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[cttrajan1206]

have you seen the jax song relevant remix

SJDJDF MAYBE. IVE GONE A BIT INSANE WATCHING REMIXES

Ive see the thomas song and i think the remix done by uhmm

YES. YES I HAVE. HAHAHA i prefer the original but the animation is soo good in the remix

[tyranttortoise]

@cttrajan1206​ submitted:  My soul's primary trait is PATIENCE but it has an inner core of KINDNESS that has built it up on that. Kindness was originally it's sole trait but then layers of patience built around it to produce a calmer and more mellow soul. The kindness was once larger but then shrank as too much of it was being used and given away. Once I had learnt to be patient not only with others but also myself, it grew a hard shell that balances the gives and takes.

Cracks of INTEGRITY that bleed out PERSEVERANCE were created by morals that aren't too bad being worsened by a bad mentality. It broke through the layer of patience and started to hurt but when it began to bleed perseverance, it started to heal. By achieving the ability to persevere through the tough times like depression and self harm and self afflicted pressure, the spots of integrity lost their edge and grew softer. The soul glows a mix of green and cyan with bursts of dark blue as morals still hold a large place in my soul.

(For the SOUL Match up!! :D From CTtrajan)

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the tortoise’s two cents:  I love the way you did your SOUL, and the glow around it is so calming.  Also, Integrity cracks that bleed out Perseverance?  That’s such a cool detail, and I support that soul headcanon so hard.

That said, the one that’s most drawn to your soul is Underswap Sans.

Being able to keep up with Blueberry’s excitability and knack for exploration and adventure definitely takes a SOUL of Patience.  And Kindness is something that draws him in; he’s always looking for the Kindness in others.  He can tell from looking at your SOUL that it used to have a Kind base -- and that the Kindness was used and taken advantage of by others.  Being around him will only help that Kindness grow; he’s a kind-hearted skeleton, and he’s someone that gives as much as he takes.  He looks out for those closest to him, a value that was instilled in him from Stretch.

He can see the cracks, and although they’re healing with Perseverance, being with Blue means they’ll eventually begin filling in with Kindness, too.  He’s someone you can lean on when you’re feeling down, someone that has a knack for cheering you up (a knack he picked up from dealing with his brother’s bouts of apathetic depression), and even though he gets stigmatized as being naive, you can talk to him about the heavy stuff, too -- like self-harm.  He won’t freak out or think of you as fragile; on the contrary, he’ll admire you for your strength to Persevere through those tough times, and he’ll feel honored to be one of your confidants.  You can rely on him to help -- and whenever you feel like there’s too much pressure bearing down, he’ll always be there to take some of it off in any way he can.  

[pee-ee-ay-essays]

20.12.19

Wild Boy & the Black Terror

By Rob Lloyd Jones

Chapter 2: Page 28 - 29

Wild boy and Clarissa are following the mysterious group, The Gentlemen, into a locked room out of curiosity. As they enter the room, The Gentlemen have vanished.

(This essay merely comments on the use of language techniques during these two paragraphs and their effects. There is no set question to answer here)

The writer uses a semantic field here to describe the palace interior and the room they enter as old. From the very beginning, the inside is said to be "shabby" and that "peeling papers" revealed "damp" walls. The verb "peeling" shows that the walls have been left unkempt for a while and that the wallpaper is old. The papers are peeling off with age. Also, the walls "glisten with damp." The adjective "damp" implies that the rain has gotten into the walls and that the house hasn't been cleaned properly for a while. Not only does the house appear old but it is abandoned and empty. This is ironic as it was given to Wild Boy as a "new" base.

