I finished Doctrine of Labyrinths and it has ruined me for all other books. How do I go on?
my immediate answer was “read Lymond Chronicles!” because that was the next reread I did that has kind of ruined me for other books, but that is...a very different series that may not be everyone’s cup of tea
do you write fic? because you could write fic, there needs to be more fic in this tiny fandom for sure. if you haven’t read what fic there is I made a recs list recently of a bunch of stuff and also the backlist on AO3 is small enough that you could probably just go through the whole thing
alas I do not...really have other books that are quite That Much as far as my personal brain goes (other than Lymond Chronicles, tbh) though I do have recs for other books that are great (just...not quite in that Oh My God Sarah Monette Were You Deliberately Aiming For All My Narrative Kinks way).
(I’m sorry, but not really that sorry. if I’m in this pit you’re all down here with me (or at least as many of you as I can drag))
@darcybear replied to your post “been skipping school almost all of this week, and i literally cant...”
Let me tell you what I WISH I had done when I was in college going through this: tell your professors. Clue on campus mental health/counseling services. Tell everyone. They will still expect the work done, but they might be more easygoing with attendance. I had a professor tell me, when I finally clued him in, that he would have let me finish coursework over the summer had I told him. Stupid past self, pretending everything was okay when it wasn’t. Learn from my mistake.
making its own post because this is super relevant advice for a lot of ppl. like i know professors seem scary with the whole “no late assignments, no absenses, no make up tests,” but honestly if u trust them with personal details, they honestly are so much more forgiving than you’d think. highly recommend this approach.
and thank you so much for encouraging me to do so!! <3 <3 <3
(rest behind a cut because this has been upsetting me and i think it would help to vent about it:)
this is actually exactly what i did earlier in the semester T_T i explained my depression/anxiety to my teachers, and they’ve been very understanding. so understanding, in fact, that one of them gave me the numbers to hotlines, informed me of the counseling benefits i can receive as a student, and even recommended i go and get my disability registered by the university so that teachers would HAVE to accommodate me whether they understood mental illness or not. it was wildly amazing of this professor to urge me to do this and im still shook with gratitude. (another anecdotal story to hopefully encourage more ppl to be open with their teachers! <3)
however, my intake appt to register my disability did not go nearly as well. it did go better than i thought it would, but that’s not saying much... simple accommodations, such as being able to listen to music very softly during class to calm my anxiety or even being able to read digital copies instead of hard copies to lessen anxious procrastination (both of which i already do with HUGE success in classes allowing technology), were met with extreme reluctance. the adviser said that my therapist would have to make a very compelling argument to make it clear it wasn’t just a “convenience” thing.
And then the more common accommodations I asked for (absences/extensions on assignments), I am likely to get, but the former would only be for classes where attendance isn’t a super big deal… which I’m not sure how that will work... because in all of my classes right now, it says in no uncertain terms on the syllabus that “attendance is mandatory.” so...
anyway this appointment happened on monday morning and it was very draining and exhausting to defend my disability and my need for accommodations to a stranger. (esp considering defending my disability and my need for accommodations to my mom has been the source of my anxiety since i was 5 years old).
And that’s why i haven’t really gone to class since :/ I needed to recover. I knew this would be a possibility when I made the appointment, and i planned accordingly that i’d have to miss class on monday... I did not expect that it would last this long though... ugh.
As I have been told, too, my university is actually more progressive on these things than many universities are... So yeah :’) I’m dying inside lmao.
(In seriousness, this will be MORE than worth it for all of my classes later on, and was a very important step that I needed to take. It’s just a very hard hurtle to climb over at the moment. And with being unmedicated for a week, I’m just not doing great right now T_T)
I love this so much. I love that you have plotted out whumptober. And that it is so good. And that Steve is jumping out of another plane like he has forgotten gravity is a thing still, even after the serum.
You give me so so so much credit-- I plotted the first four, now I’m making it up as I go along. LOL
Loki opened his one eye and saw Thor flinch. He wondered what the other looked like. “You pulled me back,” he said. “Why?”
Thor stared at him. “Because you are my brother,” he said, as though it was obvious. “I did not want you to die.”
That simple. Loki stared at him, uncomprehending. He couldn’t see the door, looking at Thor like this; it made him nervous, but he told himself it did not matter. What did he have left to fear? He’d wielded the Infinity Gauntlet and rewritten reality. He had finished his task. It was over now.
Thor’s expression softened even as the pain in his eyes seemed to grow. “You saved us,” he said. Words like an arrow in Loki’s heart. He closed his eyes and turned his face away.
And look at all I did to achieve it. The words bubbled up on his tongue. Asgard burning, Jotunheim destroyed. Yggdrasil itself shaken to its roots. Half of all life obliterated. Your friends, dead. You, bleeding to death at my feet.
He said nothing.
“No doubt you need more rest,” Thor said. He sounded sad, and Loki could not understand why. “Sleep, Loki. You are safe.”
This is not my world, Loki thought. I do not belong here. I never have.
darcybear replied to your post: “SOMETHING KILLED THE RHUBARB PLANT I PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO...”:
Did it get the roots? Because it can come back if there are roots! That’s what happened with ours—I had given up but it came back like some kind of miracle plant!
I think the roots are okay, so I guess there’s still hope!
