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[cyarikaskywalker]

how it feels to be kinshifted around other people

[cyarikaskywalker]

being a therian is weird sometimes i’ll just be listening to hot to go by our lord and savior chappell roan and then i feel my ears and my tail and i need to jump around on all fours

[cyarikaskywalker]

coyote rants about xis therianthropy

cw for mentions of blood and things like rhat ahhhfjd this is a more serious post than my last

i’ve been awakened as a therianthrope since early 2023 . and i’ve changed a lot since then . my gender , my theriotypes , everything . 2 years isn’t that huge in the long run , but it sure does feel that way .

my experience as a therian ? confusing . upsetting . joyful . strange . comforting . it’s everything good . it’s everything bad . it’s everything in between .

i often see other beings say their experience with therianthropy is [ usually strictly ] negative or positive . mine lingers in between .

i am aware that therianthropy is a very individual experience , though .

and speaking of that , i used to think i wasn’t a therian .

at first , i identified as one . but then , impostor syndrome got really bad , so i thought i was an otherlink [ which , i still hold that identity , but not to the extent that i previously did ] and that i had been faking therianthropy . i felt like i had been faking because after hearing of therians , i was like “ i think i may be one ” and i felt like i had chosen , even though i hadn’t .

only last year did resume identifying as a therian , which came after lots of consideration .

i have many theriotypes . though i mainly only discuss or post about my dog , coyote , and wolf theriotypes .

my shifts , when i [ rarely ] get them , are often rather intense . i most usually get phantom shifts , but mental and sensory shifts occur too .

phantom shifts don’t affect me that much . sensory and mental shifts are usually the most intense for me .

i most often get ear , tail , wing , and snout phantom shifts . my legs will sometimes feel like those of one of my theriotype’s too .

mental shifts for me are like i temporarily forget about my humanity , lost in the feeling of limbs that aren’t there . [ phantom and mental shifts often go paw in paw for me ]

sensory shifts are a bit stranger for me . they are almost always paired with ear or teeth phantom shifts . when i get tooth shifts , i chew on anything i can .

i have an urge to bite , tear away skin and fur / feathers / scales , gnaw on bones , and lap away blood . [ the blood part is also connected to my vampire kintype though ] most of my theriotypes are animals that hunt , so i can see why i feel that way .

speaking of hunting , packs . i long to be surrounded by others of my kind . being surrounded by humans makes me feel like an oddity , like i shouldn’t be there . i should be surrounded by other wolves . other canines . other animals .

therianthropy means everything to me . it affects me all the time , whether negatively or positively .

i used to wish it would go away , so i wouldn’t have to deal with the shifts and the species dysphoria .

but now i wouldn’t give it up for anything . i am my therianthropy . i am my theriotypes .

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now some little affirmations for my fellow therians !

your fur / feathers / scales / exoskeleton / other / lack thereof is / are healthy .

your teeth / beak / mandibles / other / lack thereof is / are strong .

your paws / wings / hooves / talons / fins / legs / other / lack thereof are strong .

your tail / other / lack thereof is strong .

your whiskers / antennae / other / lack thereof are sensitive .

your bark / howl / growl / meow / hiss / purr / chuff / scream / screech / shriek / roar / chirp / song / squeak / buzz / yowl / hoot / squeal other / lack thereof is loud .

now have an amazing day or night whoever you happen to be and thank you for reading this

[cyarikaskywalker]

the dragon roars ! | theriomythic + multiself ramblings . read if you’d like

everything feels wrong . i don’t have claws or a tail or horns or a snout or wings or fins or fur or feathers or sharp teeth or scales or paws .

i can feel it all there . i feel the weight of my horns on my head , my wings on my shoulders , my tail connected to my spine , my snout ‘ s nostrils flaring , my claws flexing as i type this out .

but it’s not real

. i can move my tail and wings and claws , but they’re not there . none of it is . my teeth are dull and flat , my nails aren’t sharp or long , my shoulders only carry my arms and not my wings as well , my tailbone has no tail connected to it , my nose is short and round , and i don’t have any scales or fur or feathers to cover my skin .

i cannot roar or growl or trill . when i try it doesn’t sound right . i sound too human .

and human is something i am not , never will be , and never have been .

i can’t fly or easily run on all fours , i can’t swim using just my tail , i can’t breathe fire , i can’t do anything my draconic selves can .

i am a dragon , but i do not look the part .

sometimes i wish i was just a human . an average human . no species dysphoria , no gender dysphoria , one single self , none of what i experience .

yes , my non - humanity has made me happier at times . being able to accept it and embrace it , that is . but i do encounter moments like these very often .

i can’t fully describe what it feels like . [ the way i feel right now ]

i feel upsettingly human ..

[cyarikaskywalker]

photo dump

bug tw

his name is waxer and i love him dearly . he finally trusts us enough to let us handle him which makes me happy . hope you like him

[cyarikaskywalker]

fuck this human body .

[cyarikaskywalker]

SOBBING OVER WHAT GOOD CARE PLAGUE IS TAKING OF KISTRA OMG 🥹🥹🥹 PRECIOUS PRECIOUS BOI

OUHOHUHIOHOOGUOGOGIHHIGOUGUAGAUHSBS OUUUUUUUUUH OUHUHUHUUUUOOOOH 💔💔💔💔 he is trying his best

[cyarikaskywalker]

i finally made another mask !!

it’s one of my dragon kintypes :3