A healthy obsession

Denaia (also on ao3) but call me Den <3 || SSKK, that’s it, that’s the blog || Fics: denaia writes || Art: denaia draws || Wife and eternal soulmate, the night to my day: @gothicmatter

[dancing-dawn]

Le Baiser

| the original | close-up under the cut...

[snows-aquarium]

the case is cooked bro 🗣️🗣️

[vero-niche]

based on my most recent major fandom experiences

[doctorweebmd]

Everything in Halves, Chapter 16

Part 2 of this labor of love 18 months in the making now finished; Akutagawa says goodbye to BEAST World - but not to the scars it's left him

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[badbungoustraydogaus]

BSD AU where everything is the same but Akutagawa wears a maid dress

[kyouka-supremacy]

Happened to my dear friend Asagiri

[kyouka-supremacy]

Happy pride month

[dancing-dawn]

happy pride from my boy <3

[iwamimimimi]

[fuer-diesen-sommer]

Information

[onionstar123]

To all the fanfic writers and potential fanfic writers out there. Write more poetry. Unconventional format. Abstract structure. Experimental style. Deconstruction. Just pure poetry.

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[dancing-dawn]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

Aaaaaah yes time to mercilessly rank my babies, thank you for the opportunity!

memories of a fleeting night

I cannot begin to explain the retrograde amnesia this fic has given me. To say it’s my favourite and most important (to me) thing I’ve ever written would do it a disservice. I’ve monologued to Kat 3 separate times about it as I reread it, each time forgetting I’ve already done that, and each time a slightly different copy of the same sentiment - I forgot I wrote this. I don’t feel worthy to claim ownership of it in my current state of mind. I don’t know the person I was when I wrote this. I wish I could leave myself a biblical-length comment on it because I feel so emotionally distant from its author I just can’t believe it’s me. Funny that at this point I think Kat knows it word by word by how many times I know she’s read it, and I on the other hand manage to forget every single word, even though I remember every moment of my writing process, without exaggeration… So I guess the title I came up with one day on a whim had some merit after all.

2. a melody

Ah yes, my other undoing :)

3. i found you there, looking through the shattered glass

The one I’m most proud of I think. The chapel scene still haunts me. There’s also a discussion to be had on how I perceive the characters of Atsu and Aku as a whole because I show it best in this one.

4. nights of shrouded fear

My essence as a person in a fic.

5. The heartless cur, with heart ablaze

Where it all started. Not by any means my most technically skillful poem (that title should go to some others from my escapril series), because I do believe I got better with each one after, but this is how I found myself in this whole beautiful mess of creation at all. I would have never written any of the above if not for this one. And I still remember where it sits in my sketchbook and how I wrote with such urgency in the bus on my way home as if my life depended on it. Well,  to some extent, I guess it did.

[fori-the-fool]

Ten People You'd Like to Know Better

Thanks to @unconsciousxreality, @tobyig, and @greatcrestednewt for tagging me :D

Last song(s): Her - Jvke ft. Annika Wells / Neon Odyssey - The Midnight & Avantris / Never Love an Anchor - Crane Wives Currently watching: Tornado/Storm Event studies on Youtube and various Star Wars things (Animated, Live Action, just whatever tbh) Current obsession: At this EXACT moment? That'd be Fi and Jesse lol But also Kes and the Batch/the long fic I'm writing of them, as well as the DnD AU of them. Currently reading: Fics. All the fics. Been on a ObiMaul kick tbh Currently working on: The Kes/Batch long fic (Working title is Blur of Consequences), a one shot of when Kes and Echo met before the events of Blur, and I'm currently in the planning stages for Fi/Jesse fic (ᵕ ó ᴗ ò) Last Google search: How to un-fold our electric lawnmower lol

And some no pressure tags :D

@tiwaenriel @cyarex @jetii @onedeadlurker @onemass @vimse @ct7567329 @daidrm @isaut @vaderxvibes

[tiwaenriel]

hi, hi, tysm for tagging me!!! ^^

Last song: “Dark Angel” by Lalleshwari (Katie Jane Garside)

Currently (Re)Watching: Pokémon and ATLA!

Current obsession: still clone wars, but specifically my ocs. They haunt my thoughts 24/7 lmfao.

