Dear Kuya
The first time I met you, you were just sitting at the back of that room. You weren’t listening to the topic of that meeting, because you’re sleepy, but you were trying your best not to sleep. You were so cute that day, I just stared at you until the meeting ends.
We became friends and constantly talks. When you told me that you likes someone, there’s something inside me that hopes it was me, but no, it was my friend. You told me how much you like her and how you control your feelings because she already loves someone else.
If you only knew, I was doing the same thing too. Every time you talk about her, my heart shatters into pieces. Kuya, I know you told me that you don’t like her anymore, but as much as I wanted to believe you, there’s still a spark in your eyes whenever you talk about her. So, today, I’ve finally decided to forget about my feelings for you, because I’ve realized, it’s nonsense to wait for someone to love you, it is a waste of time to love someone secretly, especially when they already loves someone else. I’m tired of always waiting for you to talk to me first, tired of constantly checking my phone to see if you finally has a message for me. I’m tired. I’ve accepted the fact that you will never love me no matter what I do, we will not going to end up together. Yes, I want to be with you for the rest of my life, but it seems the way you treats me says otherwise, so I guess, this is finally good bye, you will not going to love me back. Reality hurts, yes, but I know, someday I will be okay. Good bye, Kuya! Thank you for those “kilig” moments.