Additionally, as the two progress into them room, the interior of a locked room is revealed to us. It is described as "musty and dusty and falling apart." More of the semantic field of old is used here as the suits of armour are "clothed with cobwebs." The room might "once" have been used but looked like it hadn't been "for decades." The use of a semantic field in this extract may have been to present the setting as empty and mysterious. Old buildings connote to containing secret passages so it can be inferred that the writer was trying to highlight the secretiveness of the group that Clarissa and Wild Boy are following. The effect of this on the reader is that it adds a suspicious atmosphere and builds up tension as the characters enter more and more desolate rooms. As we can infer that these rooms are a place that the group frequents, it can be assumed that the rooms are being used in hidden ways. Furthermore, it could also be assumed that the emptiness of the rooms are used as a front for the group to conduct their activity behind. Even after reading the first book, the reader and characters are still unaware of what the majority of these activities are (if I recall the first book correctly).

The writer also uses similes to describe senses. The fireplace "looked like it hadn't brought warmth or light in decades." When they first enter the room, "no light shone through." The lack of "warmth" and "light" makes the scene seem unsettling. It could be inferred that the room is unwelcome to the visitors. "Warmth" has deeps connotations to being inviting and pleasant. The lack of it could suggest that the room is the opposite. Also, "light" is seen the same way and gives opportunity  for ideas as you see more with it. No light means that it is harder to see things - perhaps even purposefully made dark to hide things. Darkness is generally linked with evil and hiding things so the introduction of it makes the reader wonder why there are no lights and what they can't see.

Additionally, there is an implicit description of silence. The "only" sounds were "their own heavy breathing and thumping hearts." However, soon afterwards, the room is revealed to contain a clock. The room has a grandfather clock and a grand piano - both big items that are known to create loud sounds. As the "only" sounds are Clarissa and Wild Boy, this implies the clock is broken and that the piano is deserted. The silence adds to the unsettling air and means every sound is sharpened. Each sound overpowers the silence and is highlighted as not belonging there. This creates a thick tension as that means new sounds are alien and noticeable - it builds up an expectation in the reader for something loud to break it and inevitably scare the characters.

[thu-nonsense]

Winter: Of course I have a back up plan

CT: A shotgun to the face is NOT a backup plan

[ask-snowbelle-cookie]

Snowbelle: Hiya! I’m Snowbelle! You’re Rosy right? Is that why you smell like roses?

Sorry for the terribleness of this picture. I was using your old ref and I prolly ruined it XD a smol interaction between Snowbelle and @popfizzles ’s cookie Rosé Champagne!

[cttrajan1206]

OH I FORGOT! i also wanted to ask, how did anjem get his scar??

WAAAAAA ALSO FUN

Was really hoping for this question actually sjshdjf

This is how Astral first discovered his soot power actually!

It all began when Anjem was cleaning the room and dropped a vase. He was picking up the pieces when a shard sliced at his hand. It wasn't too bad but quite a lot of blood seeped out at first. His main concern was dripping blood over everything so he wrapped some tissue around it and cleared up the vase. Or so he would have done if it were not for Astral suddenly grabbing at his hand, boice full of wonder.

It was the first time he'd seen blood.

It was beautiful.

He wanted to see more.

He asked Anjem about it, who, under the brainwashih especially, wasn't quite sure but he was Astral's doll to with as he wished. Astral cupped his face, admiring him as he said that. He brushed his thumb over Anjem's lips, watching the soot trail down them.

He wondered if humans bled from their mouths too.

Before Anjem could react, Astral had already picked up a shard and slashed at it. The pain had been more intense than his hand and he flinched, crying out. The soot across his lips mixed with it and Astral snapped out of it, struck by the fact he'd hurt him and willing the pain to stop.

The pain didn't stop, but the blood did, clotting quickly as an ugly mixture of dried soot.

Anjem was given the day off and they thought nothing of it. The next day, it had healed already, leaving behind only the scar.

In the mirror, Anjem realised he liked it better this way. There was an ever faint line of soot outside its edges but this way, his face was now both his and Astral's. There was a distinct mark of them both there. The pain hadn't even been that bad. And Astral had been so worried for him. He loved getting such attention from the shade. If anything, it was a mark of Them, togrther. As Shade soot and Human blood.

