I wanna be so feminine that people stop assuming that I’m a fully cis woman and just loop back around to “third, worse thing.” I wanna be feminine presenting in an uncomfortable way. I want to be so girl it’s not girl anymore and it’s ethereal and otherworldly and eldritch and threatening. if people wanna refer to me by she/her I want them to do it with uncertainty bc they don’t know if I should even be referred to at all. I want my presence to instill dread and yet undeniable attraction into the hearts of those who perceive me. I want people to be afraid to look me in the eyes for too long bc they might go mad. I want people to want to run when they see me but freeze because they know running will only provoke me. I want people to genuinely believe that I am an old god who woke from a long slumber and took a vaguely human form to learn about modern human society and thus trying to place me into a human-gender-box-thing won’t work.
