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The second you and your friends start walking up the driveway of the frat house, the smell of alcohol, cigarettes, and other substances, alongside the smoke from whatever was burning outside, hits you. As your friend opens the door, you see the house party is in full swing, and you intend to make the most out of the first free weekend with no work, classes or spiralling over unanswered texts you've had in a very, very long time. Lord knows why you chose to do your Master's during what seemed like the busiest time of your life.
"Ooo, this is exactly what the doctor ordered! Fun and freedom from responsibility." Your friend Shay rejoices, pulling you all along with her as she walks deeper into the house, causing a laugh to leave your mouth as you let her jewelled hand wrap around your wrist.
"Now I know damn well that this ain't my future doctor speaking right now." Your other friend, Salem, giggles, allowing herself to also be hauled along as she grabs Anika, who sashays along in the back. All four of you stop periodically to greet a mutual friend or classmate, the deeper in you go.
"Okay, chicas, remember why we're here! We finally managed to drag everyone out of hiding," Salem started, sending a pointed look at you, "and we are here to have fun, forget the stress of looming thesis' and fuckboys who ain't shit."
The bass of the music thumps through the floorboards, reverberating through your bones as you make your way through the sea of bodies, littered in different states of relaxation and disarray, to make your way towards the makeshift bar setup in the kitchen to mix yourself something strong. You had plans to let loose and get wasted. You stepped out, freshly scrubbed and smelling good enough to eat, hair done, nails done, and outfit sensational; you were not wasting this opportunity for fun.
"Girl, hand me that bottle next to you." You ask your friend, pointing to a bottle with a dark liquid inside, before picking up a couple of red solo cups, some shot glasses and a bottle of juice as you wait for the liquor to be set down beside you.
After pouring a portion of shots and mixed drinks for you and your friends, you began handing out the cups, making sure everyone was focused on not spilling on themselves. "Okay, ladies, we are here to let loose and have fun! Lord knows I have needed this night out! Cheers!" You exclaim, lifting up your cup for your girls to tap theirs with, their own cheers of agreement echoed out, mildly muffled by the music. You all simultaneously down a large chunk of your drinks, faces wrinkling at the strong taste of the liquor that was barely masked under the fizzy fruitiness of the juice you had added to them.
"Damn! Girl, you are heavy-handed with that shit!" Shay screeches as she puts down her cup and grips the countertop. "Any more of those and we'll be fucked up in no time." She giggles, adjusting her black rhinestone tube top as she looks around at the mass of people, her smile faltering at a figure standing in a corner, surrounded by people, with a lazy confidence radiating from him. "Um, babe, not to yuck your yum, but.... he's here." She warns, eyes flickering from him back to your frame, which now stood frozen before watching you slowly turn to scan the room before making eye contact with him as he stares back intensely, a cigarette hanging loosely from his lips as he spoke to one of his boys.
Turning back, you were greeted with the faces of people who were clearly waiting for an outburst, but instead, you gulped down the rest of your drink before shuddering. "He made his choice; I made mine. He will not ruin the only free weekend I have had in a long time. I've earned this. Now, let's go dance, this playlist fucks!" You decree, grabbing your phone from the countertop and walking towards the large makeshift dance floor, pushing past the intertwined bodies to a free space big enough for your group, ignoring the feel of his eyes on your frame.
As time pressed on, you separated yourself from your friends who remained on the dance floor in the spacious living room; the alcohol loosening your muscles as you walked back to the kitchen to grab another drink and steal the packet of crisps you eyed on the countertop when you bumped into a solid wall of muscle. Upon looking up, you were met with the slightly unfocused eyes of one of the finest men you have ever seen. "Sorry, I didn't see you there." He apologises, hands out, hovering over your shoulders to stop you from stumbling without actually initiating contact, as a lazy smile graces his features.
Shaking your head, you let out a little laugh of surprise. "No, you're fine. It's my fault for charging in like that." You said, eyes dragging down his frame as he introduced himself, pushing a hand out for you to shake, which you did as you returned the introduction with your own name.
"Nice name, you mind if I hang around for a bit? Get to know you?" He requests, watching as your eyes widen a little and you bite your lip. "Unless... you got a man that I should be worried about?" He blurts out, taking a step back so as not to offend a mystery man who might show up.