And Astral? If anything Astral found the event fascinating. And later, when it was fully healed and aged, he realised the scar was pretty hot actually.

After that, they'd do experiments often. Anjem has a few more scars around his body - all in non vital and relatively safe areas.

Astral inflicted most of them.

They did nothing against pain until they could sneak in things from the relief team either. The wounds never actually stopped, Astral just got better at sealing them up quickly so they didn't scar. Anjem doesn't mind it. He loves the attention, specifically from Astral and from watching him work his power.

He got used to the pain quickly after all.

Ajsbdjd anyway!! I rambled a bit but yeee this is the full story haha.

Thank you for asking !!

Here's another tidbit doodle:

Astral loves Anjem's face. Similar to Louise and Lou, but Astral holds Anjem as a separate beijg to him and admires him in a different way. One of his favourite activities is to hold Anjem and trace an outline for each feature with his fingers.

Anjem adores this too

[cttrajan1206]

Ignore the fact I'm horrendous at side profiles I beg of you but here, have a doodle...

These bitches GAY. They are so gay and in love and I love them <3

This is soon after they first meet, and actually occurs quite often. They both are a little superficial about appearance - Anjem loves dressing Astral up in pretty clothes (if he could wear them himself, he'd enjoy it all the better) and Astral loves decorating Anjem's face or just staring into it and touching it (he likes the way soot clings to the skin and seeing his touch on him)

I also don't think Astral even realises there is a way to hold someone's face without physically cradling it in some form lmao

[cttrajan1206]

hi!! im here to ask about your ocs!!

first of all i would like to say PLEASE read the shadows house manga if you werent planning on it already...! youll get so much more that wasnt offered in the anime since it cuts off at season 2 , its just so good.. SO GOOD ok. ok

about astral and anjem!

i know you said you dont have all the details worked out so its ok if you dont have an answer to any of this atm!

could you talk a bit more about their dynamic/relationship, if you have anything else you wanna say?

what are their goals in the house? are they pursuing roles within relief team, starbearers, etc? are they wanting to get invited?

how good is astral at controlling his soot power? do you think its likely any of his experimenting on anjem could go wrong + how would he react, would he be able to fix it?

love ur ocs :}

WAAA HELLO?? i never original post ever so i was really surprised and excited when you reblogged it saying you'd read it later - AND NOW IN MY INBOX TOO? WAAAA.... >O<

But waa ok ok so! Funny enough, @tsukiomoon was over at my house and convinced me to read Shadow House (having watched the anime) while we were at a bookstore. I'd already glanced at it a few times over the years so I was. Very easy to convince tbh djdhfjf So I actually began with reading the first two volumes!! Then after that, I was thoroughly hooked so we proceeded to binge the entirety of it together in two days. That said, I'd love to read the manga. I'm debating on it because the official translation -> scanlation currency exchange is not in my favour ToT but I think I like it enough to bear through it, the anime missed a few scenes from even just the first two volumes after all.

Onto the ocs!!

Dynamic/relationship: This is a fun one. I've mentioned they both very much love each other already, I think at first they're both very superficial about it and build up versions of each other in their head (Astral even moreso having known longer). It gets deeper as time goes on but Astral isn't obssessed with Anjem just as a person, but also for his quality of being human. Anjem is similar likewise but there's a mighty power imbalance there.

Astral is actually also a special shade! He remembers before morphing. He's probably the worst one to do so though because he doesn't really care about the Shadow House - not when it gives him license to not only have Anjem to himself, but also such close access to humans. To him, the memories just give him a clearer understanding if the Faces' limits. He gets very annoyed with seeing others treat their living dolls badly and will pick fights about it or ask Anjem to give them recompensary gifts to them.

