new form for valentines coz the old one is outdated!!
tags: @remington-is-awesome (i may or may not make u the dating application, but try to take this one too!), @cathedralofcherries @sapphic-offical @wlw-god-offical
🏹 HURT / FALSE COMFORT, TOXIC RELATIONSHIP. 675 WORDS.
💌 it's easy to forget the ring on his finger whenever the two of you are together.
🩷 cw. suggestive. mentions of cheating. ran being manipulative, reader being delusional.
ran haitani has a wife.
you’ve known it since the beginning– he told you all about her. marital struggles laid bare before you– heated arguments, desire for divorce, you’ve heard it all. ten months have passed since the day you’ve started fooling around with him– ten long months where you’ve continuously believed in his words. you know it’s a bad thing to do, a bad thing to wish upon another woman; you can’t help it. not when he’s always so gentle, so nice with you.
you’ve met his friends. you’ve even met his brother. you’ve seen how their gazes shifted from ran to you– full of confusion, perhaps even a little bit of judgement. but as he makes you sit on his lap, looking all proud of his possession– you find it hard to care. ran haitani is nothing if not an enigmatic man. it’s easy to get lost in him– trying to solve the puzzle of his words, searching for hidden meanings behind each promise. clandestine meetings and poisonous gifts become a routine you’ve grown accustomed to.
he’s always there. when you leave work, ready to pick you up. when you’re on your day off, ready to whisk you away on yet another one of his rendezvous.
the lines between an affair and a relationship got blurry some time ago, when he introduced you as his girlfriend (you were always his ‘friend’, before that day)-- your heart had skipped a beat that night. it’s a foolish thing, falling in love. delusions eat your mind away, offering your heart on a platter for a man you could never truly have.
the nights shared with him are the worst. the divine ecstasy shatters when your eyes open, and the ring dangling around his neck taunts you. jealousy tugs at you, begging you to do something– and you succumb to its order. your teeth sinking into his neck, imprinting a scarlet mark of your own. it doesn’t faze him– nothing ever does. does he know the meaning of it all ? you’re unsure– it’s hard to tell with him.
i love you.
everything comes crashing down on a random friday. you’re getting home from work– sitting next to him while he silently drives. the confession spills from your mouth before you can even stop yourself. you’ve thrown up the words, your body purging itself of that sinful secret.
ran doesn’t answer– doesn’t acknowledge you.
it’s hard not to notice the way his body had stiffen, hands flexing as his jaw hardened. you want to take it all back, you want to beg him to forget about what you’ve said. you’re just as frozen as he is. vision blurring, hands tightly gripping onto the seatbelt. the air is thick with tension and you’re dreading the moment you’ll have to get out of the car.
the engine stops.
you’re home.
“what do you know about love ?” the bite in his voice makes you jump. it makes you feel like an idiot– like a child, and maybe that’s what you are. you’ve never seen him like that– fox eyes that you’ve grown so used to feeling suddenly oh-so foreign. it’s humiliating. “don’t ever say that shit again.” your throat tightens and tears start streaming down your cheeks– it’s only when you hiccup that you realise just how miserable you are. you hear him sigh, and you’re preparing yourself for whatever he has to say.
his hand reaches out for your face, slender fingers gently wiping your tears away. “don’t cry, baby,” there it is again– that softness reserved for you. “that was mean of me, uh ?,” he asks and you shake your head. it’s an automatism– no, you’re not mean, you’re right. as you uncontrollably sob, you find yourself wishing to comfort him. “it’s just– don’t make this weird, okay ? we’re good, let’s keep it that way.”
you agree.
ran haitani has a wife and your heart aches for the day he’ll finally keep his promise. until then, being the other woman isn’t as agonising as not having him at all.
Emily: Hi hi @crazyaboutto! Emily searched and searched until Emily found your soul mate! I was surprised and happy with who your soul mate is! Emily knows you will be happy!
Emily: Your soul mate is Azuzu!
Hatter Cat: “Azuzu” is the nickname Emily gave Mr Ashengrotto.
Emily: Hehe! Azuzu will make you very happy!
Hatter Cat: Emily is our cupid, but I will give my opinion on you.
Initial mutual misunderstanding. Each will see in the other only the characteristics that they do not have. When Capricorn looks at Pisces, he will be seeing a completely distraught being, who never knows where he put his socks or what day it is. When Pisces sees Capricorn, you will feel like you are looking at a form full of rules, items and paragraphs. The case between them, however, can also be a good trip - just Capricorn dictate the first steps and the rhythm and take a little leadership and come to a consensus with the partner and Pisces face forms like mantras.
BAD HABITS
Both are systematic. This is not going to change. What needs to improve is the authoritarian way in which they try to impose their bad habits and manias on others. Find the balance and everything will be fine!
KISS
Capricorn's kiss is restrained and intimate, as Capricorns need confidence and security to let go.
The Pisces kiss is very emotional and passionate, bringing the wildest fantasies of love, while being delicate and romantic.
RELATIONSHIP
Your relationship is balanced, Mr Ashengrotto admires your personality as a natural leader. Your memory is an aspect that attracts you to you, it would be very convenient to have someone as efficient as you.
He loves how you are aware of your surroundings and live in a world of clear and verifiable facts. The guarantee of your knowledge means that even against heavy resistance, they follow their principles and push a nuanced view of what is and is not acceptable.
Your opinions are not just empty conversations, someone with your personality who is more than willing to dive into the most challenging projects, improve action plans and sort the details along the way, making tasks that seem more complicated into easy and accessible and you would become a highly trusted person of that guy.
Mr Ashengrotto also understands what it feels like to feel grudge, even with his insecurities he took revenge on those who bullied him in the past and he is understandable if you hold a grudge when someone harms you or someone dear to you and he would be ready to be yours friend shoulder.
He may not be very interested in extreme sports, but he loves the fact that you love the sea and finds your appreciation of criminal investigation programs interesting because it involves strategy and logical reasoning and likes to make theories with you about who would be the culprit and would a complete dossier.
Hatter Cat: Anyway, this was my analysis, I believe that you will be the pillar of each other in your relationship, it will be a blessing even facing each other's difficulties and insecurities. I wish you both happiness.
Emily: It was fun Emily looking for your soul mate! Bye Bye.
Imagine one member of your otp finding cupid’s arrows and just having a ball shooting people with them to fall for another.
Extra: If this is before they are together. They fall in love with the other member and then accidentally pricks their own finger on an arrow head being doubly in love.