Throwing a quick glance behind you to where he had previously stood in the corner and noticing him missing, you turn back to the guy, and you shake your head. "Nope, no man or woman. You can hang, but I need another drink and a snack." You reply, nodding your head towards the family-sized bag of crisps you had been eyeing, noticing his shoulders visibly relax as he walked you the three steps it took to get to your destination before handing you the bag as you sat on the countertop. "Thank you." You express as your manicured and jewelled hand grabs it from him, opening it and popping a crisp in your mouth as he leans beside you.
As you sat there talking to the stranger, you could feel eyes on you like your every move was being watched.
Your friends came by at one point to try to get you to jump into their game of beer pong, but you declined, realising you were actually having a lot of fun speaking to this guy who leaned in closer as time went on, leaving very little space between the two of you as the conversation topics changed from the course you were studying to hobbies to future plans. He was cute, a little nerdy from his interests, but you liked that he had such a deep interest in it. He poured you another drink as you carried on munching on the crisps and let your eyes wander away from his frame for a second, locking eyes with a pair of stormy eyes that paired with the scowl on his lips, before turning your head back in time to receive the red cup from him with a smile on your face.
Despite wanting to keep your attention on the tall, handsome guy in front of you, your eyes kept wandering back to the pair of eyes staring the both of you down on the other side of the room. For a moment, you had toyed with the thought of maintaining eye contact to gauge his reaction before deciding to focus on your conversation. He was just not worth the drama that came with engaging him; you learnt that the hard way a few weeks ago.
As the time passed, you realised you had basically left your girls hanging for a man. "I'm really sorry to cut this conversation, trust me, I would much rather not, but I have left my home girls alone for far too long." You announce, sliding the cup and half-empty bag to the side as you adjust yourself to slip off the countertop, letting the man dwarf you with his stature.
Letting out a soft chuckle, he nodded but didn't step away. "I get that, but before you go, can I get your number? I would love to continue this another time. Maybe over dinner?" He requests, sliding a hand into his back pocket and pulling out his phone. Nodding, you grab the phone and enter your digits, before passing it back to him, fingers touching as he takes it back and calls the number, watching your phone ring before he hangs up. "Now you have mine, and I got to confirm you ain't give me a fake number." He laughs, taking a step back. "It was great speaking to you, even if it was because you slammed into me."
Laughing, you run a hand through your hair. "Yeah, sorry about that again. I was a girl on a mission, what can I say?" You remark, taking a step towards the door. "Text me, I would love to carry on this conversation." You drawl as you slither out to the garden, where Shay was currently trying to persuade Salem and Anika to dive into the pool. "Girl, I leave y'all for like 2 hours, and here you are tryna take your clothes off." You joke, walking towards the trio.
"You seemed occupied, so we gotta stay entertained somehow." Shay giggles, eyes unfocused, showing that she was clearly drunk. The party was still in full swing, some people leaving, and a few unfamiliar faces arriving. Pulling Shay down to sit between you and Anika, you turn your head to their expectant faces.
"That was my bad, but I promise it was not planned!" You put your hands up in mock surrender as they all tilted their heads in that 'bitch, you best be joking' way. "Okay, he hinted at going on a date." You quietly shriek, knees knocking Shay and Salem's as you do a wiggle of excitement. "He was so sweet, you guys. Like I haven't been this excited sinceā" You cut yourself off from saying his name, but your friends knew.
"Babes, if you like this guy, I say go for it. You can't stay hung up on that idiot even if he has been borderline stalking you all night." Anika states, her hazel eyes looking over your shoulder to your personal shadow, before she rolls her eyes. The other girls nodded, clearly having also noticed that you were constantly being monitored the whole night.
Sighing, you look over your shoulder to see his tall stature leaning against a wall not far off from where you were sitting, a freshly rolled joint hanging off his lips as he failed to pretend that he wasn't intensely staring you down. Rolling your eyes, you turn back to your friends. "I don't see why he's acting like that. He's the one who called our little arrangement quits." You fume, pulling at a stray piece of fabric from the sunloungers you were sitting on as you listen to the ambient sounds of people enjoying themselves.
Your mind drifts back to that raw, sweaty night in his dimly lit apartment, the air thick with the scent of sex and his cologne. You were on your back, legs hooked over his broad shoulders as he pounded into you relentlessly, his thick cock stretching your pussy with every brutal thrust. Your nails dug into his biceps, body arching off the mattress as waves of pleasure built inside you. "Fuck, yes, harder," you gasped, clit throbbing against his pelvis slamming forward.