Anjem I'm less clear on... He's bad at cleaning but Astral doesn't mind particularly (and also doesnt produce enough soot for it to be a problem). The rigid structure of his life gives him comfort in its reliability but he does often long for some of the luxuries Shades get. Like nice clothes and better food. He doesn't like coffee though haha. I don't think either of them ever realise the brainwashing thing bc Anjem's too picky and never fully swallows the coffee anyway, sometimes vomiting it out. He still gets the effects partially though

Goals: I think Astral does want to escape the House eventually - he doesn't care too much for getting everyone else out, he just wants to find more and more humans and learn everything he can about them. Anjem I haven't decided too much yet. He knows Astral's goal and wants to be there with him to see it too, to travel the world, but I think he'd be scared of taking that step.

I think he wants to see his siblings again, one last time

Roles: Oop... Astral's power is very good for healing wounds so technically the relief team would be good for him but I personally wouldn't put him in a room with so many humans in it XD He keeps his power very downlow but regardless, I think he'd have made his way into the relief team. He's their bigger advocate on training to treat dolls better.

Anjem wanted to be in the research team instead but, as a Face, he has to tag along and look pretty

Power: At first Astral was pretty bad at controlling his power. He doesn't have blood himself after all, it was very unknown territory. In fact, the only way he Did grow better at it was When his experiments on Anjem failed. They could be very dangerous failures too, in case his soot clogged a vein or he clotted uo the wrong part or forced it to produce too much blood. In his panic to fix it, he tended to reflexively reverse whatever he'd done and so far, though there have been catastrophes, Anjem hasn't died. There was a time when Astral stopped his heart but that's whatever, he's immensely better at controlling them now. He doesn't frequent the training room (especially since his powers require blood), but instead has perfected his powers through practice in his room. He does also keep a few vials of blood he requests from the relief team that uses to practice with at times.

He prefers it best when it's with Anjem though :)

There was once, when the brainwashing had worn off more, where Astral fucked up. In attempting to heal a wound on Anjem's wrist, he accidentally sped up the production of the blood and it poured everywhere, spilling out faster than healthy. Anjem, wide eyed and afraid that this time, he was going to die, scrambled away from him screaming. He tried to run away but the pain was blinding him so much he could barely concentrate. Nothing Astral said could convinve him to calm down, and the last thing he saw before passing out was Astral roughly grabbing at his arm.

Astral was able to stop the blood, working with this as an experiment to control his area of effect, and sealed the wound. He bandaged it up and treated it with care, pressing a careful kiss of regret on the bandage and on Anjem's hand, the black mark staining his skin.

Anjem woke later in his box. He was afraid and angry and upset. He didn't talk to Astral for a full week, only interacting with him as a Face. Astral was heartbroken by this and apologised many times. They made up finally, after Astral stopped him from cleaning and held his hands, about to apologise again, when suddenly Anjem lifted the shade's hands and pressed a kiss to each.

"I'm tired of this. I miss speaking with you. I forgive you, so stop apologising every time I enter a room."

That mended things but going forward, Astral started getting external vials until he was better at his control.

Tidbits!

Astral likes his name but also wants to be separate from it. In private, he asks Anjem to call him "Aster" as a similar compromise. Anjem means "star" in arabic - he named his Face to match the name he preferred :)

Anjem is mostly good at reading Astral's emotions but they have a system of handsignals and body language to indicate the faces they want to make.

I've been thinking on them and their age awhile. I hadn't noticed when I made them that adults get finer clothes than the chikdren but I refuse ti change my design, I'm attached </3 I think they're similar to Barbara and Maryrose - old but still in the children's wing by virtue of not being given an invitation

This is partly due to Anjem's scar but mostly due to Astral's refusal to be useful outside of the bare minimum (this is not a noble thing, he's lowkey just lazy)

Oh my god I wrote a lot sdjbhf

Yeah!! That's them! That's my boys. I'm thinking of making a couple more too - I want to explore the idea of someone using their Face to hide disguise their real emotions

Thank you so much for asking 😭 it means the world to me and got me to think about them more

As an extra, have a doodle of Anjem's second sight of Astral: