im watching some dbt video abt the Levels Of Validation? or whatever. and... i hate it its. i mean. its probably healthy or whatever. but all the explanations just had me going IM SO BORED LIKE I KNO I DONT RLY APPLY THESE TO MYSELF AND CANT RLY RECOGNIZE MOMENTS WHERE THESE NEED TO BE APPLIED IN A CONVERSATION THAT IS SPECIFICALLY ABOUT ME AND SO I NEED TO WORK ON THAT, BUT IM GOOD AT APPLYING THEM TO OTHERS UGHHH STOP EXPLAINING STUFF I KNO, and all the examples of them being used im just internally screaming like GUHHH NO I HATE THIS. THAT MOM IS JUST AN ASSHOLE WHO THINKS ITS ACCEPTABLE TO SAY A CHILD SUFFERING FROM CLINICAL DEPRESSION IS SELFISH, NOOO STOP WORKING THINGS OUT WITH HER STOP CLARIFYING SHIT SHE'LL NEVER CHANGE JUST... JUST DROP IT AND LEAVE IM DYING SCOOB MY CROPS ARE WITHERING, SNAKES ARE MANIFESTING IN MY HOME, JUST!!! SHES BAD PERSON IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT SHE SAYS NOW OR IF SHE PRETENDS TO BE CHANGING which!! is probably black and white thinking. but it just feels so viscerally Incorrect and im like no i hate this >:( i take it back i never wanna get better i wanna be aNgry fite me (ง •̀_•́)ง