Currently Reading: “Alas, Babylon” by Pat Frank

Currently working on: getting better at art (digital and traditional), and writing a fic about Mustang and Vermillion!

Last Google search: pink haired girl from Ponyo (it was Gran Mamare I was looking for; I wanted to inspire a character after her).

Aaaaand tagging (no pressure):

@tobyig @sequestered-jester @t4ckie-j4ckie @suborbitalrailgun @jesuswarriordaughter @drowninginmytbr @docilechagrin @sleepyyecho @monoetr @elealovesstarwars @riaheatsdrywall

[t4ckie-j4ckie]

:> :3 :} thanks for the tag :}

Last song: Not by Big Theif Currently watching: Rainworld lore videos on YT, specifically on the Watcher DLC Current obsession: Star wars,,, specifically Mandalorian culture + my ocs Currently Reading: Started the Republic Commando novels, halfway through Triple Zero Currently working on: Tattoo 'map'/showcase for my oc Roscoe Arazu, as well as worldbuilding for mandalorian culture again Last google search: "raptor tail dinosaur" - I was doing some creature design and needed a good ref aha

Tagging (no pressure !!): @ladyknight33 @whoops-junk-drawer @dick-djarin

[whoops-junk-drawer]

Last songs: I Want To Know What Love Is - Foreigner, Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears, Time - Pink Floyd

Currently Watching: nothing in particular. Mostly tornado videos on the ol ‘tube

Current Obsession: STAR WAR!!!! TAR WARS!!!! CLONES!!!

Currently Reading: my own writing! I’ve passed the “writing spree” stage and entered the “reread your own fics and then kick yourself for not finishing them” stage.

Currently Working On: Various outfit/set design pieces for my ocs! I’ve finally pushed myself to flesh out the places these people are visiting/living. I’ve had them for almost three years and I’ve only just gotten around to it. But hey! I’ve gotten round to it! Yay!

Last Google Search: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (I may have it, I was googling symptoms, lmao). And the one before that was “normal blood pressure by age group”. So I guess I’m more of a hypochondriac than I thought i was?

Tagging (first time, kinda nervous 👉👈)

@t9909-gk @qalanthe @mistycatt (can I tag people who aren’t my mutuals?? What is etiquette) @eobe (oh no I don’t have ten. Send me to the plinko or something)

[mistycatt]

thank you for the tag !!

hi I’ve never done one of these even though I’ve been tagged in a bajillion of them

here we go..

last song: graduate by third eye blind

currently watching: clone wars… again

current obsession: obi wan still. Specifically I’ve been thinking about obi wan directly after order 66 but haven’t drawn it because I don’t usually like drawing sad stuff.

currently reading: rogue planet !! Yay Star Wars book

currently working on: drawing Obi wan. I want to draw him in mando armor and also do some codywan art. I have a whole list of things my friend Finn wants me to work on lol. Also my codywan fic I’ve been working on for months that I’ve hardly made progress on. I’m no author lol

last google search: “jar har” I was trying to type Jar Jar but something went wrong in the process 😔😔💔💔

tags (you don’t have to lol): @finlayflop @atomicheart99 @therestlessbones @coolskeleton66 @coquette-corpsie @saigesays @yapofalltrades

hope I did this right lol

[coolskeleton66]

THANKS FOR THE TAG !!

last songs: gommene gommene ft hatsune miku by kikuo, ego renegade boy ft kagamine len by flavor foley, king for a day by green day

currently watching: heated rivalry, South Park, and sw rebels

current obsession: anakin, Vocaloid, and friedrich Engels (I know everyone's favorite trio). Also vtubers cause im getting back into live2d

currently reading: random medical and forensics case studies and also fan fiction (for Star Wars and Dexter!)

currently working on: 3 indie game projects, a vtuber rig who I've been procrastinating, 2 fan fics (one which I posted and is time travel but hasn't had an update in like idk how long and another which I hope can see the light of day one day), a cal kestis and oc drawing for a moot (I love them/p), a codywan drawing that's stuck in the idk what I'm doing stage, and an anidala drawing in a similar stage last Google search: ao3 (pretty self explanatory)

no pressure tags: @pbpiewrites2018 @hearteyesllc @shiny3chariot @stupidlilguy3 @iolesbookshelf @type-40-nightingales @linosadobo @coquette-corpsie @starwarsnerd457 @clearmintjelly

