CTtrajan

I have almost no original content anymore but search the #drabbles for my writing. Also I do not tag any posts or spoilers reliably, I use quick reblog too much to do so. Don't follow if that is a bother Do not follow please if you have nsfw or sexual gifs as a staple on your blog, i'll block you on sight. They/them. Genderfluid, Greyroace but i have 4 lovely qpps (@tsukiomoon, @writerproject, @starheirxero and another not on tumblr whom i still love). Go follow them. /lh Not a minor Anti-fa, black lives matter, acab, fuck bigots

[cttrajan1206]

[IMAGE ID

3 images of a collage of art titled "CTtrajan's Commission Sheet" and then one image of a block of text titled "Additional Info".

First image is split into two, with the left side using a turquoise background while the right side uses a soft blue background. The left side shows two rough comics that only show headshots of the characters used. Dark blue text reads:

"(underlined) Rough sketch comic / Total characters: 2 / Price: £3"

Underneath, dark purple text reads:

"Quick, inaccurate and without panels / Additional character: +£1 each"

The right side shows two roughly coloured images of individual characters. Dark blue text reads:

"(underlined) Rough colour halfbody / Total characters: 1 / Price: £5"

Underneath, dark purple text reads:

"Quick, softly coloured and with inaccuracy / Additional character: +£5 each"

Second image is split into two, with the left side using a light purple background while the right side uses a light pink background. To the left are two images of clean, flat colour images. Dark blue text reads:

"(underlined) Clean flat colour halfbody / Total characters: 1 / Price: £15"

Underneath, dark purple text reads:

"Fully coloured, steady lines and drawn with prior sketch / Additional character: +£10 for 2nd, then +£5 for each addition"

The right side shows two separate, fully coloured and shaded pieces. Dark blue text reads:

"(underlined) Clean fully shaded halfbody / Total characters: 1 / Price: £35 / Slots [1]"

Underneath, dark purple text reads:

"Fully coloured, fully rendered and drawn with effects / No additional character unless split across canvas"

Third image shows three different artworks at the top over a light purple background, the first displaying two characters and the other two displaying three. Underneath, dark blue text reads:

"(underlined) Multiple character examples! (All are clean flat colour)"

Underneath the screen is split into three boxes.

The first has a light red background with dark red text reading:

"Will (all capitals) not draw: Mechanoids, NSFW / Naked bodies, Incest / Age gap / Non-con, Hate speech / art using slurs [even reclaimed ones], Extremely complex detail"

The second has a light orange background with dark orange text reading:

"(all capitals) might draw if given info: Animal type bodies/Furries, Prosthetic limbs, Gore (I can only do simple), Backgrounds (can only do simple), Mouth to mouth kissing (cannot draw lips)"

The third has a light green background with dark green text reading:

"(all capitals) will draw: Ships (Canon x OC, OC x OC, selfship), Horror / Angst, Portrait from photo, Fandoms I'm not in, Humanoid / Skeleton / Body horror"

The final image has white behind dark blue text that reads:

"All images will be digital and given as PNG files / I can only take payment through: Ko-fi, Cashapp, Paypal / I need detailed instructions and clear communication beforehand / Please contact me through either of these:

Discord (CTtrajan#7796)

Instagram (cttrajan1206) "

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Ok so.

Hi !!!

This may come as a surprise but. I'm taking commissions! They're only small ones but I hope you'll consider me! I'll draw you holding hands with your fiction crush if you want :}

Additional note but I'll only be taking payment After finishing the commission, for both of our sakes

ADDITIONAL NOTES FOR MY OWN SAKE OF MIND:

- Armor will be given an extra £5 fee on your first purchase but if you comm me again with that character, it's back to normal price (i take longer to draw it correctly the first time)

- CASHAPP DOES NOT WORK FOR ME UNLESS YOU ARE IN THE UK

[apocalypsegay]

i don’t think he clicked through

[indigosfindings]

i really like this thing where websites will have separate "log in" & "sign up" buttons and if you click "log in" it takes you to a sign-up screen anyway so you have to click "i already have an account" and then it will ask if you want to sign in with your facebook account or with instagram or linkedin or deviantart or whatever, and if you choose "username & password" it asks if you want to put in your username or use your thumbprint, and once you put your username & password it emails you a confirmation code, and once you put in the code it says "do you want to give us your phone number for future sign-ins? do you want to sign up for facial recognition? do you want to give us your bones? give us your fucking bones?