He grunted, sweat dripping from his brow onto your tits, gripping your thighs tighter while he drove deeper, balls slapping against your ass. Your walls clenched around him, milking his shaft as your orgasm hit ā juices gushing out, soaking the sheets beneath you. He followed seconds later, burying himself to the hilt and flooding your cunt with hot spurts of cum, his cock pulsing as he emptied every drop inside you.
Both of you panting, he stayed lodged in you for a moment, breath coming out in short huffs as he came down from his high. Then pulled out with a wet pop, his spend leaking from your swollen folds onto the bed. Without a word, he rolled off, grabbing his phone from the nightstand and checking the time. You lay there catching your breath, expecting the usual post-fuck cuddle or at least a smirk. Instead, he sat up abruptly, avoiding your eyes.
"We can't keep doing this," he stated flatly, voice devoid of his usual tone as he tugged on his boxers. "We're done with this friends-with-benefits shit. No more hookups. I- I can't keep doing this anymore. It's getting too messy for me."
You blinked, still buzzing from the high, cum trickling down your thigh. Oh, the irony. "What? Just like that? After you just nutted in me?"
He shrugged, standing to pull on his jeans. "Yeah. It's over. This was the last time." And with that, he walked out to the living room, leaving you naked and stunned on the bed, the door clicking shut behind him.
The memory stings fresh, pulling you back to the party noise as you clench your jaw, glaring at the fabric in your fingers.
After a few beats of silence with your thoughts running, you jumped up and yelled. "Okay, wait, no! We are not letting him ruin the night! I'm going to get us a few more shots, maybe just juice for Shay, and we are going to play a round of beer pong and go back to that dance floor."
You strutted away with confidence, ignoring his piercing gaze as you walked past him towards the door to go back inside and grab a paper plate, a couple shot glasses, and fill them up with a flavoured vodka you found nearby. You also grab a cup of Sprite for Shay because there was no way you were letting her get blackout; the plan was drunk and happy, not blackout and unable to walk. As you reached for the bottle of Sprite, you felt a warm weight on your shoulder. Turning your head slowly, you recognise it was a hand and followed the joint up to the arm, which led to the rest of the body of the one person you were not in the mood to be in the vicinity of.
"Hey." He smiled, sliding his hands into the pocket of the oversized zip-up you used to steal. Looking him up and down, you stood wondering what he could possibly want.
"Um, hi." You quip, turning back to pouring out the drinks. You were definitely going to need those shots.
"How have you been?" He asks, eyes low as he looks down at you, his height towering over you.
'What the fuck?' You think as you roll your eyes at him.
"Why do you care?" You bark back, quickly placing everything onto the plate, making sure it was stable before turning to face the man in your way. A sour look on your face as you try to pass him.
"Just asking. We ended things, but that doesn't mean I can't be curious about your well-being." He states, causing you to gawk at him like he had grown a second head.
"Are you seriā?! No, you ended things; therefore, it is no longer your business to be curious." You hiss, trying to keep your voice steady and stop your hands from shaking. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to my girls." You state and push past him, walking down the hallway towards the door, when he stops you again.
"Don't do that." He argues, hand on your wrist again, mindful of the drinks as his eyes bore into you, leaning against the wall as he let you go once he realised you weren't going to run. "I don't want to argue. I- Look, I know you've been avoiding me. I just- I miss you, I miss us."
Your face drops slightly in disbelief. Putting the drinks down on a side table nearby, you turned back to him. "You are unbelievable! You dump me, and you want to tell me you miss us?" You snap, an incredulous look on your face.
"I didn't dump youā"
"Oh, right," You cut in, voice rising. "You just decided that right after we fucked I wasn't worth the complication. My bad."
He looked like you had visibly slapped him with those words. He pushes off the wall, stepping closer.
"I said I didn't want it to get messy."
"It was already messy! I was naked in your fucking bed, and you left!" You shot back, "You just didn't want to deal with whatever was happening with you."
Silence slammed into the space between you. It sat there heavy.
