for the character ask game: Akutagawa, since you already got an Atsushi ask~
*turns around, fluttering eyelashes*
Oh, me? Oh, no, I definitely wasn't just waiting for that name to appear in my inbox, why would you even think that, it's not like the character attached to it has already been running through my head all day every day every moment of my joyous life every fragment of my time on this earth it's not like I had this questionnaire already half prepar-
Oh. This man. This man has THE MOST compelling character development in the whole series. Possibly even out of all media I've ever consumed. It is impossible to put this little fella in a box. He's Rashomoning his way out of the boundaries of any coming-from-a-13-year-old mentally deficient take on his character that tries to paint him in solid blocks of black and white. Nu-uh, my man here is a whole rainbow (also very gay but that's beside the point), he has so many nuances and flavors he might as well be a 10-course 5 Michelin star meal. He has single handedly broken EVERY SINGLE stereotype for an antagonist and even recently turned co-protagonist.
He is a marvel; he has the heart of an angel and the soul of a devil; he is flawed; he has so many damn issues; he is so fucking hot; also kinda funny ngl; he is a born protector, nourished as a murderer; he is the heartless cur with a heart on fire, burning with the the desire to live, to love, to feel, yet he CANNOT because this wretched world of pain and death and senseless duty is his damnation and you are damn right he is going to crawl his way out of this living hell, find his purpose and make this right.
Non-existent. Next question. :D
listen lisTen LIsteN i DO NOT care this is an internal thought and not spoken dialogue, okay? good. gooood good good. lemme explain myself as eloquently as i can without going insane (i am already insane ty)
This is a turning point for his whole character arc and the new beginning he so desperately needed to go on living. It is the moment of revelation, of clarity, of finding his purpose, escaping the clutches of his false deity, of reaching the light - giving into it, surrendering all of himself, wholly and truly. It is a moment of transcendence, of gazing upon the soul of his rival and seeing nothing but his own fractured reflection, of embracing all of his vices and virtues and giving them a new meaning, a new life, purpose, reason. It is acceptance and understanding and it is everything it was meant to be from the very beginning. He was meant to grow, he was meant to find love, he was meant to not only survive but to thrive, flourish.
He was born with the most kind and gentle and caring heart, only for it to be ripped from his clutches, shattered across the corpses of his family and buried into the ground where he too belonged. But he never gave into his wretched fate, never listened to the voices, never stopped trying and trying over and over. No. He hung onto the thinnest sliver of hope for existence, seeking something that truly matters. And look just where he found it…
Oh, I have so many here, I don’t even know where to start. So many possibilities for wholesome platonic dynamics.
Aku & Gin - they sooooo need to interact more in canon, I love love love tragic siblings to my bones.
Beast!Aku & Kenji - I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Farmer Aku = Best Aku. Their unlikely friendship is my favourite part of Beast and you know that monologue about the world in halves, yea, that always makes me cry.
Aku & Tachihara - I got this idea from a fanfic (waiting room btw, i can never recommend this one enough) and I’m still not over it. I believe they would make for a fun duo in canon too, given the right opportunity. I sense a lot of fun brotherly protective shenanigans if Tachigin comes into the picture too tehee.
Aku & Chuuya - Chuuya is the best thing to happen to Aku in the Mafia, so that one’s pretty self explanatory. I imagine Chuuya as being very supportive and understanding, which would soothe the wound left by Dazai - for both of them, actually.
MMMMmmmmmm yea I can’t really make the same joke twice, gets old, gotta think of a new one, ahem…
A boy with righteous soul,
with the most heroic goal -
to bring the world to light,
meets the deadliest of plight.
A soul with no compassion,
in a savage, brutal fashion.
With destiny of bone and blood,
to wither, crawl into the mud.
Until he found a strength reborn,
in this world dark, forlorn.
In the eyes of fated partner
who turned to fallen martyr.
He cried out, born of fire,
with a need so raw and dire,
to reverse the flow of time,
and return that which was mine.
He swore to take him back,
for the boy became his heart,
his hope and reason, fate,
Until their destined meeting,
in a world lone and fleeting.
Where he needn’t fight alone,
as he found his mirrored soul.
…ye, it’s sskk, big surprise here <3 (yes i wrote that in an hour literally only for the sole purpose of not repeating the jest from the Atsushi one yes)
Okay after spilling my heart out in every possible shape and form of poetic ramblings about what I love, it’s a bit hard for me to discuss that which I do not. But it’s Akuhigu, of course, simple as that. It’s not even because “oh it gets into the way of sskk bla bla bla,” no - it’s just genuinely plainly unhealthy as it is even on its own. I feel bad for Higuchi (even tho I accept her role as a character as a reference to irl!Akutagawa’s work) and I’m always going to pray that someday she gets the spotlight she deserves, preferably aside from being a manifestation of Akutagawa’s shadow.
He has the biggest collection of expensive tea and is soooo judging Atsushi for drinking the cheap supermarket stuff and daring to call that muddied water tea. He also has regular ‘tea dates’ with Gin where they chill with a book and a cup in hand and argue on their favourite flavors.
*cough* bottom aku *cough cough cough* if u know me, u know *faints dramatically to reinforce my statement*
Song I associate with them
Ye, you can blame @gothicmatter again for this one - absolutely and definitely and certainly “Sacrifice” by London After Midnight. I have this shit ingrained in my brain and it is not etching itself out anytime soon. I still listen to it at least once every few days.
Darkness is all I want to see
I could never put in to words
What it is you mean to me
is spinning in my head like the Cosmo Clock at all times.
Oh. Oh, this is where we get um,, how do I say it… a bit unhinged.
HAVE YOU SEEN THOSE MAN’S THIGHS OH MY GOD LOOK AT HIM FFS HOW DARE HE I CANNOT EVEN TAKE HIM DYING SERIOUSLY WITH THIS LITTLE CUNTY SLICK TO HIS BODY OUTFIT. BRO, ATSUSHI, MY MAN, IF YOU WILL NOT, THEN I WILL.
EXCUSE ME UMM WHO DO YOU THINK GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO LOOK LIKE THIS WHILE GETTING STABBED MY DUDE I AM TRYING MY HARDEST TO PAY ATTENTION TO THE PLOT HERE YOU CANNOT JUST PULL THAT FACE WITH BLOOD SMEARED ACROSS YOUR CHEEK AND LIPS AND TEETH AND EXPECT ME NOT TO BO-