[pbpiewrites2018]

THANKS FOR THE TAG !!

last songs: Across the Stars, How Lin-Manuel Miranda Orders a Pizza by Daniel Thrasher, Heart Attack by Demi Lovato and Mr. Darkside by Sub-Radio

currently watching: The Clone Wars 2008, probably gonna rewatch some Star Wars movies, probably gonna rewatch Tom Holland's Spider-Man trilogy in preparation for Brand New Day

current obsession: Star Wars (the prequels and the clone wars)

currently reading: Clone Wars: Wild Space

currently working on: The first fanfic in my Happy AU series where Palpatine dies, Padme lives, there's no Empire, and everyone is happy apart from Anakin apparently (don't worry he'll get there). I'm trying to write it realistic in the sense that this is what I think would have really happened if the story played out like this, but I think only the first story will have any politics in it. I love the in universe politics of Star Wars, I think they're fascinating and I wish there was more information out there on it, but there's not. Making random stuff up is exhausting. I don't want to do too much research, so I'm just going to write Happy Skywalker Family fluff and angst instead of galaxy altering shit lol

Google search: How do court trials work in Star Wars? (literally no info on Wookieepedia...)

No pressure tags: @magmeter @user24709 @evildala @herowithfears @vaderscurls @aquaeclipse @anakin03986 @panakin-crywalker + Anyone else who wants to join in!!!!

[user24709]

thanks for the tag!!

last songs: underground, i choose you, ufo, sugar free venom, instruction, magic clock

currently watching: taxi driver season 2, good morning call, trying to force myself to finish jjk, gonna start if wishes could kill and the other maze runner movies

current obsession: f5ve

currently reading: myriad and random aot fanfics

currently working on: doing as much revision i can for end of year exams then i'll carry on with my mystery fanfic

last google search: ammonia (i needed the structural formula for an equation)

npt: @holyspirit6 @fairyprincessqueen14 @unapologeticpristinelamb @divinebitch16 @actually-an-angel @t-bird510 + open tags!

[holyspirit6]

Ty @user24709

Last songs: idk Depeche Mode or smth

Currently watching: st season 3 finale (rewatch) and I think the red shoes

Current obsession: Kyle maclachlan or Hayden Christensen

Currently reading: are you there god?, it’s me Margaret and re-reading a fanfic on here

Currently working on: trying to forget something that happened yesterday 😁

Last google search: ‘soundtrack twin peaks Barnes and noble’

🏷️: @sincereleedoll @divinebitch16 @beethovnerotica @babybutterflybree @flowersfromunderground @girlrottinginmyroomallday + open tags

[flowersfromunderground]

Thank yuuu for the tag @holyspirit6

Last songs: by your side by Sade, like a tatto by Sade, you got time and I got money smerz

Currently watching: (alr finished) Nuovo Cinema Paradiso (Absolute cinema btw)

Current obsession: blueberries

Currently reading: The myth of sisyphus

Currently working on: surviving the heat wave

Last Google search: asked gemini for a tip

Tagging: @actualyer1caa @cupcak3angel @cvntyaddi @violetisheresworld @daydreamsoull @etherealghostgirlll @kirby6aero @wowbyselene @chaos4ngel

[actualyer1caa]

thank youuu for the tag @flowersfromunderground <3

Last songs: Vogue by Madonna,Deceptacon by Le Tigre,Milion Dollar man by Lana del rey

Currently watching: The vampire diaries

Current obsession: kitten heels

Currently reading : White Nights by Dostoevskij

Currently working on : trying to lose weight

Last google search : an interview with Alex Consani

@wildnickk @wowbyselene @violetisheresworld and then I don't know anyone 👌🏻

[wowbyselene]

thx for the tag!

last songs — Poesie Clandestine, LDA and Aka7evn; Dimmelo tu, Lorenzo Salvetti; Vodka Cranberry, Conan Gray

currently watching — house md rewatch, money heist (la casa de papel) rewatch

current obsession — body tops and jorts

currently reading — haikyuu manga vol. 2 (acc I've just finished it)

currently working on — not on exams cos they're definitely doneeeee yayyyyyy. reuploading all my old fics and I've got two new ones in the making (I'm stuck as hell)

last google search — "la casa di carta in inglese" didn't know what money heist was in english so i had to put it up

npt ☞ @potterheadlovespotter @tc-selmarillian @ryomenlettuce @ghostedgwen

[tc-selmarillian]

Thanks for the tag!!