Your chest rose and fell a little faster now, emotions you'd been holding in finally peaking through the cracks. "I came here to forget. Us... you," You mutter, voice quieter but sharper somehow. "Do you get that? I just want one night. One night where I don't think about you, about it all, where I don't have to wonder why I wasn't enough for you to stay. And now you're just... here."
That landed harder than anything else. His expression shifted, some of the fog from his joints and drinks clearing, something more focused breaking through. "Thatā You were enough. That wasn't ever up for debate." He insists, taking another step closer.
You laugh again, but this time it breaks halfway through. āDonāt,ā you whisper, voice timid. āDonāt say that now.ā
āI mean it.ā He affirms, looking down at you, eyes swirling with emotion.
āThen why did you leave?ā This time, he had no straight answer. You stood watching his mouth open and close as he tried to fix the mess he had made. āExactly.ā You start, nodding to yourself as if youād just proven the point you already knew, taking a step back as you straighten your outfit. āThatās what I thought.ā
You moved to walk past him, reaching out to grab the plate of drinks you had almost forgotten about.
He reaches out. This time, he didnāt grab your wrist. His large hand landed on your waist instead.
Warmer.
Closer.
More dangerous.
The singular touch causes an internal battle. It froze you to your core, and yet, deep down, you craved more as your breath hitched, his name slicing through the silence between you.
A warning.
"Let. Me. Go." Your voice is low, venom behind every word. Glaring at his fingers, unable to look him in the eye.
āI messed up,ā he admits, voice low, rougher now. He licks his lips before continuing, āI thought that if I ended things first, I wouldnāt have to deal with how much I-ā He stops again, but itās too late.
Your breath hitched. "Finish that." You demand, despite the lack of force behind your words, voice barely above a whisper.
His thumb shifted slightly against your side ā not moving, just.... there.
Aware.
"You got too close." He says instead.
"That's not an answer." You retort.
"It's the truth." He breathes out.
"No," You reply, stepping closer despite yourself, eyes locked on his. "The truth is you got scared."
His jaw tightened. That one hit clean.
"Maybe." He admits.
The silence around them felt thick with unsaid words. Charged. Electric.
Your hand came up, resting lightly against his chest, like before. But this time, it didn't feel like pushing him away.
It felt like holding yourself steady.
"You don't get to come back when it's convenient for you," You started, voice softer now, but the shakiness remained. "You don't get to look at me like that and expect me to justā" Your words faltered.
Because he was looking at you like that.
Closer now.
Too close.
His gaze drops to your lips.
Slowly.
Deliberately.
Your breath catches in your throat.
"Like what?" He murmurs, his presence somehow feeling more all-encompassing.
"You know exactly what you're doing." You whisper, but do not move away from him.
"Do you want me to stop?"
A beat passes. You don't answer. Don't move.
That was answer enough.
He leaned in.
Slow enough to give you time to pull away.
Close enough that you could feel breath, warm against your lips, smell the faint mix of smoke, alcohol and something sweeter underneath.
And for a split second, you leaned in too.
And that was the problem. Because it felt right.
Familiar.
Like nothing between you had changed.
Your fingers curl slightly against his shirt.
His hand tightens at your waist.
Another inch and you would feel those familiar full lips on yours.
But you pull back. Sharply. Like you felt yourself get burned.
"No," You release, breath uneven, ghosting over his lips. "No, youā you don't get to do this. Not anymore."
He stills. The space between you, although minuscule, suddenly felt like a mile wide.
You stepped back fully this time, shaking your head as if the action would shake out your racing thoughts. "This is exactly why I needed a night free from you." You sigh, looking everywhere but at his face. "I already fell once, I am not doing that twice."
His expression shifts, like your words physically pierce his heart, and he lets his hand drop.
He doesn't speak, and you don't wait for him to do so, picking up the discarded drinks and walking out. The door slammed a little harder than necessary behind you.
Making sure nothing spilt as you walked back to where your friends had remained seated, all staring at you with the same weary expression, like they knew what had transpired. "I don't want to talk about it, I want to drink and forget that even happened." You say, tone indicating that it was not up for discussion.
Your friends exchange a look, the kind that says everything without a single word spoken, but they decided it was better not to push. Anika grabbed the plate of shots from your hands, sliding a shot towards you. "Say less." She acknowledges, as she hands out the rest, giving Shay the cup of Sprite.
