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dbd secret santa gift for @idol-trickster!

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i chose to draw trickster solo (yun-jin's there in spirit)

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DBD Headcanons: You come out to your dbd-canon s/o as bi/pan

Ahh this is my first time doing something like this so I hope it’s alright, but this is my @deadbydaylightsecretsanta gift for @queendeeshorrorimagines

Characters include 21 different survivors and killers from the game.

Wordcount sits around 2300

Rating: mostly Teen+

Potential triggers:: Possibly OOC, Also the headcanons under “the fuckboys” and “insecure at first” headings will have the angsty-but-happy-endings in them (aka, bad knee-jerk reactions but there’s not really any unresolved angst). Light cussing.

Himbos

·      Trapper – The silly goose misheard you/misunderstood you at first but his heart is in the right place. He originally takes it to mean you’re ambidextrous or bilingual or something to that effect, y’know fairly proud of your many skills and talents. He’s generally pretty cheerful when you’re around, simply because it’s you!, And that hasn’t changed one bit after the confession. Though you want to be absolutely clear with him, being Bi (or Pan) means liking multiple genders, not just one, and this self-realization is important to you. And he nods along while he’s processing and once the meaning of your words sinks in he smiles all smug: “So that means outta every pretty bastard on the planet you like me the best!” And yeah, that is the spirit.

·      Yui – She thinks everyone is a bit bi anyways, so she doesn’t realize the importance of you coming out until later. She doesn’t want to hurt you and your coming out has now inspired her to come out to you as well! In the name of transparency and fairness of course. Though you’ve already known, it hadn’t been explicitly stated until now. Huh. This open communication thing feels… pretty good!

·      Jeff – He doesn’t have much of a reaction to your disappointment. Logically you know that it’s a good thing, right? It’s not a big deal, except that you made an effort to come out formally and you feel a little hollow about the whole thing. The next day Jeff runs up to you, haggard and earnest as he explains his dawning realization, “OH SHIT I DIDN’T REALIZE YOU WERE COMING OUT AND NOW I FEEL LIKE AN ASSHOLE but I love you I’m sorry, let me make it up to you?” He’s brought you bi flag colored tulips because they are not too elegant, too romantic, too big, or too small; the tulip is always just right; Just like you! And just like you two together. No matter the color of your flag or the orientation you feel the most authentic as, Jeff’s got your back.

 Fuckboys

·      Nea – A bit relieved that you’re bi/pan so she can talk freely about attractiveness of strangers while on a date. She’d never actually make eyes at another person; it’s just freeing to be able to make a remark about somebody’s appearance without her feeling like you’d be the one to get jealous. Suggests a threesome as a joke but also would do it in a heartbeat (we should have a threesome haha just kidding… Unless…?). Once she gets over her initial reactions, she’s back to treating you how she’s always treated you, like her one and only. Low-key makes up goofy games about judging personal tastes to play at bars or while walking through the city, and DEFINITELY plays that “s/he’s a 10 but…” game with you.

·      Trickster – He only sarcastically suggests a threesome. He’s never been good at sharing and doesn’t intend to start now, however you coming out as bi/pan is more than fine by him. You’re perfect the way you are, it’s everybody else that’s the problem, and he just gets that jealous glare in his eyes around everyone now. Equal opportunity envy!

·      Frank – His immediate suggestion to have a threesome starts a fight. His crassness, his passion, and his headstrong daring are some of the reasons you like him in the first place, but you’ve been reading a lot about bisexuality/pansexuality and have struggled privately to come to terms with your new label and all the connotations that would get dumped on you because of it. Frank seems taken aback by the confrontation and after taking a minute to cool off, he comes to find you and apologize. He explains that he didn’t mean to trivialize your journey in self-discovery, he just didn’t want to make a big deal out of something that doesn’t change your relationship that much, because he’s not the best about expressing his feelings but he is truly okay with your new labels and he doesn’t actually mean what he said because he doesn’t view you any differently.

