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24. Your top priority

Myself. I will always, always put myself first.

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21. Advice you’d give to someone else your age

Be brave. Define what you want, be very clear about it, and make your decisions around it.

I don’t know if that counts as an advice as it sounds more like a challenge. This year I made some right choices and some not-so-right ones [events are sequential].

1. Started the year by ending a sinking relationship. My ego wanted to kept going (to me it was fixable) but there are two people in a relationship and if one of them no longer wants to be in it, just do yourself a favor and let them go. Didn’t make any compromise about the degree of relationship - to me it was either we’re in a full blown relationship or total strangers. I chose the latter.

2. Said no to a person who offered something serious, because I had to compromise my idealism if I said yes (he is a non-returnee of that scholarship who currently resides abroad). I decided that I do not want to be involved with a person who will give me value/moral-related constraints. It was actually a very comfortable setting, of someone suddenly coming out of the blue to talk about very serious topics. I guess I’m more mentally prepared🙂

3. I confessed to a very good friend of mine and he turned me down. I just thought that I had to do it or else I will be haunted by the upcoming ‘what ifs’. If and when the both of us have our own partner, this relationship won’t be the same anyway - so I’d rather be very clear about my thoughts (it was more like a proposal about a possibility anyway, I didn’t like him romantically but I could).

4. I said yes to a position switch in my company for two reasons. First, the CEO asked me himself and I was too much of a pushover to say no :( Second, since I graduated from Industrial Engineering, I was curious about working for a core business function of a company, because to me IE is always more about optimizing what’s already there. Long story short, I found out that I am not a good fit for this position.

5. Said yes to a person who got mixed reviews from the people around me. But I believe that I know what I want and I am the one who’s in charge of my own situation, and it has been a wonderful 4+ months.

6. I told my superior that I am not a good fit for this position, and that this is not a field that I want to excel in. I had to define the type of position that I want to be good at, and the more I’m in this position the farther away I am going to be from where I want to be in the future. I’ve come to realized that I cannot work where the verdict is ‘good’ or ‘bad’, I need my tasks to be judged in a ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ situation. And I’m more comfortable when my jobs are all mine.

[tiba-tiba nulis panjang]

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25. A thing your life has in excess

Pilihan.

Berhubung lagi nonton Our Beloved Summer, sekalian mau bahas adegan di episode ke-6 yang lebih fokus ke kisahnya Yeonsu. Tidak seperti Ung yang lahir dari keluarga berkecukupan yang bisa hidup nyaman, Yeonsu memang harus bekerja keras, harus jadi nomor 1, supaya dia bisa dapetin apa yang dia mau. Waktu Ung tanya, emang mimpi lo apa? Yeonsu bilang bahwa dia mau dapet full-time job sesegera mungkin, dan punya uang supaya neneknya bisa berhenti kerja.

Terus responsnya Ung? “I thought you’d eye for a bigger success than that.”

It was a genuine question from Ung, tapi kalau dari sisi Yeonsu pasti itu menohok banget sih. Dia cuma mau punya hidup yang ‘normal’, yang sama kayak orang-orang lain - hidup sebagai orang yang tidak miskin. Dan Ung nggak akan mengerti 100%, sih. Bahwa Yeonsu memang nggak punya pilihan.

Dari dulu sampai sekarang alhamdulillah banget masih selalu bisa untuk memilih. Mulai dari sekolah dimana, mau bimbel dimana, mau kuliah dimana, ambil jurusan apa, pas kuliah mau ambil aktivitas apa, abis lulus mau ngapain, bisa S2, habis S2 mau ngapain, mau kerja dimana.

Anw, harus banget nonton Our Beloved Summer di Netflix.

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3. How are you working towards your goals?