You take the plastic shot glass, fingers still unsteady, and bring it to your lips ā more for something to do than anything else. The burn of the alcohol barely registers. Your mind is still back there, caught in the gravity of his presence, the way his voice had dipped when he said your name, like it still belonged to him.
You force out a breath, sinking into your seat, willing your heartbeat to slow. The music is loud, despite being out in the garden, the only light source being the moon and the few LED lights that were strung up everywhere, everything hazy enough that you felt like you would be able to disappear into it.
And for a moment, you almost do.
Until you feel it again.
That familiar weight of his eyes on you.
You no longer have to look to know he's watching you. It prickles along your skin, settling low in your stomach in a way that's dangerously close to memory.
To habit.
To something you swore you were done with.
"Don't." You mutter your breath, though whether it was to him or to your inner thoughts, you're not entirely sure.
But of course... You look his way anyway.
And there he was.
Not far. Never far enough.
Leaning against the wooden pole of the gazebo like he had nowhere else to be, like the entire garden had narrowed down to just you. His gaze once again drags over you slowly, deliberately, and it's not curiosity anymore. It's something warmer. Something heavier. Something that makes your grip tighten around the pillow on the seat.
You turn away first this time, jaw setting. "Another," you say, already moving to grab another shot glass from the plate.
Because if you were going to sit here pretending you don't feel him unravelling every bit of progress you've made, you were going to need it.
"Okay, beer pong time." You decide, abruptly standing up and moving towards the ping-pong table with a stack of unused solo cups, setting up the table as Anika went to grab a couple of beer cans to fill up. He remained staring at your moving frame, ignoring his friends as he watched you laughing with Shay and Salem as you finished placing the cups down in their position.
As you settled into your rhythm of playing a few rounds, bodies moving animatedly whenever you missed or sank a shot, your friends' laughter echoed out each time and began to die down as they looked at the figure who had stalked his way behind you.
"Can I borrow you for a second?" He rasps, eyes not leaving your body as he steps into your space once again.
Your friends notice this immediately. One of them raised an eyebrow at his proximity as you looked away. He watched as you tried to pretend he wasn't there by grabbing a spare can or that your friends stood nearby pretending not to listen in. Sighing, he turned to your friends, a weak attempt at his usual suave smile on his face as he asked, "Y'all mind if I steal her?" His hand was already reaching out, fingers wrapping themselves around your wrist. Loose enough for you to break away if you really wanted to, but firmly enough to make you second-guess the thought of losing his touch again.
Your eyes snap to his, irritation flaring again. "Are you being serious right now?"
"Yeah." He simply replies, the warm weight of his hand still resting on your wrist.
Your friends went quiet ā but not uncurious. Salem gave you a look. The kind that said you were definitely going with him despite it all.
You exhaled a sharp breath through your nose as a strangled noise rose up your throat. "You are soā"
"Persistent?" He offered, a small smirk gracing his face.
"Annoying," she corrected. But they both realised that his fingers had intertwined with yours and you hadn't pulled your hand away.
Not really.
Not when he tugged lightly.
Your friends exchanged another set of knowing glances behind your back, watching as you glare up at his grinning face. "Go," Salem insists, barely hiding her grin. You turned and shot them a look, but it lacked any real heat behind it.
Then you turned back to him. "This is the last time," you asserted. "I mean it."
He nodded. But the way his grip tightened around your fingers, like he didn't believe that at all ā It said everything neither of you did.
And this time, when he led you away, you didn't stop him.
He didn't stop walking until you were somewhere quieter. Away from the noise and from prying eyes.
Not the hallway this time. The thought of the space felt too charged. Too familiar, and strangely raw.
Instead, he led you past a dim hallway on the left side of the house near the back, the kind of place people pass through without a second thought, and into a bedroom one wouldn't notice without being a frequent visitor.
The lighting in the room is low, illuminated by lamps on the desk and beside tables, and the music is muffled as he closes the door, stopping in the middle of the room.
For a second, neither of you said anything. His hand is still wrapped around yours.
That's the first thing you notice, and the second? The fact that he doesn't let go.
As you start to say his name, he cuts you off. Not rudely, just... sharper, more certain of his words. "You came back." He starts, voice quieter than before. The confidence he exuded in front of your friends shrank to something else in the quiet of the room.
Your brows knit. "You literally dragged me back."
He smiles, a faint quiver. "But you didn't fight me."