 Overly Invested Ally

·      Dwight – you are the first (out) bisexual/pan person he’s met in person. He’s already your loveable boyfriend but now he’s in people pleaser mode and wants to make a good first impression on this new information about you. It’s a bit cringe and his platitudes are very cheesy, but you wouldn’t be with him if you didn’t like a little cringe with your cheese. He does, at some point, tell you that he doesn’t view you any differently than before, but he admits he may be overcompensating because he doesn’t know the proper terminology or he’s afraid to say the wrong thing and ruin a relationship he wants to truly thrive.

·      Jane – Not the first bisexual person she’s met by a long shot, but she’s so used to covering those heartwarming Oscar-bait stories about how people react to coming out stories that she’s taken aback a bit when you come out to her. She really should have prepared something heartwarming and genuine and perfect for you but she’s panicked, and she’s on autopilot to put you at ease after spilling your guts, so she goes for the grand display of love and gratitude. It’s pretty embarrassing all things considered, but at least the cameras are nowhere in sight.

·      Nurse – She’s familiar with all of the statistics and the theory around bisexuality/pansexuality and other models of queer attraction. When you come out to her she’s got book recommendations right off the bat. It’s a bit much, and you tell her just that. You’ve come to terms with the label but it’s still so new for you that reading up on the history and all the variegated complexities of the community NOW will be overwhelming for you. You’d rather take it slow; dip your toes into the community after becoming comfortable with your identity in your private spaces. Spaces that include Sally. Sally’s embarrassed that she’s gone overboard but she makes it up to you by supporting you in your own journey.

 Insecure at first

·      Yun Jin – She frowns and closes herself off, how she always does when she needs to think things through, but this hurts nonetheless. When you tell her just that, she reestablishes eye contact but insecurity is written all over her face. The ensuing conversation about expectations and feelings hurts like pulling teeth, but it ends with Yun Jin apologizing for being out of line and not thinking about your feelings. With new clearer relationship boundaries in place, and Yun Jin’s vow to educate herself before making assumptions, your relationship feels stronger. It isn’t perfect right away, but it grows solid over time.

·      Felix – Felix fancies himself a pretty progressive person, so he’d be too embarrassed and prideful to admit to any issues he may have. He doesn’t outright say/accuse anything but you pick up on the vibes and don’t let a week go by without calling him on his shit and forcing a heart to heart.  “I poured my guts out to you and I need you to have the same courtesy for me if you want this relationship to continue working." And it’s the exact kick in the pants that Felix needs to realize he doesn’t want to lose you, but he might if he continues to wallow in a self-fulfilling prophecy by thinking that you’d leave/cheat based on stereotypes he’s internalized without his permission. He communicates these thoughts to you, apologizes, and works with his own therapist to unlearn shitty behavior.

·      Hillbilly – He’s only insecure because he knows it means the pool of other prettier, more qualified people to steal you away is bigger. He knows you being bi/pan has nothing to do with you subtly implying a breakup or cheating, but he also feels that you’re out of his league already. Max has a very “ ’it doesn’t matter what his name is, only that he’s better than you in every way’ -dammit Jackie that could be anyone!” from that 70’s show kind of self-esteem. He’s distraught to make you comfort him when he knows he’s supposed to be the one to comfort you. He apologizes again for making your moment about his feelings, and he makes it up to you by reassuring you and your identity over doughnuts and chai.

 Welcome to the club

·      Mikaela – “Same Hat,” She jokes. “Seriously though, welcome to the club!” Mikaela smiles ‘til her cheeks hurt. As she gives you excited nudges and proud thumbs up, she perks up, as if just remembering something.  She makes a little trumpet fanfare noise with her mouth as she unpins one of her bisexual/pansexual pride pins and affixes it to your shirt with a dramatic flourish. “Not much of a club if there’s no memorabilia. The first of many to come, I’m sure.”

