You've been telling me that someday in the future we might be together. Then I saw a quote one day. It said, " But saying, 'if we are supposed to be together, it will happen' is absolute bullshit. That's not how love or anything like that works. You make a choice to love someone...you make a choice. This isn't fate or happenstance, it's a damn choice that you make every damn day. 'Maybe we will end up together" has no say in this." It got me thinking. You have the fucking choice to chose me and you didn't. You've lead me on so many times but, then backed out because you couldn't handle me. I hate you for that because now I have to wake up every fucking day and wonder why the hell I wasn't good enough. I tried so hard to be with you. I am the way I am now, because of you. I changed myself so much for you, and now it's all to shit, but you know what? I'm a better person because of it. And I know that I am someone who deserves so much more than you. You will search for me in every other person, I promise you that. Because I'm done with you and your shit. So fuck you because I was good enough for you and you ruined me because you just didn't see it. I stayed up every night to talk to you. I defend your name when what everyone was saying was true. I fought with and lost people for you. I stopped doing things I loved because of you. I wouldn't move on because you kept telling me "someday." I cried because of you. You had me to the point where I would have left the whole world behind for you, but you didn't see it. You had a real one and you lost it. It's sad though because once you have true feelings for someone, it will always be there. I may not like you anymore, but I will always love you. What hurts the most was realizing we could have made it work. If you were truly in love with me, you would have fought for me. But you didn't and that just means I loved you more than you loved me. And I'm okay with that, because like I said you lost the best thing that could have happened to you. I'm too good for someone who isn't sure about me. So someday in the future when you see me, I hope your heart ache's because you see me giving someone else the attention I once gave you. I'll look even more beautiful than ever, and you'll panic because you lost me and you can never have me back. You can just watch me loving someone else, and then you'll finally understand my pain and my tears. And I won't go back to you, because someone was ready for me right away while you were still waiting for fate. I also remember one day you said to me that I couldn't live without you. You know what though? Same goes for you cause we orbit around each other. But you know what? Don't ever think I need you, because at one point we didn't know each other and I was doing just fine. Will you still cross my mind every once and a while? Yes. And will I cross yours? Absolutely. But who's going to hurt more? Me or you? You because you lost me. I know I keep saying it's your loss, but deep down I know it's mine too. I know I'll be fine without you, I'll even be happy but it would have been so much easier to be happy with you. I don't regret you though, but sometimes I wish I had walked away at the start and left things at hello. So FUCK YOU... because I AM DONE waiting.