Last songs: 3 min 29 sec by hitorie (86 op 1), A Thousand Years by John Mitchell Howell, JVKE and ZVC, and Auburn by Halfy and Winks

Currently watching: JJK. Started today and im on ep. 11... (I dont have a problem its fine), Witch Hat Atelier, and Lego Ninjago rewatch

Current obsession: uhh im not sure? Mostly focused on trying not to die from my allergies 😭

Currently reading: the 86 light novels, Gachiakuta manga and Wind and Truth by Brandon Sanderson

Currently working on: learning how to draw and reviving my writing (im so rusty 💔)

Last google search: "what's an ube" its a purple yam

Tags: @kagstobioisthelightofmylife @chaosplatypus @toorubae @akaashiit

[kagstobioisthelightofmylife]

thanks for the tag @tc-selmarillian!!

last songs: Above the Chinese Restaurant (Laufey), Castle in Hollywood (Laufey), Bleed (Malcolm Todd) (can we tell i love laufey)

currently watching: ouran highschool host club! just finished it and planning to watch sk8 the infinity next

current obsession: multiple i fear 💔 but as of recent it's been kageyama and ouran high school host club (I LOVE KYOYA episode 8 who...)

currently reading: GSGW (CAN'T WAIT FOR THE MANHWAAA), Skool of Street, Blue Lock

currently working on: figuring out how to use krita + relearn digital art

last google search: above the chinese restaurant chords (can we tell i love laufey)

np tagss: @jackalthehyena @sh0dor1 @f2lix @lemonsunnyhoney @ackermanandsukuna @reikodashi @umemiyaaya @kitasbunni

[lemonsunnyhoney]

thanks for the double tag @kagstobioisthelightofmylife and @ackermanandsukuna

Last songs: we're fleeting by them and I (highly recommend giving a listen!!), midnight pretenders by tomoko aran, sunset garage by sunroom, you call by beach snowmen (has to be one of my all time favs)

Currently watching: well i literally finished haikyuu the other day so im in a break before I start jjk. im also watching witch hat atelier

Current obsession: ooooof this is hard. uuuum i low key have a massive crush rnnn hahaahha soooooooo 🫡😅 but fandom obsession has to be haikyuu or wha

Currently reading: oop it's been a bit since ive read non fanfic books loll. for the fanfics it'd have to be asterism by pendragonsalley and for the reg books it'd be the strength of the few by james islington

Currently working on: my teashop au fic for witch hat atelier called witches brew!!

Last Google search: pinterest i love me my reaction images

no pressure lovelies: @only-a-randomcabin6demigoddess @tbh-yousuck @dancing-dawn + open bc idk if the rest of you are cool with being tagged! :D

[dancing-dawn]

Oooh thank you for tagging me! I think I've done this one once long ago, it will be funny to compare my answers to my part self now oki

Last song: phew thank god this asks for a last and not fave song or we'll be here all day haha, I'd say "When You Don't See Me" by Sisters of Mercy—and extra points if you're a WHA fan and read the lyrics and know exactly why I'm crazy insane and mad about it <3

Currently watching: so many things and so few things at once. but mainly Bridgerton with my man (very unironically enjoying it yes), and the WHA anime alone when I need a cheer-up-cheat

Current obsession: Orufrey :)

Currently reading: 'Queen of the Damned' by Anne Rice but actually multitasking the audiobook during office hours and crying about [redacted] :)))))))

Currently working on: technically all my fics are in stagnation now but I did start one fic and one poem for—well at that point it's obvious for whom—but rn I prefer to absorb as many fics as possible before writing my own, yk to get the general climate better. So my real work consists of chipping at my "Qifrey ❧ but goth(icmatter it)" playlist. And holding a metaphorical cigar to my face like that one guy from the meme. The songs which are in my grasp were whispered to me by the devil I think