[girlballs]

websites prior to like the 2010s: sign in with your username and password

websites now:

[gaudebo]

do any of you want to hear abt my Black Ryland Grace headcanon

[gaudebo]

excellent. i am enabled once more.

this post is inspired in part by this one by @cheshirepirouette and sponsored in part by convos w @asteriis and @indouscurse here’s to y’all!! this post also goes out to my brothers, who are pale as hell for reasons unbeknownst to all of us (this is a joke).

like any good headcanon, this started as a joke because i thought to myself: Ryland sounds like the type of name that somebody’s Black child would have and only use on church sundays. nobody actually has ever called him that in his whole entire life, except maybe his mama SOMETIMES and that’s why he doesn’t remember it right away. i feel like every Black person knows somebody who is called literally anything except their god given name. people call him lil r, lil grace, gracie, ry, ryry, riri, RG, lando, mr. grace, dr. grace, but nobody calls him Ryland, which is part of why he Can’t Remember for so long.

so of course i went back to the source material to see if he ever actually mentioned being white anywhere and unfortunately it is very much at the beginning of the book. so THEN i started to think about how i could get around that while remaining at least largely canon compliant (as a little treat for myself). what i came up with is what i have affectionately dubbed my “litebrite baby” headcanon.

grace was not particularly dark skinned to begin with, and then spent years in a coma with literally no sunlight. he is downright vampiric by the time that he wakes up, and upon seeing his white ass skin, assumes that he is in his own words, a Caucasian male.

unfortunately for him, this fits in really well with his theme of lack of identity and lack of connection. i think for most Black people it would be extremely hard to forget that we’re Black regardless of how light or dark our skin tone is. but throughout the book, even when Grace is thinking about his old, slowly resurfacing memories, he never thinks about family, he never thinks about friends. except for his students and Project Hail Mary, he is completely unmoored.

i’ve seen a few different headcanons for why this might be: he was an only child whose single parent died young, he was cut off by his parents for some reason or another, he just isn’t ever triggered to remember. but no matter the reason, grace is disconnected from crucial aspects of himself. i think that by making him Black, and his Blackness something he can’t remember, it add an extra heartbreaking layer to his characterization. Blackness is such a communal experience, and when it’s not, it leaves behind an ache. growing up Black in White Suburbia i know well both the experience of clinging to one’s own in a hostile world AND the hurt that comes with being severed from one’s community. grace loses so much of himself with the amnesia, unable to recall who he is at the deepest of levels, and i think if he could remember to grieve it, it would devastate him.

i do think he would remember eventually, either when his hair starts growing out (because in the book Armando shaves him iirc), or when he can finally catch a glimpse of his reflection clearly, or when he has a memory of someone in his family. my personal belief is he has a memory beamed directly into his brain of asking “Mama, am I white?” and his poor, long-suffering mom saying, “Now who the hell told you that?”

and then it still never becomes relevant because he has negative desire to explain the nuances of human racial categories to an alien who quite literally cannot see color.

[gaudebo]

he occupies all my thoughts

[daistea]

Please draw your oc x canon please be unashamedly loud about it please post it without embarrassment please make dramatic emotional edits of them please indulge yourself

[dark-spirit-tamamoland]

they're still terming random transfems as i type this i see which does make quite a statement doing this today specifically

[puppetstuffing]

watched three girls who reblogged its new blog mutual aidpost (made literally 15 minutes ago) already disappear from its notifs. transfems are not included in their pride :/

[puppetedlove]

:)

[puppetvictim]

:)

[tamamowand]

QUITE the statement to be nuking transfems at the current accelerated pace right at the start of pride month like this, isn't it

[quinnception]

This post is no more than two days old as of June 3rd, 2026. All of these blogs were nuked in two days or less.