That lands.
You exhale, trying to pull your hand free this time ā really pull ā but his grip tightens just enough to keep you there.
Not forceful. Just... unwilling. To lose to you, to let you put any more distance, physical and otherwise, between you.
"That doesn't mean anything." You retort, but there's bite behind your words. More strain.
"It does." He murmurs as he steps closer. You should step back, you know that. That's the problem.
But you don't.
"You said you came to forget me," He continues, eye locked on yours. "So why are you still looking at me like that?"
"Like what?" You challenge, but softer now. Dangerous.
"Like you almost kissed me 20 minutes ago. Like you want to kiss me now."
Your breath catches.
"Don't do that." You protested. "Don't twist that onto me."
"I'm not twisting anything."
āYou are!ā You insist, voice wavering slightly and by his reaction, he heard it. āYouāre taking one moment and acting like it means more than it does.ā
āIt did mean something.ā He affirms.
āIt meant I almost made another mistake.ā
Silence slices in.
Sharp.
Immediate.
And yet. Neither of you move.
Because the truth is sitting right there between them ā uncomfortable and undeniable.
His gaze drops again. Down the expanse of your face to your lips.
Every time, like he canāt help it. Like he never learned how to do anything else.
āYouāre lying.ā He says quickly.
āExcuse me?!ā You scoff. Emotions flash through your eyes ā rage, anxiety, sadness and something else. Something he canāt quite place but he knows his eyes betray that same emotion to.
āYou didnāt pull away because it didnāt mean anything,ā he continues, stepping closer again, the space between you almost nonexistent. āYou pulled away because it did.ā
Your chest rises and falls. Faster now.
āThat doesnāt change anything.ā You argue, regretting every decision that led you here.
āNo,ā he agrees. āIt doesnāt fix what I did.ā
Oh.
That... wasnāt what you expected. Amidst your shock, you hesitate. Just long enough for him to notice and continue. āAnd it doesnāt make you trust me again.ā
You steel your expression. āGood. At least you understand that part.ā
āBut it does mean you still want me.ā And there it is.
The thing neither of you had been able to say cleanly laid out.
Your jaw sets. āYou donāt get to say that like itās a win.ā You note.
āIām not. Iām saying it because I feel it too.ā He answers, and that lands heavier than it should. Because he doesnāt sound smug. He sounds⦠frustrated. Honest. āI tried to ignore it,ā he goes on, quieter now. āAfter I ended things. Thought it would go away. If I just stayed away from you.ā
You let out a hollow sounding laugh. āAnd?ā
His eyes meet yours again. āIt didnāt.ā
The thick silence returns and stretches. His hand which had moved into yours during the conversation flexed. Your fingers loosening slightly in his grip. Not pulling away anymore.
Just⦠there.
āYou really hurt me.ā You finally say. Not sharp this time. Not defensive. Just true,
āI know.ā
āYou donāt just get to come back because you miss me.ā
āIām not justāā
āYou are,ā you cut in, shaking your head. āYou miss how it felt. You miss the convenience. You missāā
āI miss you.ā
The words hit harder than anything else heās said.
You still. Body rigid, heart hammering against your ribs. His words echo, simple and devastating: I miss you.
He doesn't push. Doesn't demand. Just stands there, inches away, thumb tracing slow circles over your knuckles. Waiting. The heat from his body seeps into yours, stirring memories you'd buried deep.
"I'm sorry," he whispers, voice rough with regret. "For everything. For leaving. For the silence after. I was scared ā scared I'd ruin this more than I already had."
Your throat tightens. Part of you wants to shove him back, to scream that apologies don't erase the nights you spent hollowed out. But your body betrays you, fingers curling tighter into his.Ā Why does it still ache like this? Why him?
He lifts your joined hands, presses his lips to your knuckles. Soft. Reverent. "Let me show you. No rushing. Just... let me make it right. Even if it's only for tonight."
You swallow hard, mind warring with the pull low in your belly. "You can't fix it with this."
"I know." His free hand rises, hesitating before cupping your cheek. Rough palm against soft skin. "But I need to try. Need to touch you like you deserve."
His mouth brushes your forehead first. Then your temple. Apologies murmured between each press: "Sorry... so fucking sorry..." Down to your closed eyelids, your cheekbones. You shiver, breath hitching as his lips ghost the corner of your mouth.
