#deadnames cw

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so i might be the character with my deadname

this is not actually all that worrying i'm on book two of five and no one important's died yet!

apart from the ghosts. if you want to count the ghosts.

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I had a very pleasant little happenstance I suppose. I kin Charlie Morningstar I'm very trans masc and started transitioning in high school. My last year I really doubled down on it no one at my school called me my dead name anymore I was socially transitioned but I hadn't physically transitioned yet, thus why I could still be in an all girls show choir. The show we did was Bonnie and Clyde and I got Clyde. Raise a Little Hell was a challenge in a half but I loved singing it and I will not lie I killed that fucking song.

Few years later I'm not feeling the best after cutting off everyone I know and that's when Hazbin really kicks off and Jeremy Jordan, the man responsible for giving me a voice I can feel proud of, is playing my dad Lucifer.

When I say I cried, I cried an ocean. Thank you for always being with me Daddy, I love you more than I could possibly tell you and wherever you are whoever you are now, I'm grateful you're my father more than anything. 💙💙💙

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[fictionkinfessions]

i am not the character with my deadname i am not the character with my deadname i am not the character with my deadname i am not th

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okay. guess we doin this now.

greetings. i have been… inactive in the system for a long time. until now. I am chara. and also kris, apparently. because I just said with absolute certainty "what?? no. they're intersex. they/i dont have a deadname. my name's Kris." and watched in horror as it transitioned to an "i" statement. do I finally have to finally play the new chapters now? kinda dont want to. I wont i guess. pissing everyone off, as usual. ❤️

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my relationship with my source gender is so fucking fucked, dude.

i'm a trans man. and apparently, in my source. i'm going to be made a trans woman. which, i feel i need to specify, like, good for her! but that's not. me. the name she's most likely going to choose to go by is going to be my deadname. it fucking sucks! because i fucking hate my deadname! i hate the idea of being someone's daughter again. but it looks like slowly, the entire fandom is abandoning the identity i've grown to feel comfortable in.

the homestuck fandom is a minefield, and back in 2020 i used to get so much hate already. i can already imagine it being so much worse if i talked about it on our blog. people constantly telling me i'm wrong, that i have to be wrong. the constant deadnaming me. people fucking hate fictives that aren't exactly like their source, man. even more so when source evolves without them. i don't want to deal with that again.

i don't know if i'm overreacting or what, but i'm so fucking terrified constantly every time i see her name. she's not me. but everybody thinks she is. i'll never escape her because in all aspects but the direction of transition, we are one in the same. and i just have to learn to cope with that, i guess.

john egbert fictive (#👾💫)

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[fictionkinfessions]

I should probably talk 'bout when the show ended. (not talkin' 'bout the final episode that shows what happened like 20 years in the future, I'm talkin' about the year or two after)

(Sorry 'bout using your deadname, sis, need to use it to explain this.) Big Mcintosh came out as a mare. After the Sisterhooves Social, she started questioning her gender for years. She finally came out as Orchard Blossom. (Yup, the same name as in the Sisterhooves Social)

Apple Bloom's "friend group" started testing the waters o' bein' a teen polyamorous relationship. It ended up workin' out as they all stayed together for the rest o' my life, probably long after too.

Granny sadly passed away. Think it was 5 months after Orchard came out, a year and a half before Apple Bloom's relationship.

Pinkie and Cheese started datin'. Flutters and Discord started datin'. And Rainbow and I made it public that we'd been datin' for a year.

-Applejack #🖤🏳️‍⚧️🐺

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not signing this one because i don't want the fandom to find it, but it's certainly a weird feeling when one of the ships involving you starts getting fankids involved and said fankid was named extremely similarly to your irl deadname. like it's good fankid content, don't get me wrong, but also... i get whiplash whenever i look in that tag now because of the cognitive dissonance the situation causes me, lol.

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*sees people using my source deadname and referring to me* ew ew ew ew ew. no no no. stop that. yuck.

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