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

realizing that if I want to or need to use anyone from my last job as a reference it will be difficult because for one I really kept my head down and didn't make much relationship with coworkers or supervisors. And two all of them like for sure would use he/him to talk about me and I'm like man I don't know if I want to be locked into being a guy at another job

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

It's interesting bcuz like when I was a cleaner wearing my hijab and a face mask, I was largely perceived to be a woman, but when I got a software office-y job after that everyone universally decided despite the niqab that I was a man. And idk why. My cleaning job had the women I worked with telling me about like how to enjoy my youth because things will suck when I go through menopause. And the software job had my supervisor being like hey can you and the men of the team write and sign a card to send to all the women on the team for womens day.

[kyoukorpse]

every day i do think about how there is just So Much you miss if you only watch the PHM movie because there are so many moving parts during the course of the project that you get to learn about that the movie Barely touches on.

like it is actually very important that you learn about who initially came up with the centrifuge design system for the Hail Mary and that she was one of the scientists that disagreed with Grace and he still doesn't like her for it and the feeling is mutual but he still acknowledges how fantastic her idea is because of course it is. She is the whole reason the ship works in a way that is vital to the mission.

It's important that you understand that Strat finds the world's leading climatologist to tell her exactly what mandmade catastrophe would increase greenhouse gases exponentially because it doesn't matter that it fucks with the world's ecosystem as long as it buys the earth more time while the sun actively cools down due to the astrophage infection.

It matters that you know she took a man out of prison for involuntary manslaughter because of his idea to pave vast amounts of land with solar panels to breed astrophage faster. It matters that you remember with Grace that paving a vast chunk of the Sahara Desert with these solar panels fucked up weather all the way up to Europe.

It matters that you understand the gravity, the desperation, and how all of it was necessary because there just wasn't enough time to work with without sacrificing something. Someone. Anyone.

It matters that you know how quickly Strat hired these people, blew off court appearances, hired convicts, and ordered bombings of the Antarctic to release gases into the atmosphere to make global warming worse. You need to understand the level of urgency, how Strat moved through these hurdles and approached solutions. How she was a history major in college and it's why she knows damn well how bad it's about to get for Earth.

Because once you know how little time the earth has, how limited the resources are, how risky the science is, how so few people are well equipped for this particular mission that is well and truly the world's only shot at surviving, you understand a lot better why forcing Grace to go was their only option after their other scientists died due to a simple, fatal flaw. Even with one scientist left in the world who was willing to go.

There is just so much information that makes everything fall into place which is why I cannot recommend the book enough for people who enjoyed the movie, or haven't seen it at all. Please Read Project Hail Mary.

[b33viemm]

One thing i disliked about the movie is how Grace's motivations regarding his students is portrayed. In the movie, sure we have the scene with the kids and him teaching them about astrophage, and it's told to us that he is worried about them, but it's almost treated as like, a fake motivation. the changed scene where he demands the astrophage immediately after the first experiment, it almost feels like the movie wants you to think it's actually about his ego, or his "love of science".

In the book, he explains astrophage to the class, looks at all of their young faces, realizes theyre going to grow up into a global apocalypse, leaves abruptly and has a panic attack about it, and THEN goes and demands to test to astrophage more.

[kyoukorpse]

every day i do think about how there is just So Much you miss if you only watch the PHM movie because there are so many moving parts during the course of the project that you get to learn about that the movie Barely touches on.

like it is actually very important that you learn about who initially came up with the centrifuge design system for the Hail Mary and that she was one of the scientists that disagreed with Grace and he still doesn't like her for it and the feeling is mutual but he still acknowledges how fantastic her idea is because of course it is. She is the whole reason the ship works in a way that is vital to the mission.