This is dangerous,Ā your mind warns.Ā He'll break you again.Ā But when his nose nudges yours, you tilt your chin up. Just enough.
He takes it. Kisses you slow, lips parting yours with aching gentleness. Tongue slides in, tasting, coaxing. No dominance, just hunger held in check. Your hands fist his shirt, pulling him closer despite the voice screaming caution.
He breaks away, breathing ragged. "Tell me to stop. Anytime."
You don't.
His mouth trails down your jaw, nipping lightly at the hinge before sucking the pulse in your throat. Hands roam your sides, thumbs grazing under your breasts through fabric. He sinks to his knees, eyes locked on yours ā pleading, devoted.
"Please," he says, fingers hooking your shirt hem. You nod, and he peels it up, exposing skin inch by inch. Lips follow the path, kissing your ribs, the dip of your navel. "Beautiful. Always were."
Your bra comes next, unclasped with trembling fingers. He doesn't stare ā doesn't gawk. Just unhooks, slides straps down, and latches onto one nipple. Sucks slow, tongue flicking the peak while his hand kneads the other. Wet heat builds between your thighs, soaking your panties.
God, it's been too long.Ā The thought fractures as he switches sides, teeth grazing just enough to spark.
He stands, stripping his own shirt, revealing the hard planes you'd mapped before. Pants follow, cock springing free ā thick, veined, already leaking at the tip. But he doesn't press it against you. Instead, he lifts you onto the nearest surface ā a table, vanity, whatever holds āspreading your legs wide.
"Let me taste you first," he begs, voice hoarse. "Make you feel good."
Skirt shoved up, panties tugged aside. His mouth descends on your pussy without pause. Tongue flattens, licking broad stripes up your folds. Circles your clit, then sucks it between his lips. Fingers part you, one sliding in knuckle-deep, curling against that spot.
You gasp, hips bucking. "Fuckā"
"Sorry," he mumbles against your slick skin, but doesn't stop. Adds a second finger, pumping slow while his tongue spears inside, fucking you with it. Your walls clench, arousal dripping down his chin.
He remembers. Every spot.Ā The realization twists pleasure with pain, but you grind against his face anyway. He groans, vibration humming through you.
"Come for me," he urges, thumb now rubbing your clit in tight circles. Fingers thrust faster, hooking relentlessly. Pressure builds, coils tight ā then snaps. You cry out, thighs clamping his head as your pussy pulses, gushing over his tongue.
He laps it up, gentle through the aftershocks, until you're limp. Then he rises, cock nudging your entrance. Eyes search yours. "Still with me?"
"Yes," you breathe, wrapping legs around him.
He pushes in slow. Inch by inch, stretching your soaked pussy around his girth. Groans low when he's buried deep, balls pressed to your ass. "So tight. Fuck, I missed this. MissedĀ you."
Holds still, letting you adjust. Kisses your mouth, sharing your taste. Then rocks his hips. Shallow thrusts at first, grinding his pelvis against your clit. Apologies peppered between thrusts: "Sorry... love how you squeeze me... 'm sorry I hurt you..."
You claw his back, urging deeper. He obliges, pace quickening. Slams in now, hips snapping, cock dragging your walls with each plunge. Table creaks under the force.
"Harder," you demand, the hurt fuelling the need.
He flips you over, bending you forward. Hand on your hip, the other tangling in your hairānot pulling, just holding. Cock spears back in from behind, pounding your pussy. Balls slap your clit, wet sounds filling the air.
"Like this?" he grunts, free hand sliding around to pinch your nipple, then down to rub your swollen nub.
Pleasure spikes. You push back, meeting every thrust. "Yes ā fuck, don't stop."
He doesn't. Fucks you relentless, apologetic whispers turning to raw pleas. "Need you. Always needed you. Cum on my cock. Please."
It hits again, harder.
Pussy spasming, milking him as you shatter. He follows seconds later, burying deep, cock throbbing as he pumps hot cum inside you. Rope after rope, filling you until it leaks down your thighs.
You both collapse, his arms wrapping tight. Chest to your back, lips on your shoulder. "I'm sorry," he murmurs one last time, softer now. "Won't leave again."
'Can I believe him?'
The question lingers, but for now, your body hums with afterglow, mind quiet.










