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"Something Just Like This" by the Chainsmokers and Coldplay is Edythe and Beau's song from Life and Death and you can't change my mind.

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I dream of a man loving me the way Niall Horan loves cardigans. Or, you know, Niall Horan falling in love with me. I'm flexible.

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Literally just a list of quotes from musicals that really speak to me/inspire me

“Everyone deserves a chance to fly” -Wicked

“Keep your eyes on the stars and your feet on the ground” -Newsies

“Everything is meant to be but nothing goes as planned” -Come From Away

“For the wretched of the Earth there is a flame that never dies, even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise” -Les Miserables

“I don’t need a life that’s normal, that’s way to far away. But something next to normal would be okay” -Next to Normal

“Life is full of contradictions, every inch a mile. At the moment we start weeping, that’s when we should smile” -The Addams Family

“You never know what life will bring, only what you bring to life. Hopes and dreams and fine imaginings, they happen in their own good time” -Bright Star

“Everybody’s got dreams. I’ve got plans” -Bonnie and Clyde

“We will be heroes with stories to tell” -Allegiance

“When life itself seems lunatic, who knows where madness lies? Perhaps to be too practical is madness. To surrender dreams — this may be madness. Too much sanity may be madness — and maddest of all: to see life as it is, and not as it should be!”-Man of La Mancha

“Give me the wings of a bird, I’ll be seen and be heard” -A LIttle Princess

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I cannot describe how much I need Lin-Manuel Miranda to win the Oscar for Encanto this year and become a PEGOT

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Just some random thoughts on the Dear Evan Hansen movie...

Below the cut for anyone who cares to read....

So I’ve listened to the cast album several times and watched a slime tutorial but have yet to see it onstage....and I have a very long history of mental health problems both within myself and within my family, so that’s where I was coming in...

Overall I was pretty happy with it and definitely cried, this is just literally a random thought dump 

*Seeing Evan at the beginning with his twitching and racing thoughts and nervousness made me feel SO SEEN.(I have severe anxiety and depression myself)

*Was Ben Platt probably too old for this role? Probably. But his performance was truly incredible and I’m glad it was preserved in this way.

*Honestly I did not feel as bad for Evan as I thought I would....really and truly after the lies began I didn’t feel hardly any sympathy for him at all. I didn’t even cry during “Words Fail” just because I felt zero sympathy for him after the lying and manipulating.

*Sincerely Me was very well filmed.

*Alana was a lot more sympathetic. I loved her new song, Amanda did a killer job. And I understand more now why Alana posted Connor’s letter, but it still doesn’t excuse it.

*Acting was good all around. Best performance I’ve ever seen Amy Adams or Julianne Moore give. Singing was also good all around, usually once Hollywood casting takes hold of a musical there’s one “singer” who sticks out like a sore thumb (looking at you Russel Crowe and Pierce Bronson) but everybody sounded good.

*I cried for the first time during “Requiem” just because that song always hits way too close to home. Long story short a family member was in and out of the hospital after multiple suicide attempts in a two year period so....yeah 

*LOVED seeing Demarius Copes, even briefly. I’d met him several times because of Newsies on tour and I loved getting to see him on the big screen. 

*Second cry was “You Will Be Found” just seeing how many people were bonded together and uplifted

*When Cynthia said to Larry “Because he wasn’t yours” I audibly gasped. Like, shit. 

*Third and biggest cry was “So Big So Small” because of course it was. May have reminded me too much of my Mom caring for me during my episodes. 

*The resolution of the movie was SO WELL EXECUTED. It solved my biggest problem with the stage show: that Evan never faced consequences for what he did. The fact that he openly admitted what he did and was shunned for it, and then the fact that he actively tried to make things right as best he could by getting to know who Conner really made him a lot more redeemable to me.

*THE VIDEO OF CONNER AND THE GUITAR I LITERALLY GASPED. THAT WRECKED ME. 

Overall I was pretty happy with it....but I will say that while I think it’s great that Dear Evan Hansen is bringing up conversations about suicide and mental health, and I think it’s great that so many people find hope/catharsis in it....I don’t know if it necessarily does that for me.

That’s just me personally, I’m not saying it’s bad. But even when the musical came out, even in that Tony season, there were shows that I found even more cathartic and beautiful (like Come From Away) and shows that I also felt dealt with trauma and mental illness in a meaningful way (Bandstand and even to an extent Anastasia) and it irritates me that so many of those shows were brushed aside because of Dear Evan Hansen’s popularity.

So while I don’t think I’ll ever go out of my way to see the musical onstage, I’m glad the movie exists and I’m glad I watched it. But I don’t think I’ll ever rewatch it multiple times like with the Come From Away proshot.(For the record that musical made me UGLY CRY and belly laugh and made me feel every human emotion that is possible in a ninety minute time span)

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My theatre company might be doing the stage adaptation of Rudolph the Rednosed Reindeer next year....

and I desperately just want to play the boss elf who screams

 “WHY WEREN’T YOU AT ELF PRACTICE?!??????”

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Found this gem from my Facebook memories...

What a mood.

And still relevant. 

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Happy birthday, Chaz Wolcott!!!!! You’re the best, and we don’t deserve you.