It's important that you understand that Strat finds the world's leading climatologist to tell her exactly what mandmade catastrophe would increase greenhouse gases exponentially because it doesn't matter that it fucks with the world's ecosystem as long as it buys the earth more time while the sun actively cools down due to the astrophage infection.

It matters that you know she took a man out of prison for involuntary manslaughter because of his idea to pave vast amounts of land with solar panels to breed astrophage faster. It matters that you remember with Grace that paving a vast chunk of the Sahara Desert with these solar panels fucked up weather all the way up to Europe.

It matters that you understand the gravity, the desperation, and how all of it was necessary because there just wasn't enough time to work with without sacrificing something. Someone. Anyone.

It matters that you know how quickly Strat hired these people, blew off court appearances, hired convicts, and ordered bombings of the Antarctic to release gases into the atmosphere to make global warming worse. You need to understand the level of urgency, how Strat moved through these hurdles and approached solutions. How she was a history major in college and it's why she knows damn well how bad it's about to get for Earth.

Because once you know how little time the earth has, how limited the resources are, how risky the science is, how so few people are well equipped for this particular mission that is well and truly the world's only shot at surviving, you understand a lot better why forcing Grace to go was their only option after their other scientists died due to a simple, fatal flaw. Even with one scientist left in the world who was willing to go.

There is just so much information that makes everything fall into place which is why I cannot recommend the book enough for people who enjoyed the movie, or haven't seen it at all. Please Read Project Hail Mary.

[kyoukorpse]

really good tags that were added that go into more reasons why the book is very much worth the read.

[odyver]

alright I've got to do some quick math to explain attitudes towards AI to my boss.

we're looking to create an AI policy, and when we were talking about this, my boss (older millennial) was genuinely shocked to hear that younger people do not (seem) to view AI positively (a la the recent commencement speakers being booed)

please rb for larger sample size!

Question 1/3

What is your age, and do you feel AI is a net positive or net negative in our lives today?

under 18, AI is a net positive

under 18, AI is a net negative

18-29, AI is a net positive

18-29, AI is a net negative

30-45, AI is a net positive

30-45, AI is a net negative

46-60, AI is a net positive

46-60, AI is a net negative

over 60, AI is a net postive

over 60, AI is a net negative

Remaining time: 5 days 17 hours

[odyver]

Question 2/3

How often do you visit or interact with museums/archives (whether in person or online)?

Frequently (multiple times per month)

Often (multiple times per year)

Occasionally (a couple times per year)

Rarely (once every couple of years)

Never :(

Remaining time: 5 days 17 hours

[odyver]

Question 3/3

If you saw a museum was using AI in exhibits, marketing, research, etc., would you be more or less inclined to visit that museum?

under 18, more inclined

under 18, less inclined

18-29, more inclined

18-29, less inclined

30-45, more inclined

30-45, less inclined

46-60, more inclined

46-60, less inclined

over 60, more inclined

over 60, less inclined

Remaining time: 5 days 17 hours

Thank you for helping with this data collection. Please rb for as big a sample as possible!

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[vistarz]

Kfc gang

[ravmycupine]

Grace makes a shocking discovery

[damnhotpocket]

Gema.piano on instagram

Why are all music teachers like this 😭😭😭

[communeist]

THEY ARE

[crematedequally]

when i was 8 i had a very intimidating russian woman as a music teacher- she was both my opera instructor and piano teacher. about a month into piano, she sat me down and said to my mother and i "this child- very beautiful voice, good for singing. i will not allow this child to continue piano. god did not want this child to play an instrument. he told me this in dreams. that is all."

my mom had it written down on a slip so we could remember the exact words because it was so funny. i HATED playing piano and i was definitely not good at it (i did end up having a good 5 years of opera training and ended up being a pretty accomplished choir singer though) and the idea of god sending my incredibly severe and serious russian piano teacher a dream begging her to stop teaching me piano was probably the funniest way it could have gone.

