#denial.txt

[modeofgauze]

its ok because the english aren’t real ❤️ they dont actually exist

[luvoxmilk]

me: omg i can never remember anything abt the system wtf i forget that certain alters even Exist omg im faking

thats what the amnesia is you dumb fuck

[rw-bee]

how...did the god magic...get in the post-scratch humans. wasn’t removing the magic the whole point

[luvoxmilk]

i am so scared that i accidentally made myself have OSDD somehow :)

logically i know that ive had symptoms since Forever and now that im acknowledging them im more likely to notice them because thats just how brains work but help :)

[luvoxmilk]

i dont know if internal chatter has been heightened recently because im feeling ill or what but why did someone just say “air bnb” in my head and why do i feel like this isnt the first time air bnbs have been discussed in my mind without my knowledge

im coming to terms with the fact that my intrusive thoughts are typically like OCD related like oh u have to do this thing or bad stuff will happen and stuff but i have always gotten these “intrusive thoughts” that are just random words or phrases that im not thinking at all they just pop into my head and are those alters…………..i dont know i will get back to u on that but wow

[luvoxmilk]

if im faking why do i continue to track switches and do unblurring exercises <\3

[luvoxmilk]

there r a lot of similar ages and pronouns in my system and it makes me feel like a dirty faker :D

i didnt really realize it until i started trying to organize it and send help honestly im trying to remind myself that systems can look like anything because its personal and ughdhdyfhdsgdhfh my head hurts

[amandlas]

aw i can't believe htgawm is over :( so sad that it's no longer running after three seasons but hey at least wes is still alive happy and eating elotes preparados in mexico with laurel while they wait for their baby to be born