#crummy thoughts

[lame-face-momma]

Sometimes I'm disappointed in myself... because I know I'm better than the choices I make and the things I choose to deal with 

[m-ilk2]

I had someone ask for my autograph today and I said I'd do it for $5 and nothin

[m-ilk2]

FYI if you're new I'm Qing up some giveaway posts tagged "spam" and "q" so blacklist that if u get annoyed easily

[m-ilk2]

Got to present in ASL first thing tomorrow shouldn't be nervous but I am a little

[m-ilk2]

alright so official name change I wanna explain

my sidebar now says ghoul/mat/jess which means I'll go by any of those names (but honestly I'd prefer ghoul or mat)

so right now I'm feeling my identity is fluctuating towards the masculine side but I still prefer genderless rather than demiboy 

but my expression still remains mostly "feminine"  and sometimes "masculine" 

I feel like changing my name helps with this fresh start I've been wanting for so long

[m-ilk2]

URL change

yeah new name 

after about a year and a half of the old one im ready for the change

maybe this is temporary maybe ill find a better one so

stay tuned

[m-ilk2]

I guess in good news I have a new group if friends that I really like and I don't feel like I have to force my way into their conversations they're all super cool and accepting One tall guy in that group practiced ASL and he gave me a ride home and I didn't feel stressed at all it was so nice

[m-ilk2]

like maybe I'm just a whiny kid but it really hurts! I'm doing my best and no one cares but me! It's sucks!