become such a stereotype because it’s a pretty common stim across multiple neurodivergencies. Autistic people, schizophrenic people, anxious people, and more tend to rock when not doing well. Further, rocking is a very noticeable stim that is outside the realm of social acceptability which makes it a very clear sign that someone is different. As such, we have ended up with the stereotype of “crazy” person rocking in a psych ward. 

If anyone actually knows where this originated, let us know! I’d love to find out the history behind this!

-Sabrina

(The ask being referenced can be found here)

[checking-the-horizon]

Conversation I had with my 5yr old daughter, who for tumblr purposes is called Bean.

BEAN, running around: Look out I'm going crazy!

ME: Bean hun, crazy isn't a kind word. Crazy is a word people use to make people like me sound scary. Can you think of something else you can say?"

BEAN: How about "Look out! I'm out of control!"

ME, slightly surprised: Yes Bean, that's brilliant, thank you for listening and being kind."

BEAN: *Screaming and running around resumes* "Look out! I'm out of control."

*For context I believe she was a magical flying train that was going upside down and in all directions.

Very proud of my daughter and wondering why adults, who should be able to much better understand the consequences of their words, find this stuff so difficult.

[ladyautie]

Ugh... I hate the fact that ableism is so normalized. I just wanted to watch a french comedy live-show on Netflix and this guy starts saying : “Yeah, I have a trick to prevent anyone to sit next to you when you’re in a train : you act like a crazy person. Full crazy !”.

Of course, the audience laughs. And then, he tops off his declaration by mimicking what he thinks is a “crazy person” and everyone is laughing. It’s so painful to watch, because what he’s doing on purpose to “get other people scared” is a behavior some of us, I, can’t prevent.

I have nervous tics, I stim, and people are often giving me weird looks for that, notably on the train because of all the noise and all the people that are stressing me out. I don’t do that on purpose. I don’t do that to prevent other people to sit next to me.

And I certainly don’t do that, so that you can “mimic” my behavior to be alone and, then, so that audience members can laugh at this “grotesque behavior”.

Gosh, I don’t understand this trend. I also watched this young woman’s video about sexual harassment in the street, where she gives advices to other women about this, and one of them is... to pretend to be deaf.

And then, she proceeds to reenacts the scene, playing deaf in an overly exaggerated way. It’s supposed to be “funny” and, at the same time, “helpful”. I hate this way of thinking. It’s like : “Oh, she’s disabled ? Disgusting !” or “She’s disabled ? Well, I won’t touch that, they’re all so innocent.”

Anyway, I literally crave for a comedy show that won’t rely on ableism. I can’t say I’ve seen one that doesn’t rely on it, so far...

[recoveryinreach]

IM SPLITTING ON YOU FOR SOMETHING I IMAGINED IN MY HEAD. Beep beep!!! NO ONE CAN STOP THE CR*ZY trAiN!

[psychotic-psypport]

Okay I was struggling whether or not to write this.... I don’t want people to think I’m stereotyping psychotic ppl in general. But.... I’ve been more and more having thoughts about killing random people? Like idk more like I’ll laugh when I think about it? Idk the stereotypical “crazy psycho” stuff. But then I also feel a kinda bad about it? Taking someone life? But the thought and doing it seems almost funny, like I actually am starting to laugh about it? (I have BPD + bipolar)

If you're saying you felt bad sending this in because you're psychotic and have violent thoughts, you don't have to feel bad at all. A lot of psychotic people have these thoughts, but we are no more likely to be violent than anyone else. These thoughts don't make you a bad person or a bad example of psychosis in the slightest. I have awful violent thoughts, specifically about animals and children, and I know that some people would stereotype me because of my diagnosis, but I am not a violent person nor am I inherently more inclined to be one. As for feeling bad about laughing, that doesn't make you bad either. These are upsetting thoughts, and you need to react in some way, even if it might not be wholly "appropriate". I'm a "laugh at funerals" kind of person because I don't know how to deal with those emotions, so you're not alone.