#creationtainted

[countlessrealities]

"Adam, what the actual fuck?! You made it sound like I put an egg into you!"

...Ew.

"Also, before you all come flocking to me, if we want to be technical, the 'father' is Adam's crush."

{ @creationtainted }

[witchoflegends]

@creationtainted

"Sounds like King Douche is projecting. You've lost everything. The only reason you're not out of the streets struggling to survive being bottom of the pack is because of the kindness of my daughter. That must hurt your pathetic pride."

[cxncrie-a]

@creationtainted || Starter

   Okay, so maybe she was a little worried about him. There's a bit of a conflicting feeling, between leaving him to fend for himself among the sinners he supposedly hates so much, and offering to help him so he's not alone like she technically was upon arrival over a year and a half ago. Sure she had the person who she made a deal with, but he often doesn't answer questions and leaves her to her own devices to figure things out a lot. 

   Despite that, she tries not to think too much about it, she'll just .. maybe ask how he's doing next time they cross paths. Or maybe ignore him? No. That's probably mean considering she did cook something for him to make up for that terrible joke. Not that he was probably going to eat it, she did sort of give it to him with no words or context. 

   Scrunching up her nose slightly, she runs her hand through her hair as her ears flatten slightly. This is stupid, she shouldn't give a damn about this, about him really, but of course, she has a habit of caring about people too damn easily. Sure enough, after a few moments of fighting with herself, she heads in the direction she last saw him go. 

   She hadn't expected to manage to spot him, but seems he's gotten a place to stay, and not in the best part of town. Then again, there's no real best part of this ring. Okay. So he's got somewhere to be right? So he's fine, right? He should be. So why is she still worried? 

   God she fucking hates herself.

   Against better judgment, she heads over to the door of the room he went into, standing there for a good few moments before lightly knocking on the door. Was she half hoping he didn't hear her? Yeah. Because then she could justify leaving and say that she tried. Plus, she's pretty sure she's gonna get slammed with a ' stalking ' accusation. 

[countlessrealities]

For a moment, she's left speechless. She can't believe her ears.

When she first caught the random interview online, her first reaction was annoyance. They know that she's dating Charlie, why would anyone think that she would cheat? And with Adam of people. It's demented.

The comment about how he would "break her" had her rolling her eye, but it's quickly forgotten because of what comes next.

"Did he seriously invite people to look into his real crush just to defend my honour?"

As the shock starts to fade, a little grin curls her lips. Maybe there is hope for that idiot, after all. And that's what she's choosing to focus, not the hint of warmth that touches her chest, a feeling that belongs to another life.

{ @creationtainted }

[countlessrealities]

"Not to steal Alastor's lines, but...wooooow, poetry. Maybe I should add lessons on how to talk to your in-resident package."

{ @creationtainted }

[countlessrealities]

Send me a ✧ and i’ll bold all that apply to your muse || Accepting !

@creationtainted sent: ✧ I've got that Vaggie & Adam brainrot

ONCE UPON A TIME...

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you (platonically). ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

★★★

NOW...

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

[countlessrealities]

@ Vaggie

I'd really like to apologize to you. I just don't know where to begin. Just saying 'I'm sorry' can't possibly be enough.

Tell my muse what you want to do to them on anon || Accepting !

There's something in the words that instantly tells Vaggie who they are from. She's not certain, because she knows that she might just be projecting, she might just be reading what she wants to read.

She wants to believe, but her wishes have been crushed so violently that it's too much for her. She's given up on having hopes and dreams of her own. These days she actively chooses to support the ones of others and deny them to herself.

It's easier, safer. It's less painful, less dangerous.

Her hands shake as she grips at the note, unsure of what to think, of how to feel. She hates the tightness in her chest, just as she hates the slow wetness running along her cheek. They make her feel weak, and that's something she can't afford.

She should just throw it away and pretend that it has never existed. She wouldn't truly be able to forget about it, but at least she wouldn't have the physical reminder sitting there before her eyes.

She really should, but she can't, for more reasons than she's ready to acknowledge.

In the end, she ends up stashing it away in her secret drawer. Maybe one day she'll burn it. Or perhaps she'll take it out and find the guts to throw it at its sender so they can talk about it.

For today, however, she's just going to spend some time on her own on the roof, to clear her head. After that, she'll go check on Alastor. The radio freak always has some crazy bullshit ongoing and she can't think of a better distraction.

[countlessrealities]

I've been mulling over this a lot and I decided to make a list of the headcanons I have for Vaggie's relationship with Adam when she was still an Exorcist.

These fully and mainly apply to Sai's Adam( @creationtainted ) since he's my Vaggie's main, but if any other Adam RPer I end up writing with wants to use some of them, we can talk about it!

Adam hand-picked Vaggie to join his army. He never told her why he had chosen her, but he never regretted it, since she soon became one of his baddest bitches.

Vaggie was, together with Lute, Adam's closest friend. The three of them hung out together often, but she also had plenty of time one-on-one with Adam.

At one point, Adam developed some sort of crush on Vaggie and propositioned her (in his charming way). Of course, she turned him down, hard. They didn't speak for a while after that, because things between them had gotten too awkward. Until one day Vaggie showed up to Adam's lodgings with drinks and snacks and they had an impromptu sleepover. By the end of the night, the air had been completely clear

After that, the sleepovers became a habit for them. Watching movies, gossiping, bitching about whatever has annoyed them recently. Also, talking about girls.

They mostly kept their time together a secret. They didn't actively hide it, but they also didn't advertise it. Vaggie didn't want to make it look like Adam was playing favourites, especially because she knew that Lute would get mad and petty.

In spite of that, the other Exorcists ended up assuming that they were fucking. Adam did nothing to deny it, much to Vaggie's annoyance. Though, she never openly corrected them either. Better for the others to think that they were fuck buddies than to learn how genuinely attached to each other they had become.

Vaggie might or might not have started a few cat fights with Lute because she knew that Adam found them amusing to watch (of course, if asked, she would have denied it even under torture).

Vaggie used to really enjoy Adam's music. At times, she just lied on her stomach on his bed and listened to him playing for hours, singing along here and there. They even composed a few songs together.

After every Extermination, the Exorcist army has a celebration. Vaggie never was a fan of it, but she joined it anyway not to be left out. Drinking definitely helped, but what never failed to get her through was the knowledge that, once the whole affair was over, she and Adam would go for karaoke together.