Goals (plural katanya) ada beberapa sih. Pertama, mau dibayar untuk menulis karena aku suka banget menulis. Nulis pop/fiksi ataupun nulis akademik. Nulis akademik tuh ya, suka aja. Dari dulu, terutama waktu lagi super berusaha banget untuk apply beasiswa, entah udah berapa ratus jurnal juga report dari instansi macam World Bank, ADB, OECD, The Asian Foundation dll yang kubaca demi membuat narasi yang oke punya. Waktu baca selalu mikir, ini siapa sih yang nulis? Aku mau dong nulis report kayak gini, kayaknya bisa deh? Cita-cita nulis paper akademik belum kesampean sih (di-ghosting pembimbing bund), tapi insyaAllah sebentar lagi akan publish report yang aku ikut co-author-in nih. Hihi. Can’t wait to post it to my LinkedIn🤣

Kedua adalah tentang menjadi penulis fiksi populer. Asli kalo liat betapa populernya Ntsana aka Rintik Sedu suka heran banget. Waktu itu baca buku minta dibanting-nya di Gramed, pengen w banting beneran rasanya. Pas nyoba denger Spotify-nya, baru bentar udah w matiin lagi karena ini orang ngomong apasik. Tapi yasudahlah, mungkin aku memang bukan target pasarnya. Tapi terkenal banget gils udah mana engagement super tinggi. Sungguh halu kalau pengen bisa sepopuler dia tapi ya 1/10 nya aja bolelah. Mau donggg dikenal karena karya (yang berkualitas). [Jujurly Gitasav juga jadi point of reference sih ya walau dia banyak blundernya wk I guess I just want to be heard].

Ketiga, tentang per-karir-an, sejujurnya masih mikir sih aku pengennya dimana, aku bagusnya dimana. Tapi yang jelas aku udah tahu bidang-bidang apa aja yang masuk klasifikasi gk dulu mkasy. Masih ada keinginan untuk bekerja di bidang-bidang yang berkaitan dengan data, dengan interaksi manusia yang minimal, karena sebagai introvert my dream job would be getting things done from my own computer, finishing a task that is 100% my own. Ku gak suka depend on other people and I have problem with ownership especially when things are shared. Udah enroll Google Analytics di Coursera tapi belum dibuka HAHA ayolah menjadi istiqamah.

Keempat, cita-cita masa depan pengen jadi kayak Diana Rikasari atau Geneva Vanderzeil atau Ditut yang berkreasi aja gitu. Tetep di spare time sih sepertinya karena kayanya aku merasa tetep akan butuh pekerjaan beneran for the sake of security dan menghindari fomo. Haha.... Terus kaya ya sayang aja gitu udah belajar susah-susah. Masih pengen PhD juga sihhh sekarang, tapi nanti deh dipikirkan lagi akan ambil topik apa dan dimana. Pengen di Eropa lagi.

Setelah dipublish baru sadar ini tulisan tidak menjawab pertanyaan yang emphasize on How? Supaya bisa jadi penulis berbayar, sekarang alhamdulillahnya berkesempatan join writing project, dan mudah-mudahan kalo ada kerjaan lain aku akan diajak lagi sih. Plus planning for a PhD. Hhe. Untuk jadi penulis populer, mungkin berharap tiba-tiba orang pada baca aja kali ya tulisanku di blog-blog gini terus tiba2 ada yang mau publish🤪. Pernah bikin Wattpad tapi gak istiqamah nih. Untuk perkariran, aku mencoba untuk mengambil keputusan berdasarkan bertanyaan ‘will this take me closer or further away from where I want to be?’ (already made one unsuitable decision but well let’s hope we can get back on track). Untuk otw jadi DR atau GV, yah sebenernya aku udah bisa jait sih. Tinggal mengumpulkan motivasi dan waktu luang dan juga rasa pede untuk upload hal-hal ke sosmed.

[Liat rate postingan KOL yang bombastis tiap bulannya membuatku termotivasi untuk jadi selebgram aja tapi apa yg bisa kujual pun. Terus kenapa rate-nya begini amat sungguh bumi langit dengan para umbi]

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17. The best gift you could receive

Certainty, security, stability.

Comfort.

Convenience.

The things that make life so much easier and the privilege that could let me focus on other things.

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28. The person you’re always happy to see

My mom.

I believe that everything is going to be all right for as long as she’s around.

Us in front of the Louvre, Summer 2019.

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30. The time of day you prefer

After 5pm. After official office hour ends. And the sky slowly turned from blue to reddish pinkish violet-ish beauty. Knowing that I got time to rest before tomorrow comes.