[nogoodnerril]

So, an unexpected source of fun for me in the game has been creating miis that make my husband deeply uncomfortable. For example, Raith here is the current title-holder for "most disturbing":

(It's funny cause he's actually a sweet little bby.)

HOWEVER, I think we might have a new contender!

Everyone, meet Sbeve.

[bebsi-cola]

you know what, "because i'm in pain" is a good enough reason as any. why do you want to take meds? in pain. why do you wanna cancel? in pain. why didn't you want to talk? in pain. yeah don't be a jerk to everyone you meet and expect them to welcome that. but why were you being a jerk? in pain. it's a reasonable explanation. being in pain should be enough of an explanation. it should be considered an immediate problem that we try to fix as soon as possible instead of expecting the vast majority of people alive to just get on with it.

[bebsi-cola]

you know what, "because i'm in pain" is a good enough reason as any. why do you want to take meds? in pain. why do you wanna cancel? in pain. why didn't you want to talk? in pain. yeah don't be a jerk to everyone you meet and expect them to welcome that. but why were you being a jerk? in pain. it's a reasonable explanation. being in pain should be enough of an explanation. it should be considered an immediate problem that we try to fix as soon as possible instead of expecting the vast majority of people alive to just get on with it.

[kyoukorpse]

I really do feel like the movie gives u this idea that Grace is and has always been a coward prior to boarding the hail mary but. in the book you get his internal dialogue. and its not so much that he is a coward, its just that he is very not self aware of his own place in the world. he doesn't elevate himself at all.

he's surprised that anyone would want his opinion on the astrophage after being ridiculed in his field, but scrambles to stay in on the project once he realizes how dire the situation is and how half of his students would likely die in the next 30 years and wants to be a part of something that could change or prevent that.

but throughout the project he's constantly being dragged by strat to meet new hires for the project, he is there to converse with and help vet every. single. person. who is hired to help work on their only chance for saving the sun and the entire planet. and he has to be Told that he's essentially strat's second in command and he still hardly wraps his head around it.

he's given important things to check over before launch and thinks its just shoving him in a corner to do bitch work but it is a VERY important checklist that ensures the stability of the ship and mission.

they have him walk underwater in a pool to use lab equipment to mimic the zero gravity experience. he knows the most about astrophage and everything they've done to breed it and make a ship that specifically runs on it for fuel. the spin drives, the capacity, etc. and he does do training. he is quite literally mission ready in the novel.

his problem is he watches Strat by his side for years and sees how she pulls people in without hesitation, and accepts the inevitable fate of everyone, going so far as to make sure the team has backups with the same training in case of an accident.

Grace knows she works like this, and nothing has stopped her make difficult decisions or override international law, and his problem in the end is that think he's safe from that.

he does not consider his importance, the value of his knowledge, he barely processes how his peers view him. his problem in the end is not that he's a coward, its that by undermining himself he never once mentally prepared himself for the possibility of having to step in and be on that ship. he does not think he'd be that important. that valuable.

he still doesn't want to die; he doesn't want to go. he does spend 3 hours deciding he doesn't want to do this and tells strat as much. tells her to send the one willing scientist left in the world but very quickly finds out its not about who is willing, its about who can do the job.

and he can. he is truly the best candidate for the job. there's no way they could send anyone else.

if he only knew his worth, or acknowledged the value he has among his peers, he would have considered the possibility it could be him if something went wrong a long time ago. he could have mentally prepared for that and spent those 3 hours accepting it, however miserably so. he would have known it could only be him as soon as he processed the other mission ready scientists were dead.

but that's not the kind of person you get after they wrote a speculative paper that was shamed and ridiculed enough to drive him out of his field and into a job with much less peer review, and never once attempted to crawl out of that safe space he made for himself. never once considered stepping back into his field and standing his ground.

you don't get a hero who rises to the challenge when they don't even consider what they have to offer has value to someone else, enough to save their entire world.

grace is not really a coward.. not like that. he just values himself too little.