Last google search: "j frederick smith" because I saw an orufrey art inspired by their work and wanted to know what's up

some tags maybe: @solsticelosthermind @abstract-moth @mikayuumouse @lalaurelia @brashbuddy @theymustbehereforthesheep

[stupidlittlespirit]

This is so silly but I'm watching a short video essay on sincerity in cinema and the creator is talking about how he watched Lord of the Rings for the first time at 17. He explains that he'd grown so used to the 'ironic' meta style commentary in the movies of the 2010's that as he was watching the opening narration of LotR, he spent the entire time waiting for the joke to come. For someone to take it all back with a zinger line. He listened to Blanchett describe and explain the backstory, and he waited for the other comedic shoe to drop.

And he kept doing it. Scene after scene.

He spent the film expecting someone to make a joke about how unserious things were or to break the fourth wall or do some other self referential type thing.

Now, maybe I'm just at that point in my cycle or maybe I'm too delicate in general, but I literally teared up hearing that. Straight up cried a bit. It is so fucking sad that sincerity and genuineness is being bred out of people.

People say all the time 'this generation can't take anything seriously!' and really, is it any wonder? Younger people have been trained out of it. You are no longer encouraged to be genuine or show emotion or be honest. You are actively punished for it. In fact, you are almost guaranteed to suffer for it.

That is so fucked up. I'm sorry to go on a bit of a random ramble rant but it's so fucking gut wrenching to see younger people lose that element of themselves. You can't express your passion without being told you're 'crashing out' or 'cringe'. You have to live in this neutral state of fear of perception, and god forbid anybody step outside of it!

You're told you should only consume and succumb and be ironic and emotionless and cool.

Listen, if you're following me and you're like.... 25 or under, let's say. Please. I beg of you. Do not fall for this rhetoric. Please, for the love of all things, feel. Feel and create and be honest with yourself. Indulge in things that make you happy. Be sincere. Wear your heart on your sleeve. Do not let this hyper-capitalistic, hyper-consumerist, self-centred, individualist culture take that from you.

Bleed yourself into the work you create. Live. Don't fucking let anyone tell you different.

[lalaurelia]

it's getting harder to hold a conversation in some spaces these days, because god forbid anyone says anything sincere, anything that's close to their skin, and so we can't connect for the risk of being mocked.

be sincere, be earnest, love recklessly with your full heart.

[promptsforthesoul]

Favorite way to write?

Computer

Tablet

Cell phone (I’m evil)

Pen and paper

Typewriter

Sit back and stare at the ceiling imagining my blorbos running around

Wait, you guys are writing?

Voting ended onJun 2

[promptsforthesoul]

Reading the tags on this is my favorite thing. Keep it up.

[lalaurelia]

computer is best for me, as i type a lot quicker on the familiar big keyboard. but the phone could also work sometimes, and also it's a way for me to continue writing when not at home.

[iwamimimimi]

*poked head around corner* Hiii

I was wondering if you would mind sharing what your drawing process looks like? I'm just getting into digital art and I'm curious how you do things!!

also please never stop drawing your sskk art brings joy and whimsy to my days <3 <3 <3

[slothfail]

BSD Band!AU posters !!

-I did this posters like 2 years ago with a Band!AU silly idea I got but really lost interest too fast, still feels like a waste to not show you this posters, wich I feel very proud of how they look so yeah (I wish to print them someday) -context(?: For years I liked the idea of Ranpo and Poe being on a band and singing sad songs to each other (surprise surprise another ranpoe AU), here Mushitaro is the main singer, Poe is the electric guitar and the co-singer, Ranpo is the saxophone, Sigma the bass. How they sound? I have no clue I just thought those instruments fit them also give them silly alias lol. -They must sound terrible without drums hahaha I accept ideas for who must play drums on the band. -Here Yokomizo is an ex member who passed away and basically only talks to Mushitaro who can see ghosts, they had something going on but you know, we need angst. -Sigma is with the mystery novel trio* cause I think he may have a good dynamic with the group, must be funny if they interacted in canon. -I just read this bl manga "dear my killer tune" I loved it and reminded me of my band!au, went to check the files and they look nice so here you go :p