#deantbrl

[zkdltblr]

the way I miss him is insane

[penomecoincorea]

[lanadelkai]

Too Much to Ask: Optional Bias

Pairing: OB x OC

Genre: Angst/ blurb

Words: 329

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A/N: Hey guys! So this blurb is actually a little letter I wrote to my ex but never sent, kinda like a way to relieve me of my emotions. This is word for word, the only thing I did was capitalize lol, so please enjoy!

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Being with you has been the most liberating and painful experience ever. Our relationship was something strong and unexpected but beautiful. It's hard to deal with the fact that I came out to a new state to find happiness, but realizing it resides in you. But as the saying goes, the person who shows you heaven can also show you hell. It's absolutely true. I'm so in love with you still and not being with you makes me crazy. I never want to feel like a man has this kind of power over me. There's nothing i want quite like being with you, and it hurts so much to know you don't want to be with me. I told you I understood and that it was okay, but it's tearing me apart. I can't even talk to you as just a friend without feeling heartbroken. Talking to you doesn't make me feel better and neither does not talking to you. I can't become friends with benefits either because it'll just tear me apart some more. I'm a sensitive person and I fall for people easily and nothing would make me fall more than being with you like this, sexually and in love. We basically are in a relationship still but you don't want to make it real again so there's no point anymore. If it's meant to be then it will be, but I feel like our story needs to come to an end soon. Nothing will satisfy me as long as we're not together, but i'm not gonna base my happiness on one relationship when you don't even want this. I feel like i'm going insane and falling deeper and deeper into a black hole that consumes me and all of my emotions. If i feel strongly for someone else like this one day, I know i'll have to go through the same heartbreak. I can't find happiness now and won't be able to for a long time.

[siklive]

REMIX SOON?

[fluffytwt]

— 권혁.

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[lanadelkai]

i love dean so much and i have no regrets that my dean phase came back full swing

[fluffytwt]

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[outsidereveries]

Hi may you do a career reading on Deantrbl my apologies?

This summer will be really great for him! I see many people, he might release something, possibly collaboration. He will be really happy and will do something that is really beneficial to him!