I have mentioned a few times before that my relationship with Odin has not been a simple one. My matron, she’s straight forward. Even when she’s quiet I know she is there. She has made herself too known to just disappear on me, at least at this stage.
Odin and I on the other hand, can have an empty dialogue for a long periods of time – so long that it most always leads me to question if he wants to have a working relationship at all, but every time I try to give up or leave it behind, he reminds me that he is there.
During all of this I have questioned more than once as to why he would pick me at all. If you know anything about Norse gods, especially the All-Father, they are the patrons of warriors. Skilled hunters. A ferocity, I don’t think I possess. I can stand blood, but can’t do violence, I don’t do meat (a big offering for Odin) and I am most certainly not the archetype of the warrior. So why would the All-Father pick me?
More than once I have seen myself in the place of the Magician. A card which represents the Master of her reality, the creatix. The bender of elements at her will so that the astral cloud can manifest into physical form. This is my Divine Masculine in its highest form. Funnily enough that this is also the card that I associate with Odin. The Wizard God. The seeker of deep Divine knowledge. The one who bends this knowledge at will to form 3D reality.
It was on one recent Wednesday, a more special one than most, where I would need all the focus and manifesting power I could get. I pulled my Tarot card for the day like I always do and that day, I pulled the Magician. Channeling power was in lockdown. It was not until days later I realized that on Wodin’s Day (Wednesday), this was Odin reminding me he was there.
Not only was he there, but he was here to teach me what it means to be “the Master of your reality.”
That they are not very different to the lessons of the warrior:
Integrity. Honor. Loyalty.
He had taught me this once before. Once where I was willing to choose separation over Love.
When the Magician, the co-creator comes into incarnation, he makes a commitment. That commitment will be the underlying basis of why he comes back to his senses. Why he does what he does.
The master of his reality knows, he is responsible for every move he makes. Nothing has occurred in front of his eyes unless he has willed it so. So he will watch his every word, every thought, every intention he sets. No blame can be put on his outside world, he must always return within. To center, to get still, to realign and reassess, then he can precisely create once more. He knows energy is everywhere, freeform, the only thing that matters is how he wields it.
This is what you sign up for, when you choose to be the co-creator of your world. My commitment? Well it has always been Love. To choose its connection, purity and compassion over separation and fear every single time.
Can I honor my promise? Can I remain in the integrity of my commitment? Can I remain loyal?
For the longest time, in times of crisis with loved ones, I thought to stay loyal meant to be loyal to them. Even if it meant crushing my boundaries or values.
It was Odin who taught me that to be the Master of your reality, means through the most troubling, confusing and challenging of times, can we stay committed to our promise? Even if the person in front of me meets me with detest, can I stand in the Heart of Love.
My secondary lesson… my relationship with Odin will take work. He is a Norse god after all – The frikken All-Father, and it means sometimes he will be silent until he chooses not to be. Not so different from the myths. He will ask me to be loyal, and honor the commitment I made to him. To be chosen by Odin is not to be taken lightly, he somewhere sees a warrior in me after all and sometimes, if we want answers from deity, we must try and try again.