·      Jonah – “Congrats, you’re officially the last person to know.” And ouch if that doesn’t sting a little in the moment, however funny the situation may be once you’re able to look back on this later. He realizes right away that was not the right thing to say right off the bat. He immediately apologizes and reassures you. He’s bisexual too, in what world would he have a negative reaction to your label?

·      Ghostface – You tell him over video call. He’s got fierce pride on his face and gives you thumbs up, promising to celebrate in person when he’s back in town. You wake up the next day to find your window wide open, but nothing else amiss in your house. As you finish getting ready for the day, you’re grabbed from behind. The intruder restrains your arms and covers your eyes scaring the shit out of you and when you yell at your attacker he presses his lips to your temple and admirably growls out “Hazing initiation time! Welcome to bi/pan-dom.” between giggles. The fight drains out of you and you elbow your edgelord boyfriend for scaring you, making him laugh harder. He drops his hands from your eyes and circles them around your shoulders, waddling with you towards your door. “The trials are long and arduous, the earlier we start the better!” You roll your eyes at his antics, but your arcade date does end up being pretty fun.

 Sincere but not mushy

·      David – He wraps you in a hug before you can even come out. He gives you a squeeze, he can tell that whatever you’re about to say, you’re nervous about it. Once you finally get it out; You’re bi, or maybe pan? He only loosens his hug enough to look you in the eyes with a soft smile and an approving nod. “I’m proud of you. If you want to talk about it, I’m here to listen. There’s no rush to pick an exact label right away, and if the one you’ve picked doesn’t suit you later on, there’s no shame in changing it then to something that fits you better. There’s no science to it, just go with whatever feels right to you.”

·      Zarina – You’ve always had a hard time reading Zarina; something you’ve confided in her early in your relationship with her. So she makes an effort to verbalize how she feels with you. She tells you that it takes a lot to look in and figure out who you are, but she’s so proud of you for doing the work and landing on a label that makes you happy! She takes you out for those fancy teas that have the colored layers and winks at you when she orders the flavors that make up the bi flag colors for you, telling you they’re the best flavors anyway.

·      Wraith – Phillip isn’t a man of many words, so every word he does say holds a lot of weight. He’s got the most subdued reaction, a simple “I love you” and a kiss on the forehead. It’s the kind of tranquil comfort you’ve always associated with him. It doesn’t really come up that often in your relationship, but it still warms your heart every time you overhear him correcting a stranger that you’re his bi s/o; neither straight nor gay.

 Sincere but kind of embarrassing

·      Kate – She’s a country music star. Cheesy and lavish poetry is kind of her thing. She won’t write a song about it, especially while you’re not fully out to everyone, but she gets a little weepy eyed when she says, “thank you for telling me, I’m happy I can be a safe space for you to confide in me your truest most authentic self and however you may continue to change and grow and experiment with yourself and your labels; I’d be honored to keep your confidence.” She is nowhere near done waxing poetic but you shut her up with a kiss, completely maroon in the face.

·      Ace – As somebody who grew up not being able to express himself to his loved ones, he’s ecstatic that you trust him enough to tell him things you learn about yourself. He’s not got a lot of practice expressing his sincere sentiments, but he’s making an effort. He doesn’t want to be misunderstood so if he over-explains his feelings, really drilling them in, so be it. You’re loved and trusted and he’s so so grateful to you for sharing yourself with him. Sometimes a word can feel like home, and he’s overjoyed that you found one for yourself and that you trust him enough to let him inside.

·      Charlotte – She wants to make absolutely clear that there is no wrong way to be you. She’s not the best with words but she’ll try and try again until she’s able to word her sentiments in a satisfactory way! You love her for trying, though you’re not quite used to such blatant sincerity and adulation from anyone much less a partner. When you hold her hand and tell her you get the picture, and you love her too, she kisses your wrist and offers to get those cheesy bi pride pun shirts for you.