#demisexual thoughts

[agoodpretender]

I think this is probably a pretty common reason, but one thing I really like about AJR’s music is that romance is rarely the main focus. (I like the Turning Out trilogy, and I think part iii is especially well written and poignant, but those songs aren’t in my top favorites.)

There’s obviously nothing wrong with artists who focus on romance, but it’s usually just not my thing. So it’s great to be able to put on any AJR album and know that most of the songs are about mental health, becoming an adult, non-romantic relationships, and other subjects that either hit harder for me or interest me more.

[cosmicqueenieb]

my journey with asexuality & demisexuality has truly been one of the best ones. but it's also been one of the most difficult.

i was in a "relationship" with someone who told me like 7 or 8 months into talking & 1 month into officially dating that they realized they needed sex in a relationship.

realistically, i understood this, you know? I mean obviously I was sad & confused as to why they realized or vocalized it so late when i made them aware from the beginning that sex may not be a possibility in our relationship. what confused me a little more was that covid had just begun so they weren't going to be having sex with anyone ANYWAY but whatever I guess.

that experience haunts me though, regardless. I wonder if every relationship will be like that. I wonder if all my relationships with allosexuals will be "waiting games" until they finally tell me they can't be with me. it makes me scared and nervous, worse when I'm already scared and nervous of being alone.

all my friends have either had sex or done sexual things & i feel like I'm falling behind in a race i never even wanted to run in to begin with.

I think of that Janelle Monáe song "Screwed" a lot. "everything is sex, except sex, which is power". and I've been struggling to find my rhythm in a world like that.

I'm just writing this cause I'm scared & I feel alone & I hope this comforts someone out there.

[almost-sans]

the wildest thing i experince today, finding that, yes i am in fact demiromantic & demisexual. no matter how i feel & experince other formes of attraction. or who im attracted.

also i'm in fact that i'm turian t4t. i also go with polysexual since it fits too. so poly turian works & i'm so happy figuring out this aspects about me.

intersex nonbinary demi poly turian & polyamours is my full label

[beryl-emerald123]

Fictional men that reminded me that i love men

-Neji hyuga

-Silver (pokemon rival)

-Guzma (pokemon again)

-Nanu (lol judge me all you want)

-Samurai Jack (yeah, many childhood crushes)

-Link (loz… tlp, botw, yeah should i explain myself?)

-Gakupo Kamui (samurai vocaloid)

-Wu Ping (nothing gold can stay)

-Seymour (ghost world movie… lol yeah he’s a cutie after all that nerdy collector side)

-Morimura Sakuya (tokimemo girl’s side 1, a total nerd of plants softboi)

(Sorry couldn’t find a gif for him)

-fox mccloud (yeahhh, more silly crushes that confuse me sometimes)

Those are all i remember for now, so in conclusion i love long haired guys, with a soft side and cold or timid side perhaps, or mostly gentle and caring with their loved one

This list might grow,,, and it might kill my phone midnight

Ok end of my fangirl night thoughts

[minyyard]

Everyone wants me for sex but no one wants me to tell them that none of it was accidental and the first night that they saw me nothing was gonna stop me, I laid the groundwork and just like a clockwork the dominoes cascaded in a line, 'cause I'm a mastermind and now they're mine.

[akainanashi]

Cole: Is it weird that I find the idea of us getting matching red and blue yin yang tattoos appealing but not actually want it?

BF: I could see that.

Cole: But it would have to be in the same place. Like on our forearms so when we hold hands and our arms press against each other that the tattoos then makes a whole yin yang.

Bf: gaah so sweet

Cole: I am sugar. oAo

[sinistralcentaur]

Cute is a lifestyle. It's a way of existing. Cute does not rely on aesthetics. Cute IS the aesthetic. It just is okay gosh.

[benevolentgiraffe]

Thoughts

So I've been thinking a lot lately... I used to think calling myself bisexual (though I've only come out to a few people) was pretty accurate, but the more I think about it, the more I think I might be more bi-romantic/demisexual? I just... There've only be been a handful of people I've done anything sexual with and really only one I've actively sought to be sexual with (as opposed to kinda being more coerced/pressured into it). I also think I tend to lean more toward a sexual attraction to women, but at the same time, there are definitely guys I've been attracted to? And some genderqueer/genderfluid/no binary people... Idk. I just... am getting kinda anxious and stressed because this really sweet friend is trying to set me up with an older guy friend and just... it feels so awkward. And now that I've said I'm not necessarily uninterested, I feel bad for doubting. Maybe he's a great guy and maybe it'd be cool and work out, but I just... I've been single, minus a few make-out sessions/awkward near-hookups for like... 2-3 ish years? Ugh, this is all so confusing and frustrating. I just want someone to cuddle with and maybe make out with and maybe feel comfortable being intimate with, but finding any sort of queer people seems like such a challenge. Like, if I list myself as bi then I just get weird guys messaging me or awkward couples for threesomes and shit. I don't necessarily think I'd have a problem with a mildly poly relationship, if I found the right people. But I don't want that for casual shit. Sorry. Lots of random texting and thoughts. I feel so awkward when people talk about wanting to set me up because I'm 28 years old and still single and all my friends are in relationships or having kids or something... Just... So many jumbled thoughts... And not many people to really comfortably talk to... Hmm.