#dawnskylive rambles

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Me: why do I feel like shit after my nap

My body: idk, have a 140 bpm I guess

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Just finished my pt appointment, and I’m getting more and more fed up with it. This place DOES specialize in chronic pain, but it is seemingly more and more helpful for people who’s pain stems from injuries, or age, or surgery and such, not someone with just chronic pain.

My biggest peeve right now is that I tried telling my therapist about thsi and her only response was that I just needed to keep going so that I could retrain my brain when it comes to feeling pain.

Hearing that as someone’s who’s expressed that metacognition is normal for me, and I rationalize and logic my way through a lot of things, was really frustrating. I already know that my pain is not coming from a constant source, and being told that I just “need to fix how my brain thinks about it” is both frustrating and a bit insulting.

On a similar note, I mentioned how my muscle spasms and tremors were getting worse, her response? That it was likely my hydration, sleep or fatigue causing it. When I said that this had been present and constant even when those changed, she said she had no idea (although I will say she did say she would check with someone) (that someone being the old doctor that I don’t like all too much)

Not to mention how hostile the facility is to sensory sensitive people. There’s exactly one quiet corner in the entire outpatient area, which is often used for group therapy so it’s not available quite a bit. Everything is bright and open and still cramped because everyone is in the same place, there’s a single large room that is used for both physical and occupational therapy.

I’m tired of this place and I’m only halfway done with my appointment for the day

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Greetings gays, gamers, both and neither! My name is Dawn, and I am a content creator of many talents! I'm queer, trans, disabled, and am a silly goofy AuDHD little guy! (also as of posting this a minor so act accordingly >:((( i have my eye on y'all

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I am a variety content creator, I stream on Twitch, and post on YouTube on a bunch of other platforms! (here's my carrd: https://dawnskylivesocials.carrd.co )

I am a silly goofy art student, who wants to go into video game art and animation, or like movie concept art :D. I use a number of programs for this (photoshop, procreate, krita, illustrator, and I'm gonna get clip studio soon hopefully) and use my pc and an ipad.

Being autistic, i have silly goofy hyperfixations and special interests. Such as space, MCYT , horror things, Art, DnD, Writing and storytelling. I love all things eldritch horror (TMA my beloved) and things like biblically accurate angels and cosmic horror. That being said, I do have very strong opinions (cough mcyt related mainly), so if you don't agree with them, please just move on. If you do want to interact pls do so respectfully and understand that we just have different opinions :D.

That being said, I do not hesitate to use the block button ^^ I use it from everything from I have a opinions about you to I am just annoyed with seeing your posts, dont take it too personally

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I’m in the final stage of this job, pre shift stress so bad I get sick, wanting to claw off my uniform once I put it on.

I just don’t have a job lined up, and I need money. I only work one shift a week because that’s all I am physically and mentally able to do.

It sucks because I love the people I work with, they’re so awesome, but the stress of retail is slowly destroying me.

The unfortunate trend of me only staying at a job for a handful of months continues I guess.

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Haloweeeeeeen

Had a pretty meh holiday, i wore the WORST shoes (which gave me blisters), and had a flare up due to being super cold, which caused me to lag behind my group :(

Shout to my friends tho, one gave me their jacket and literally kept offering to carry me lmao, and another kept walking by me and chatting even when i was a third of a block behind the main group

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In the five ish minutes since that last post I’ve been 20 bpm above resting AND IVE BEEN JUST SITTING DOWN

(30 bpm above normal when I just stood up)

I see a cardiologist in January and it cannot come soon enough

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Look, idc If this is against my stores policy, I will not be told I cannot be empathetic and kind.

There’s an unhoused dude who comes it to return cans, and today he spent a half hour taping together dollar bills, and I exchanged them for nice whole ones. I refuse to willingly stand between someone and potentially their next meal. I like my job but I like being a kind person more.

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Playing BG3 until I get heat exhaustion https://www.twitch.tv/dawnskycosmic